Standard Disclaimer: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho, Yoshihiro Togashi does, but I did wish I owned it (sob). If I did Hiei and Kurama should have been together…

9 Months of Maternity

Chapter 21- In the Darkness, I remember my past…

As the weeks past it was almost impossible for Hiei move around, Kurama usually did the Shopping for their baby, Hiei always insisted that he wanted to come with his mate, but Kurama didn't approve. Hiei had to follow Genkai's instructions. It was strictly implemented by Kurama; besides if Mukuro were there she wouldn't let Hiei do anything but rest. It was like being in a military, for Hiei, but it was for the best.

It was night, it was raining. There was a storm. There was a black out. Inside the apartment, there was no source of light but the candles Kurama had brought out. It wasn't stuffy; rather, there was a feeling of moist cold air. Kurama and Hiei just ate their dinner, Kurama couldn't prepare anything special, and the foods inside the fridge were not edible. Instead they ate cup noodles, it wasn't real food but that was the stored food Kurama had just in case of an emergency.

Both demons settled in their living room hoping soon there would be electricity. Hiei was slowly drifting to sleep.

"Koi, you better get inside the room and sleep, or else you'll end up sleeping here in the living room." Kurama said slightly waking his mate.

Hiei mourned with hesitation. The atmosphere was cold and dark, only one candle was their only source of light.

"Koi?" Kurama tried waking the fire demon.

Hiei woke up. "Kurama, let's go to bed together, I always end up sleeping first. Besides it's cold."

Kurama smiled. "Okay koi, let's go."

Both demons headed to their room, Hiei washed up a bit, and so did Kurama. Right after they fell in their bed.

"Come closer Hiei, I want to embrace you and keep you warm for the rest of the night." Kurama said to his mate.

Hiei did as what the fox demon told him to do. He snuggled, trying to make himself comfortable.

"Good night Hiei." Kurama kissed Hiei on the forehead.

"Good night." Hiei said as Kurama kissed him.

"Also good night my precious treasure." Kurama said, referring to the baby.

Kurama blew the candle, it was completely dark. The rain was strong, and it was cold.

They were about to sleep, this time Hiei couldn't sleep. Kurama was falling asleep, embracing his fire demon, keeping him warm. As for Hiei, he lost his will to sleep. He kept awake. Everything was dark/

Hiei tossed and turned, trying to feel as comfortable as he can. Because of the moist feeling he got, it made him uncomfortable. He stood from the bed. Went by the window and observed the rain, like he always used to in the past.

Hiei was used to not sleeping on a bed, before he even met Kurama he used to sleep on the trees, anywhere he found to be comfortable. Hiei would sleep in the rain if he had to, during that time in his life he had no home, and no one loved him. But it was in the past, all the bitterness that he felt was blown by the wind, he let go of his past, and moved on.

'The past…I know that it doesn't hinder me from going to the future, or moving on. But can I say the same thing for me? Is my past even worth remembering?'

Hiei watched the rain, the clouds, and the stars, how the trees swayed, everything outside the apartment. Hiei didn't realize but he was slowly drifting to sleep. He was seated on the ground, leaning against the wall; a dream had created in Hiei's slumber.

'I remember that day as clear as day, the elders, they wanted to abolish me. I didn't understand at first, my mother wanted me back, she wanted me to live but the elders were strict, they thought of me as an embarrassment, as a curse. The woman who held me in her arms, she including my mother were the only ones who ever showed kindness to me. She gave me my mother's tear gem, the tear gem I treasured my whole life. Soon after, I was thrown off. I was only a few days old, but I survived that fall. I said to myself, when I find that island ever again, I swear to kill everyone who did this to me.

I was found by a group of low life bandits, they took me in, that was the temporary family I had. As I grew up I fought many fights, and managed to win them all. I was capable of being on my own. And so I was. In one fight, I lost my most precious memory of love, the tear gem of my mother. I had to find it.

I asked the demon surgeon Shigure to implant the jagan eye on me. It was painful, but the pain I felt inside me was far worst. I learned how to use the sword with the help of Shigure; soon I left without a good-bye. In a matter of days, I found the floating island of the Koorime. I went there, the ice maidens feared me as they saw me. I didn't mind. I was used to it. I found the one thing I was searching for my whole life, my will of killing was changed.

As I walked, I saw the woman who had thrown me off. I knew she didn't wish to, but she had to follow orders. She came by the name Rui. I saw her beside a grave. She didn't know me. I had found out that my mother had died few days after I was thrown, her sadness killed her. She said that I had a twin sister; she came by the name Yukina. I was told that she left the island to find her brother.

Upon hearing this, I left; now, I had two things to look for, first my tear gem, and my sister. I went to all three worlds, the Demon world, the spirit world, and the Human world.

In the Human world, the first person I encountered was Kurama. I fought him, and he was truly powerful. I didn't give so much importance to our friendship that time. After a year, I met with him again, joining forces with him and Goki. This led to our unfaithful encounter with Yusuke Urameshi. From that time on, both of us were in the Spirit world most wanted list.

To make up for our crimes, the spirit world prince, Koenma ordered us to team up with Yusuke on his missions. I didn't bother; I just wanted my name cleared. But as time passed by, I grew to like humans, because of this Urameshi.

Yusuke had a case, which was to rescue an ice maiden. I soon learned that the ice maiden was Yukina, my sister. As I beat up the human who made my sister suffer, she stopped me. I was wondering why she made me, but I understood that she didn't want any more killing or violence. Then she asked me who I was. It hurt when I heard this. But it was natural for her not to know. And it was best that she didn't.

Many battles had past; the last that I could remember was when Mukuro had sent me to make an alliance with her. I didn't want to at first, but she had proven herself to me. In a tournament, I fought with her, and lost. I didn't want to admit defeat, but she was far too powerful for me. It may sound pathetic for a woman, but she was different. Mukuro gave me the last thing I have been searching in my life, which was my mother's tear gem, finally everything was at peace.

To be completely honest, I grew tired of fighting. I had no more purpose in my life. I only knew how to fight for myself, but it was a completely different feeling fighting for something or for someone.

There was a new demon king, knowing this fact, the demon world tournament ended. Everyone had to go back where they came from. Including Kurama.

I was bored in the Demon world, only serving Mukuro. I often go to the Human world and visit Kurama. He enjoyed the company. But a tragic incident had occurred without not knowing. As Kurama and I walked in the streets of Ningenkai, I was founded that my heart had shattered into pieces. I was transported to all three worlds.

I did not have no heart, no memories, nor did I have a soul. I was in a completely different world. But as one of the pieces of my memory was brought back to me, I felt warm. I may have been sleeping, but my heart was awake, this person who gave me such a warm feeling. It was Kurama.

In my sleep, I wanted to thank him. I really wanted to. Kurama was the only one who ever showed love to me. I grew to love him as well. It was an awkward feeling. But I loved it, it lightened me up.

Soon, my sister, Yukina, found out that I was her missing brother. It made me happier. I didn't even know or notice, all the pieces of my heart was brought back to me. I woke up. The first person I saw was Kurama. I was afraid to look at him, but he told me that he loved me. It even made me happier. I wanted to leap for joy.

I had my first kiss, it was given to my by the person I loved the most. It was a chaste kiss, filled with so much passion, and full of love. I will always remember that day, I kissed him, and he kissed me. I knew how to love, and I was loved.

Three years had past, as my relationship with Kurama grew to a different level. Not even knowing I was pregnant. I didn't even know that it was possible. I could tell that I was completely different, from the person I was after I was thrown off and up to that point in my life when I found out that I was pregnant. I cried, I was happy. I was bringing Kurama's child. We were going to be a family.

Kurama was careful with me, it annoyed me, but I always liked it when he did. I was like a very expensive glass, fragile. I loved the life I have. I have so much; I had been given so much.

The koorime elders found me pregnant, and captured me. It was the biggest fear of my life. I faced death so much times, but this was different. It was either; my child will be taken away from me. Or it would die. I was held captured for two months. I never saw Kurama in that span of time.

I killed the Koorime's like my ultimate will; I released the weapon that almost killed my child. Unconsciously, I was brought to Mukuro. Mukuro helped me, she brought Kurama to me, and our child had finally regained its normal progress.

And then my life has been at peace ever since then. I have my mate, who continues to love me; he has shown me a way to life again. The life I never dreamt of having. I have two mothers, even if they aren't bloodily related to me; they continue to love me as their son that is Mukuro, and Shiori. But I will always remember my mother, my mother who also loved me. It was just sad that I never saw her, but wherever she is now I bet she was happy. Happy that I, her son am happy.

I had attained all the treasures in my life. Everything was perfect, and I want to keep it that way.

Memories don't hinder us from remembering the past. Rather it is a constant reminder for the future.'

"Koi?"

It was still dark, probably early in the morning. It was still raining hard. But the black out was gone, there was electricity again. Kurama noticed that his fire demon wasn't with him on the bed, as he searched for him he found him on the ground against the wall, asleep.

Kurama was drowsy. But he went to his mate, not wanting to disturb him he carried Hiei and laid him on the bed. Hiei was sleeping soundly. Kurama lay beside his fire demon, and embraced him and fell to sleep again.

I had so much; I had been blessed with so much.

Hiei's life had some up's and downs. It started with such a tragic beginning, a person who thought that could never love, learned how to love.

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The next day, both demons woke early. The sun was shining. The outside was wet. Kurama went to prepare the breakfast before he left for work. Hiei on the other hand, watched his lover as he prepared the meal.

"Fox?"

"Yes, koi?" Kurama replied.

"You know I had a dream last night." Hiei began.

"Oh what about?"

"The past. Everything that happened from the point I was born up to now." Hiei said.

Kurama stopped what he was doing and turned to his lover. "Hiei?" Kurama was concerned, his lover would have been either sad or angry or he has completely forgotten about it, and kept everything in him. Kurama didn't know how to react.

"No, it's alright; it was rather a nice dream. I just realized now, in that dream that I had so much, I was so blessed. You lead a way to happiness in my life, Kurama. Thank you. There is nothing I can give in return to make me so happy." Hiei said smiling, about to cry, he felt joy.

Kurama went to his lover. "That is not true Hiei; you gave me your love. You gave me a child. I couldn't ask for anything more perfect." Kurama said to his lover. Giving him a quick light kiss on the lips.

"Thank you so much Kurama." Hiei embraced his lover so tight.

"I love you Hiei." Kurama returned the embrace of Hiei.

"I love you too Kurama. So much, very much."

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BDT: And so this is the summarized life of Hiei (for me) so far. My story is almost finished! Hehehe can't wait.

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