Cuts and Cake

Chapter 15:

Sebastian patted down his tangled hair and stared down at his chest, admiring the single love bite that Ciel had given him. Of course he had given the boy a lot more, but one from Ciel was worth more considering how shy he was.

Unable to help it, he burst into a smile, then he remembered what he had done the previous day and sobered. He had killed his foster parents and narrowly avoided a murder charge and was likely to end up back in a children's home. Hopefully it would be nearby so he could still go to the same school and see Ciel.

As he pondered his situation the door was pushed open and Ciel entered the room dressed in a white shirt and a pair of black shorts holding two steaming patterned teacups. He flushed immediately when he saw that Sebastian was still naked.

The naked teenager was very amused by the cute reaction. "Why are you so shy? You saw everything last night and I saw everything of yours." He helpfully struck a pose on the bed as if to remind him.

Ciel's mouth twitched and he concentrated on trying to keep his body's reaction under control. He held out the cup in his left hand to Sebastian.

"It's coffee and contains no added sugar or hot chocolate powder."

Sebastian sat up and accepted the offered cup. Ciel sat down next to him, wincing as he did.

"How painful is it?" Sebastian asked concernedly, worried that he might have gone too far.

"Painful. What about you?"

"Not at all," he replied before taking a sip of coffee.

Ciel's face flashed a brilliant red as he remembered details.

"What's with the outfit?" the coffee drinker decided to change the subject for the sake of Ciel- he would continue that one later when he wasn't so sore.

"Aunt Ann brought it for me a few days ago and said I would look adorable in it. I was hoping that it might cheer her up when she wakes up if she sees me wearing it. I refuse to wear the knee high socks and high heeled shoes though," Ciel explained and pulled the hems of his shorts down, self conscious about his pale skinny legs. "What do you think?"

"I would prefer it with cat ears," Sebastian considered thoughtfully, leaning a little closer. "Or perhaps with no clothes at all."

"You pervert-" Ciel was silenced by Sebastian's forceful lips moving against his.

After a minute of kisses Sebastian paused to let Ciel get his breath back before moving in to attack him again. As he started unbuttoning Ciel's blouse the phone rang, punctuating the seductive atmosphere.

"It must be the hospital," Ciel said breathlessly as Sebastian released him to allow him to leave the room to answer it.

If it hadn't been an important call Sebastian would have ignored the noise and continued. Those shorts really did make him look cuter, had it been a manga he would have probably spurted blood out of his nose by now. Sebastian still wondered why a 16 year old with the body of a 12 year old boy had the effect on him.

The subject of his thought burst into the room as he was putting on his clothes from the day before. He immediately knew from the smile on Ciel's face that it was good news.

"Aunt Angelina woke up five minutes ago," Ciel informed him happily. "She needs to stay in the hospital for a while to recover, but the doctor said I can visit her regularly."

Sebastian smiled. Ever since Angelina Durless had been stabbed her fate had been looming over them as her death would affect them both.

"Aunt Ann asked me a few days ago about what I thought of her adopting you," Ciel said suddenly, on the spur of the moment. He hadn't been intending to tell Sebastian until he knew more information about his aunt's condition, but he couldn't just let Sebastian worry about his future.

Sebastian blinked. "Is that true? And what did you say?"

"I agreed, but of course we need your permission and she isn't in the condition to be signing papers right now… Anyway, what do you think?"

"Well, we would be step-brothers so having sex with you would feel a little incestuous…"

A vein pulsed in Ciel's forehead. "Just answer the damn question!"

4 Months later

"Ciel! Get in the car or you will be late this time!" Angelina Durless shouted from the driveway, a little quieter than she would have done four months ago.

Ciel pelted down the stairs, hurriedly flattening his hair to hide his eye patch and ran into the kitchen to pick up his lunch. His step-brother/boyfriend handed him his lunch with a playful smile.

"I swear that you are late every day, Ciel. Maybe I should stop visiting you at night so you can get more sleep," Sebastian suggested and leaned in closer. "We'll have to do it during the day though."

He grabbed Ciel's face and kissed him.

"Sebastian and Ciel, I don't care what you are doing to each other, just get in the car!" Angelina shouted, ruining the moment.

The pair parted reluctantly. Despite living with Sebastian for four months Ciel was still not in control of his blushes and still went bright red whenever Sebastian did anything to him.

His aunt sighed as they got in the car.

"Why do we have to go through this every morning? Sebastian, just wake Ciel up on time tomorrow and don't be persuaded by his puppy dog looks or anything he says."

"I'm sorry," Sebastian apologised before ruffling Ciel's hair. "But I have trouble saying no to him."

"That is obvious," Angelina remarked dryly. "Have you got your lunch, Ciel? I hope it is not just cake like it was yesterday."

Sebastian flinched awkwardly. He had been planning to make Ciel a healthy lunch, but Ciel had persuaded him otherwise and he had ended up in trouble with his step-mother for it and he had been intending to stay on her good side.

Angeline Durless had been discharged from hospital two weeks ago. During her stay she had officially adopted him and he was grateful that she had gotten over her evident mistrust of him and was allowing him to stay with Ciel. He was also very sure that she knew he was sleeping with her nephew- he had given Ciel some very obvious love bites. So he was trying his best to stay on her good side; he had seen how good she was with a knife.

Whilst thinking about knives, Sebastian glanced unconsciously at Ciel. The day before he had checked underneath the loose floorboard in Ciel's bedroom and found that the knife was still there, albeit with a layer of dust which showed that Ciel was still unsure about his life in the long run. He resolved to have a talk with him about their relationship later.

Catching his glance Ciel gave him a sharp look. He had a good idea what Sebastian was thinking about. It was a subject that he had been avoiding dealing with- he told himself he was just keeping the knife as insurance. He also knew that Sebastian was going to confront him soon about it. Before that happened he knew he would have to come to terms with everything.

That evening, after dinner and washing up- Angelina had assigned Sebastian to household chores, Sebastian knocked on Ciel's bedroom door to have a talk about his little "habit."

There was no answer so he opened the door to find the room in darkness, with the moonlight being the only source.

"Ciel?" he called out uncertainly.

His sharp eyes perceived a movement by the window and he stepped closer to see Ciel on the floor, hugging his knees with the focal point of his planned conversation (the knife) lying on the floor beside him.

"Ciel?"

The boy looked up at him morosely. "I can't get rid of it. I keep trying to stop…"

To explain he held up his finger with blood slowly dripping from the tip.

Concernedly Sebastian walked towards him and sat down opposite him.

"You have avenged your parents now, your persecutors are dead, and you can live in peace now, Ciel. You have no need to harm yourself now."

Ciel's only response was to look down at the floor.

Sebastian desperately tried another tack.

"There is nothing for you to worry about now. I will protect you, I am here for you."

"That's the problem!" Ciel shouted, coming back to life. "How do I know that you aren't just going to get bored of me and walk out? You've done it to other people before."

Sebastian flinched, aghast at the accusation. Was that what Ciel was now afraid of? He couldn't blame him though. His past history would never work in his favour. He had left a lot of people like Grell and Mey-Rin.

He pulled the boy into his arms, unsure of how to convince him that he was never going to leave him.

"Ciel, I promise that I am not going to get tired of you and leave you. I love you," he said softly.

He picked up Ciel's cut finger and sucked the blood out whilst holding Ciel's gaze.

"You really don't need to do this anymore, Ciel."

Ciel sighed. "I will only throw the knife away if you make a contract with me to always stay by my side," he said, sounding more like his usual self.

Sebastian smiled at the irony of the situation. Ciel had been unwilling to make a contract with him in the first place and now he was offering to make one with him.

"You really don't need to do this, but if it will convince you… I agree to your terms."

Ciel silently picked up the knife, opened the window and took a deep breath. The knife seemed to stick to his hand, but when he thought about Sebastian he mustered up enough courage to throw the knife as far away as he could out of the window. He closed his eyes so he would not see where the knife landed.

Sebastian pulled Ciel by the waist and kissed him happily. Ciel managed to finally whisper a confession between their kisses.

"I love you."

He hadn't told Sebastian yet, but he knew that his new contractee knew.

Sebastian rolled his eyes. "I've been waiting for you to say that for ages. But I know how hard it is to say. Now, would you mind saying it again?"

"Hmm, make me."

"I will," Sebastian said and pushed Ciel down. "I am one hell of a pervert after all."

Ciel made a face at Sebastian's words, then he relented. After 6 years of misery and fear about his parent's death and their killers he was finally able to lead a normal life. Or as normal life as he could get.

Not everyone was a teenager Earl and had a boyfriend like Sebastian.

The End

It is finally the end of this fanfiction. I would like to thank those patient people who have waited for these final chapters and I would also like to thank all those regular reviewers for motivating this fanfic which was originally started as an experiment. This has been my most popular fanfiction and I would like to write another Kuroshitsuji fanfiction in the future.

I also apologise to those who were hoping for a lemon. I have absolutely no experience in this area and I wanted to keep the rating as it was.

Now I should probably start revising for that Chemistry test... and do that pile of homework. A-levels are so hard...

Cakes referenced:

Carrot Cake: a cake which contains carrots. Originates from Sweden

Strawberry Shortcake: a Japanese cake containing cream and strawberries. (Often seen in Manga and Anime. I had it when I went to Japan)

Victoria Sponge: a sponge cake that was named after Queen Victoria who always had cake with her afternoon tea. Consists of strawberry jam and cream sandwiched between two sponge cakes.

Butterfly Cakes: a variant of English Fairy Cakes, the top of the cake is carved out and cut in half and the hole is filled with a sweet filling, usually cream of buttercream and then the halves are stuck into it to resemble butterfly wings.

Angel Cake: a type of layer cake which originated from Great Britain and consists of two or three layers of sweet sponge cake which are often coloured white, pink and yellow with a thin layer of white cream. It is traditionally sold in long bars or small slices.