Disclaimer: I do not own Corrie.

"Oh my god, Sian, you're bloody soaked"

"Hey, can I come in?" Sian asked with raindrops falling from her hair.

To me she never looked more beautiful than right in this moment.

I smiled

"Course, let me get you something warm so you don't catch a cold" I let her in.

She walked past me and sat down on the couch.

I grabbed a blanket and threw it around her.

She sighed and looked over to me.

I got lost in her eyes and hurryingly busied myself making my way over to the kitchen

"I'll make us a hot chocolate. You must be freezing, Sian. Why did you come here through the storm?" I put the kettle on and came back to the couch and sat down besides her.

Carefully I put a little distance between us.

The blonde beauty looked at me with her emerald eyes

"I wanted to make sure you're alright. Since you never answered any of my messages or called me back I started to get worried"

Damn, I hated myself for worrying her,that was not what I aimed for

"Thanks, but I'm fine, really"

She looked me right in the eyes, I could tell she knew it was a lie.

Sian could read me like a book, it was pretty scary sometimes.

"Soph, why have you been avoiding me? Why do you lie to me?"

I saw the hurt in her eyes.

"I didn't" I mumbled, I hated lieing to her, but I had no choice.

It was selfish to not tell her the truth just to keep her, but I needed her.

I couldn't lose her and that's what was supposed to happen if I told her the truth.

That I have fallen for her, that the thought of her being with anyone else or her being touched by anyone else made me sick, that her eyes where the first thing I would like to see every morning for the rest of my life, that her smile could brighten my day even in my darkest hour… I could go on endlessly…Sian is so amazing…But she'll never be mine and that understanding hurt so damn much.

She grabbed my hand which got me out of my little day-dream, I saw her still staring at me. Holding my gaze, trying to work out what was wrong with me.

"Please Sophie, tell me, whatever it is. Don't you trust me anymore? I'm your best friend, aren't I?"

Overwhelmed with the physical contact by our touching hands and her thinking my avoidance was me not trusting her anymore, I got up and walked over to the kettle. Sian sighed disappointed by the loss of our contact and me running away, avoiding the situation again

"It not that I don't trust you, Sian I…I just can't talk about this with you"

I didn't realize that she was right behind me when she whispered a barely audible

"Why?" into my ear, which send me shivers down my spine.

Having her so close drove me insane, I couldn't control myself when she was just an inch away, so for the sake of this conversation and our relationship I tried to put some space between us.

She seemed confused. I think she started to realize what was going on, which scared the hell out of me.

"It has got something to do with…"

Damn, I couldn't lie her clearly in the face.

What should I do now?

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