Friday, after, ...and during..., the whole kissing Arthur thing, was actually a lot of fun, and I almost forgot about my bruder, until I moved wrong, causing my leg to start hurting, and a few of my scabs tore off. We didn't finally crash till probably close to four in the morning, after we watched probably three movies. I learned to never sit by Alfred when watching a scary movie, Matthew made that mistake, and Al never let the poor boy go, though, something tells me he didn't really mind it all that much. I also realized that Kiku doesn't mind either, because Feliciano never even peeked from where he was sitting behind the other, holding onto his hands as if he was dying. I found it amusing. Arthur curled up on the edge of the couch a bit, but other than that, he didn't jump or scream, I figured he'd be the one afraid of them.
Waking up to the smell of food, I opened my eyes, and blinked a few times before glancing around, thankfully I wasn't the only one awake, Alfred and Matthew were sitting huddled, each with a plate of waffles. Al looked up and grinned, then shouted to someone else.
"Hey mom! Could you bring a plate for cripple? He woke up!" Glaring at him, he just pushed his glasses up, laughed, then went back to eating, looking back as a woman with blonde hair walked into the room, she smiled at me, then held out a plate.
"Here you go- Oh my..." I lowered my gaze, she had noticed all the cuts on me, she turned to Alfred, who swallowed and sighed.
"I told you, we're still trying to get him to tell us what happened." Thinking back to yesterday, I held my eyes shut tightly, trying to avoid crying when it sounded like Gilbert was there talking right in my ear.
"Heaven knows why I was stuck with a good for nothing little bruder like you! Do me a favor and go kill yourself for real this time! I don't want to deal with you anymore!"
"...wig? Ludwig!" Opening my eyes quickly, Alfred was right in front of, it wasn't just Matthew that looked worried, so did Alfred and his mom. "You were shaking... Badly... Are you okay?" I nodded, looking down embarrassed, the plate was set down beside me on the couch, then Al's mom ruffled my hair.
"I want you to know, that if you ever need a safe place to stay, you're always welcome here, okay?" I nodded, then smiled to myself, and looked up at her.
"Thank you ma'am." She ruffled my hair again, then turned to Alfred, giving him a mischevious smirk.
"Why can't you be as nice as your friends? I'd trade one of these two for you any day." Al's jaw dropped, I looked down, trying not to laugh, Matthew hid a smile behind his hand, also looking down.
"Mom!" She laughed then hurried out of the room, shaking my head, I took the plate onto my lap, then turned to Alfred, as he sat there with his cheeks puffed out, in his normal pout.
"I'm jealous of you..." He hesitated, the looked up, smiling sadly, before glancing around to make sure she was gone.
"Yesterday, when they went to go get you, I warned my mom, and she said as long as you need sanctuary, you're allowed to stay here... You'd have to explain everything, but she'd let you if she knew your life was at risk." Matthew glanced over at Al, then pushed his waffle around a bit, then turned to me.
"Why do you let him do that to you..." I hesitated, taking a bite of the waffles, trying to stall, I still didn't want to tell them, because surely they wouldn't understand why I do what I do, even if Gilbert get's mad and does stuff like this to me. I always go back...
"I don't want to talk about it." He kept his gaze on me, and when I looked up, he sighed then nodded, going back to eating silently, Alfred glanced over as well, turning my gaze away as he moved closer to the more timid blonde, I noticed something I hadn't before. Feliciano and Kiku, who were both still asleep, were sleeping together, not only right next to each other, but I could see Feli's arms around the other. I couldn't help but smirk, glancing over at Alfred and Matthew they looked up confused. "How long have they been together? Do you know?" They looked at each other, then Al nodded, beaming at them.
"Feliciano finally got the nerve to ask him out last week. They were going to tell you, but got scared when..." Ah, they got scared I would be disgusted, stop hanging around them, and actually succeed in killing myself... I sat silently for a second, then chuckled, turning to Alfred again.
"Finally." They were stunned, then laughed and nodded, looking over at them with smirks. I'm sure they heard about me calling Arthur a fag when I was angry at him, that probably didn't help that they were afraid to tell me, but I really didn't have a problem with it, I was just pissed.
"It was so obvious that they liked each other, everyone knew it, eh?" Nodding, I turned my attention to Arthur as he shifted on the other side of the couch, the way he was curled up made me think of a little kid... A very adorable little kid...
You are so GAY!
He shifted again, then moved to rub his eyes and sit up, looking down at my food, I continued eating, glancing over at Alfred and Matthew, they looked at each other confused, then Al smirked and looked at his brother.
"Yo, mom has waffles in the kitchen. Might want to get some while they're hot." He groaned, then climbed to his feet, stretching as we walked out, instantly the two blondes turned to me, smirking.
"So, about last night. When you and Arthur came into the living room, why were you both blushing really bad?" Oh Gott, they saw that? Shit... Putting the last bit of food in my mouth gave me a few seconds to think, why do they have to ask these questions when I just woke up?
"I started falling when my leg gave out on me, and we kinda had an awkward moment when I caught myself." Al raised his eyebrows, but didn't say anything as Arthur walked into the room, dropping his brothers phone on his lap.
"Don't forget you have an appointment at three." Now Alfred groaned, and landed with a thud on the floor as he fell back, laughing a bit, Matthew freaked out and made sure he was okay while Arthur rolled his eyes.
"But I hate the dude who's there for Dr. Edelstein." Looking over quickly, Al froze, giving me a confused look. "What?"
"You see my uncle?" Now he was silent, his eyes wide and horrified, obviously no one was supposed to know he went to therapy, since that was what my uncle Roderich did. As his phone went off, he opened it, then typed quickly, looking up at me after a second.
"You won't tell anyone, will you?" I shook my head, then crossed my arms annoyed, what was it with people and thinking I would tell their secrets? Arthur asked me the same thing when I found out he went too.
Because they don't trust you enough, and they don't trust you because they don't care about you, you're nothing to them, nothing but a waste of space. Killing yourself would make their lives so much better. If you really cared about them, that's what you should do.
Gott, shut up already! You're so annoying!
There is nothing wrong with you. You are who you're meant to be. Rewards come to those who wait, and endure the pain.
Great, another one. Sighing, I leaned my head back against the couch, jumping when a phone rang, looking around, the others checked their phones then shook their head, until their mom poked her head in.
"Ludwig, it's your uncle, he wants to talk to you..." Climbing up from the couch, I winced, but did my best to put pressure on my injured leg, walking it off was always something I had been taught, even when I was younger. Stepping out of the room, she handed me the phone, then moved into the living, passing by again shortly with plates.
"Hallo?" For a second I could only hear them talking quickly on the other end, how did he know I was here? Or was it Alfred that told him?
"Ludwig? I was informed that you were injured, are you okay?" Sighing, I glanced into the living room, becoming suspicious when the three of them were huddled, seeming to be talking in hushed tones.
"Yeah, thanks to Arthur I'm fine for now, but I think Gilbert's going to kick me out, he was threatening to yesterday." He was silent for second, then spoke to someone else, most likely Elizaveta by the sound of the yelling in the background.
"Tell me, nothing has gotten better with him, has it?" Hesitating, I glanced into the living room again, then moved away from the door, lowering my tone drastically, not wanting them to over hear me.
"I-I want to help him, but I'm terrified... He's tried to kill me once, threatened to another time, and told me not to fail if I try to commit suicide again..." He sighed, and it was a while before he spoke again, he sounded troubled.
"I don't care how much you argue, you're coming to live with us. I'm not risking your life by leaving you there... Only, we won't be home till Wednesday. Do you think he would have any problem with letting you stay to more days?" I hesitated, could I last two days is what he should be asking, he's getting worse by the day... "How about this, I'll give him a call and work something out. Could you give the phone back to Mrs. Jones again? Take care of yourself, and Elizaveta says she loves you." Smiling to myself, I said farewell, then poked my head into a room I took to be the kitchen, where Mrs. Jones was still cooking.
"Ma'am, he wants to know if he can speak with you?" She turned to me and nodded with a smile, ruffling my hair for a third time as she took the phone.
"You don't have to be so formal Ludwig. We're all family here." Smiling I nodded, then moved back into the living room as she shoo'd me away, Arthur looked over as I came back into the room. Sitting back down, I realized Feli and Kiku were awake now, crossing my arms, they looked over at me nervously, and I smirked.
"You two need to tell me these things sooner, because you know what, it's about damn time." They laughed, both of them turning a dark red, looking over, I caught Arthur watching me, he looked away quickly, cheeks turning a faint pink. Shaking my head, I smiled, then leaned back, I don't know how I ever doubted my friends.
Alfred returned from his appointment around five, with seven more movies, around six we put the first one in, it was a horror movie, but we all wanted to watch it. This time though. Arthur was terrified. He ended up sitting next to me, his knees held to his chest, at one point we all jumped, and my heart skipped when Arthur grabbed my hand. Glancing over nervously, I noticed he was trembling, hesitating for a second, I moved my arm around his waist, pulling him a bit closer, he froze and when I looked over, you could see the red on his cheeks. He shifted slightly, moving even closer, and my cheeks burned when his arms wrapped around me loosely, looking over, he was still trembling, just not as bad. I couldn't help but smile to myself, well, until the movie made me jump again.
Well it's official, you have been turned gay. You're now disgusting.
Rolling my eyes, I ignored the voice, keeping my attention on the movie, we all shouted when it ended.
"Oh come on! That was one of the worst endings ever!" Watching Alfred freak out more than the rest of us, I couldn't help but laugh, and I barely noticed Kiku look back at Arthur and me, then nudge Feli.
"Ve~ Look who's talking Lutz." Looking at him confused, he smacked his palm to his forehead, but by now, Alfred and Matthew and turned, seeing Arthur and me, sighing, I chuckled as he hid his blush by putting his face against my shoulder. "You told us it was about time." Now I was really confused. "Mio dio! And they say I'm clueless." Shaking my head as we moved down to the floor, letting someone else have the couch, Matt and Alfred moved over to where Feli and Kiku had been. Sitting with my back against the couch, Arthur sat more on his side facing me, putting my arm back around his waist, his head moved to rest on my shoulder. I didn't really pay attention to the movie really, I was more preoccupied with what Feli had said. Had it seemed as if I liked Arthur before? It was just a recent thing I thought, something that yesterday spurred... Had it been a subconscious thing? Liking him without really noticing it yet?
It was obvious to someone at least. Then again, he's always been sensitive to that kind of thing hasn't he?
That was true... Feliciano could always tell when I liked someone, even before I knew it myself, so what could I expect? I guess I always have felt drawn to Arthur...
"Ludwig?" Looking down, Arthur was gazing up at me curiously. "Are you okay? You seem out of it." Smiling, I lightly laid my forehead against his.
"I'm fine, I was just thinking about something. I'm sorry to have worried you." Feeling his arms move around my waist again, I pulled him even closer, he smiled nervously.
"Promise?" My heart raced as I moved, lightly pressing my lips to his, he seemed shocked, but kissed back after a second. Pulling away again, I rested my forehead back against his.
"I promise." Again he smiled as his head moved back to rest on my shoulder, when the second movie came to an end, I glanced over, Alfred was leaning against the couch asleep, while Matthew was asleep with his head on the others lap. Smirking I looked up at Feli and Kiku, they were both a bit preoccupied to even notice the movie was over, Arthur moved, speaking quietly.
"Will you tell me what happened?" Looking back up at the two on the couch, he seemed to understand, because he climbed up and helped me to my feet, briefly looking back as we left the room, they hadn't even noticed. Arthur lead me into a different room, that seemed to be a smaller living room, jeez, how big was there house? Sitting on the couch in her, he sat next to me, crossing his legs. "Now, you said you'd tell me." Looking down, I sighed, still not really wanting to talk about it, but honestly, who would?
"...I don't..." He made me look up at him, pleading silently, turning my gaze down I was startled when he suddenly leaned forward and kissed me. For a second, I froze, then pulled him closer, sliding my arms around his waist as he carefully moved to straddle my waist. Feeling his hands move to my shoulders, he pulled away only slightly, his voice taking a different tone. One I couldn't really describe.
"At least tell me who did it... Because it sure as hell was not a bloody accident..." When I hesitated again, he pressed his lips back to mine. As he shifted on my lap a bit, the air caught in my throat for a second and caused me to squirm a little, he obviously noticed, because he did it again not moments later. Grabbing his hips, he pulled away from the kiss, smirking.
"St-stop that..." For a second he actually looked confused, then his smirk grew into a grin as he moved to rest his forehead against mine.
"Stop what? This?" This time he full on pressed his hips against mine, gritting my teeth, I nodded, tightening my grip on his hips, I pulled him away again.
"J-ja, that..." He pried my hands away from his hips, holding them against the back of the couch, his fingers slipped between mine. Bringing his lips back to mine, he also pressed against me again, making me moan quietly into the kiss, pulling away, I looked at him, almost to the point of begging.
"Pl-please... Stop..." His look was defiantly a guilty one, lightly he kissed my forehead, then removed his hands from mine, setting them back on my shoulders.
"Sorry... Kinda got carried away..." Pulling his head down, I kissed him lightly, after a second he moved away again, I chuckled and he looked at me confused.
"You're going to drive me nuts, you know that, right?" He nodded with a laugh, bringing his lips only centimeters away from mine, just to prove my point.
"Oh I know, but you've done it to me for years..." Briefly his lips met mine, then he pulled away again. "So now it's your turn." Chuckling, I brought his lips back to mine, ignoring it when he slid closer to wrap his arms around my neck.
God you're so disgusting.
Authors Note:
So there's chapter four, I don't remember if this is late or not, but, I hope you enjoyed anyway. XD