PART FOUR
"_?" someone calls.
I look up to the person only to be greeted by…
SLAP!
It's as if my world shakes at the impact. My hand flies to my now red cheek. I look back to the slapper and sees that it's Debrah. Her face is so furious. Her tears from before is now replaced by a death glare.
"You! You dared to humiliate me!" she shrieks. "I won't forgive you for this!"
"What is there to forgive? I didn't even do a single thing to you!" I shot back.
She then slaps me again. Right now, some tears are stinging on my eyes due to the pain.
"That's for meddling with my business!" she shouts at me. "The other slap is for humiliating me! And this one…" she prepares to slap me again, "is for—"
But before her hand can land on my other cheek, another hand grips at it, stopping it. Me and Debrah both looks at the person and we are both surprised to see…Castiel!
"That's enough, Debrah," he growls.
"C-Castiel?" she gasps.
"Enough already! I've heard enough from you and the others! It's over already so stop making things worse for you!"
"Castiel…" she stutters.
There goes the tear façade again…
"What's going on here?" suddenly, Lysandre arrives and immediately stand by my side.
If ever you're wondering where we are right now, we are by the school's backyard where no one really seems to go to except from some.
Debrah throws her tearing scheme away and now glares at Lysandre.
"You! I will never forget what the two of you did!" she screeches. "I—"
"Give it up, Debrah," I calmly say. "Back then, I hold back my tongue back because I don't want to make things worse but now is different. If I were you, just let it go."
She points a finger at me but says nothing. She then angrily huffs and stomps away from us, walking out.
I then feel Lysandre holds my hand and I look at him. His face etched with concern.
"Are you alright?" he asks worriedly.
And I nod at that.
"_..." Castiel utters. I turn back to him. "I…I understand if you're angry at me. And I know that it's quite too late to say this but…I'm sorry. If you want, you can slap me to get back at my previous cruel actions."
I just watch him. It's obvious that he really is sorry. But in his eyes, I can tell that he wants to say something else. I wonder what that is.
"It's not like it's your fault, Castiel," I decide to voice out. "And I already have forgiven you."
"Heh," he faintly smirks though a bit hesitant, "You really are just a good girl, aren't you? Forgiving people so easily…but…thank you, _"
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(CASTIEL'S POV)
Now everything is back to normal. _ and the other students whom apologized to her has settled down the matter and decided to forget what happened. Castiel, too, has decided to forget what happened.
After one month of settling down his thoughts, everything is now clear to him. When Debrah came back, he doesn't love her anymore. He was just with her because he felt responsible to be by her side, after all, they had a past history. But he doesn't love her anymore. He even doubts if he really did love her in the first place. Maybe, he was just attracted back then. Because…he now knows what it feels to really love someone.
When you love someone, you feel contented just to be by that person side. You feel so glad every time you see that person happy. You feel so energize every time you see that person's smile. And most of all you feel so alive because of that person.
And that's what he truly feels about _. He never knew what he really feels all this time not until he starts seeing her more often with Lysandre. He thought back then that he's just not used to it until realization hit him that it's just all because he's really jealous. Around that time, he has realized also his true feelings for her.
And he knows that sooner or later…he has to confess.
"Castiel?"
He looks up to the person who called him. Currently, he's cooping at the basement under the stairs, tuning his guitar.
"I thought no one was here…" _ says as she looks around and looks back at him. "What are you doing here?"
"Tuning my guitar obviously," he answers with a smirk. "What about you? What are you doing here?"
He then notices a notebook that she's holding but as soon as his eyes lay upon it, she hides it behind her.
"Nothing…" she says, a faint blush sneaking upon her face.
He just sighs. He wants to think of something they will talk about, after all, he doesn't want her to leave yet. And his lips form words without even considering his thoughts.
"_, I have something to tell you," says he.
"Hm?"
At this moment, he has no care about whatever his brain says. It's only this feeling for her that matters for now. "I know this seems out of blue…but…all this time…I really have been so stupid."
"Uh?" and then she giggles. "And you've just realized that?" she teases.
"I'm really stupid for not realizing sooner these feelings I have from you," he then places his guitar down and stands up from where he sat on the ground. He now faces her completely. "_...all this time…I…" he then stares deeply into her eyes as three sincere words come out from his lips: "I love you."
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(NORMAL POV)
"I love you."
My eyes widen at that. It can't be!
"Stop kidding around, Castiel," I say. "It's not funny!"
"I'm not kidding around," he stares deep into my eyes. "I'm serious, _."
Seriously, this can't be. Because today…it has been a month since that day…
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"I love you, _"
My face furiously blushed at the sudden confession. "EH?!"
"You heard me," he smiled gently and took my hand which he was still holding to his cheek. "I love you and I always have. At first, back when we first met, I was just curious about you. Then I began to like you but I lost hope when you admitted to me you like my friend. But now is different. I've just realized my feelings for you back when you cried. That face…with those tears…I can't help but to be angry at Castiel."
"Lysandre…I…"
"If the pain he cause is still there…Let me help you heal it…I will make you forget all the pain…all this nightmare has brought you…I can't promise but I will make you happy."
I didn't know what to say. I myself wasn't sure if I already gotten over Castiel… No…I was sure already. My feelings had vanished. I still saw Castiel as a friend but it was not like before. Because, as hard it was for me to admit it…all this time…the only one that I was always thinking of was Lysandre..But was it really okay for me to accept him?
"_," he chided. I looked at him and saw his smile turned into a sad one. "I knew it…You still love him, do you not?"
I closed my eyes and sighed. I cleared my mind. No, right now, I didn't have to use my mind…just my heart. I open my eyes once more and stared back to him. "No, I don't love him anymore…"
His eyes widened a bit at this. So he never expected for me to say that. Then I continued.
"Ever since you're with me, bit by bit, I started to move on….until one day I just woke up and realized that I have gotten over him," I say. "And ever since you're with me, I never felt so happy. I'm so happy just being with you not knowing why. I always feel safe with you. And that time, when you held me as I cry…I feel so warm…I feel I'm loved."
"_..." he uttered. "Is that true?"
"I do not have any reason to lie to you," I smile at him. "Because I feel…the same way about you, Lysandre."
"_..."
"I love you, too."
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Before I can even say a word, the door of the basement opens. Both of us look to who the person is and it turns out that it's Lysandre, holding a bouquet of my favorite flowers.
"Lysandre…" I utter staring at him.
"Ah, Castiel, you're here, too," Lysandre says.
"What's with the flowers, Lysandre?" Castiel asks. "If you're going to give it to someone then go and give it already. Why should you go here if you need to give that to someone?"
Lysandre smiles, mainly at me. "Actually that special someone is here. I don't need to go elsewhere." He says as he walks to me hands me the bouquet. "I'm not really used to this kind of thing but…" his smile turns into a sweet and loving one. "Happy one month."
I can't help but smile as I receive the flowers and let him embrace me. "Happy one month to us," I say. But then, I remember about Castiel…
"I see…" Castiel utters as he watches us.
Lysandre then pulls away. "I nearly forgot, we're not alone. Pardon my bold action, Castiel."
Castiel smirks but not his usual one. I can read it through the look that he's giving us that he's…hurt. "No, it's alright, Lysandre. I never knew that the two of you…"
"Ah, that," Lysandre sighs. "You know that I'm not someone who likes broadcasting my life. I just don't feel the need to tell anyone. After all, I always make it clear with my actions about _ and I."
"I see," Castiel looks down to the ground. "I'll be leaving the two of you then. See ya, around."
He then begins to walk away.
"Castiel," I mange to speak.
He stops from his tracks and tilts his head to the side to me. "It's alright, _. I understand. Hey, Lysandre, can I ask you a favor?"
"If I can do it, why not?" Lysandre replies.
"Take good care of _. If you don't, I'll make sure that you'll pay the price."
"Hn. I will, it's a promise."
"Thanks."
With that, Castiel leaves the room.
"So where were we?" Lysandre asks as he pulls me back to him.
I just smile at him. Then my face shows a bit of hesitation. "You know…Castiel…he…"
"Confessed to you," he finishes my statement. "I heard it through the door."
My eyes grow wide at this. "You were listening!?"
"I heard it without the intention of listening, my love," he replies. "But I'm glad to know that you didn't—"
"I won't," I cut him off. "My heart cannot be stolen. It beats only for you."
He smiles at again. "And same to mine."
With that last word, he leans closer to me and the next thing I know is that his lips are against mine in a sweet kiss. I know that I've made the right decision—the decision of moving on and loving someone who is really meant for me.
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(CASTIEL'S POV)
He walks out of the basement and walks aimlessly. Now he truly knows that it's love what he feels for _. Because it's too painful to bear the truth that she is already taken. And to make it worse, she's taken by his closest friend. But what can he do? Nothing. Because if it's really love that he feels for her then he should be happy that he knows that she'll be happy with Lysandre. At least he's assured that Lysandre won't make her cry. At least…
Drip. Drop. Drip. Drop.
The rain pours as he steps out into the school's courtyard. It's too painful to fall in love. Too painful to fall without anyone catching you. But he's happy. He's happy that she'll be happy. And he will be contented in watching her smile even though her smile is no longer for him.
He looks up the sky, rain pouring on his face just like his tears as he let them out.
"Hey,_," he whispers through the raindrops. "Do you remember? Today was the exact day we first met."
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((A/N: I know that there are too many A/N in this story so please forgive me and if this story sucks, sorry 'cause I wrote every chapter at the same time of different days: midnight to dawn. Well, this story's done. I better focus on my half finished one-shots that are in my head right now. I don't even know what to start with! Should I write a Castiel oneshot for MyCandyLove fandom? Or should I write a Gilgamesh one-shot for my Fate/Zero fandom? Or should I write a Kadaj oneshot for my FF7 fandom? Or should I write a Krad oneshot for my fandom? O.O" Don't know what to do! HELP!))
((A/N: thanks for reading by the way! Reviews will be highly appreciated! Nya~))