Waking up is always the hardest part of my morning. I don't want to get out of bed. But I have to.
After an average breakfast, I head off to the library. It gets boring during class times, but occasionally students wander in to return materials. During lunch breaks Hanako always comes in, sometimes accompanied by Lilly or Hisao. Naomi never comes in. Neither does … he.
I spend the afternoon at the café. Different groups of students come in. The Student Council duo sometimes skips class together to visit me. Other times it's the limbless pair. Lilly and Hanako don't come often, but they come when they can. Hisao visits often, always with one of the pairs. It's nice to have friends supporting me.
My studies are tiresome, but it's only a matter of time. Once I have a degree, Yamaku can hire me as a full teacher and I can stop waitressing. Maybe then Naomi will pay more attention to me. Maybe I can be her teacher. Or perhaps his.
My nights are spent wondering if I did anything wrong today. I always did something wrong. It's who I am. I keep trying to change. I think it's pointless though. I'll never be able to change. I'm not like Hisao, or like the girls. They can change. I can't. I'm static. I'll always just be another screw-up everyone has to clean up after.