A/N- thank you so much to all of you who reviewed. I know it's been awhile and honestly I have no excuse beyond I was just being lazy. I hope you enjoy this chapter!
000
Jayne-
I scrubbed the floor fiercely, not caring about the tears that soaked my cheeks. My hands were blistering, and starting to bleed, but I couldn't feel the pain. The sobs were racking my body as Lance came through the door, near tears himself. He knelt down on the floor next to me, pulling my body close, trying to kiss away my tears, but it was no use, they could not be stopped.
"Jayne, please, I'll be back." He said, rubbing my back and sides, trying to calm me, "Love, please I can't leave you like this."
I looked up at him for the first time. I must have looked terrible, red eyes, tear stained cheeks, hair everywhere. But he just kissed me lightly on the mouth, not a word did he speak of my disheveled look. "I'm sorry, Lance. I'm truly sorry. I try so hard to be strong for you, but I cannot. I do not want you to go today. I want you here with me. I need you here with me." I kissed him hard on this mouth with no warning, kissing his neck next and the top of his chest. I could hear him inhale sharply at the contact and feel him harden through my skirts.
He pushed me back slightly, "No love, not here."
I looked up at him, tears still falling from my eyes, "Please, Lance, I need it."
He took my hand in his and led me quickly to his bedroom chambers, with me rushing behind him, practically being dragged, wiping the tears from my face with my free hand.
The second we got through the door and slammed it shut, he had me up against the door, kissing me passionately.
"I'm going to miss you so much, Jayne." He whispered against my mouth in a raspy voice, before crushing his mouth against mine again.
I ran my hands through his short hair, stepping up on tip toes to become closer to him. He pressed his hands into the small of my back, pulling my lower body closer to his, then with a never-by-your-leave he swiftly picked me up and carried me over to the bed, not once taking his lips off of mine.
Lance placed me gently onto his bed and began to work the ties on the side of my dress, while I pulled his shirt out of his pants. He slipped my dress down to my waist as I helped him pull his shirt over his head, immediately pushing myself up to kiss his chest. I couldn't get enough of his body. He looked like a reincarnation of one of the old Gods.
Lance must have been just as eager to touch me as well, because he gently pushed me back down on the bed and began kissing my stomach, up to my breasts, teasing me with his teeth and tongue. When his mouth landed on my nipples, I arched into him, moaning.
I couldn't take much more of this, I needed to feel him completely. The grief made me impatient to feel that connection with him, "Lance…please…" I begged,
He understood my unspoken request, and quickly finished undressing us. He moved between my legs and at last joined with me, as I cried out. Oh to love this man…
000
Lance-
I had her wrapped in my arms, and I couldn't imagine letting her go. I didn't want to leave, and wasn't sure how I'd walk out of the gates of the city. Before I began this relationship with her, I was almost excited before battle, yes a bit terrified, but excited as well. It was a rush to be on the field. But now with Jayne, naked in my arms, I no longer felt protecting my country was the most important thing in my life. She was all I wanted, nothing more. If I had to give up everything to be with her I would, without a second thought.
I kissed her lightly on the cheek, and brushed her hair behind her ear, "I have to go Jayne." Tears started welling up in her eyes, and I felt my own as well. I didn't know how to be brave anymore.
She kissed me lightly on the lips, than inhaled, gathering her composure. "I shall be strong for you Lance." And I'm afraid that's when I lost it, I gathered her in my arms and rested my head on her shoulders, and sobbed. Never before have I done such a thing, crying was a woman's job after all. But in that moment, I felt like a child that just wanted to hide in their room. Once I composed myself a bit, I got up off the bed and began to put my armor on. With one last kiss, I left, looking back for only a second to see Jayne, lying in my bed. When I get back, that's the sight I'll see every day, I thought as I shut the door.