Hi, thanks to all the people who reviewed my recent poems! Anyway, this is just a poem I made when I was awake in the morning… guess that I was just inspired by the show I watchedthe other night. There were a lot of people committing suicide, because they were suffering and they wanted to end it all by dying… anyway, flames are welcome…
The result of suicide
I am miserable
I have ruined my life
Every night I cut my self
Using a knife
As if it's there just in case
Just in case I want to die
It stays there on my bed
Staying still as I cry
I take pills; I'm on drugs
I drink all I want
My life is what I call my hell
I'm the demon; whether I like it or not
I simply can't control myself
I smoke and I don't work
You can always find me in the darkest alley
Sitting on the ground filled with dirt
Screaming my own head off
Crying just to take away the pain
My ripped clothes hanging from my scarred body
My hair covering my face that's full of shame
I come home fighting with my husband everyday
Getting punched, kicked, and bruised
Protecting myself from him; fighting back
With all the possible weapons I could use
Now he has left me here
Without saying anything, not even a goodbye
He did nothing for me; he just kept hurting me
Cheating on me, fooling me with his lies
So now here I am, alone
Exactly like before
But now I wont make mistakes
I can't take it anymore!
I'm going to end it all
My suffering and my life
I'm going to commit suicide
Using my bloody knife
I know I'm making the right decision
I know that this is not a mistake
All I have to do right now is die
That's the last decision I'll ever have to make
I'm going to stab myself in the heart
I'm going to cut myself so deep
That I won't even be able to feel any pain
In my never ending sleep…
" So she did what she wanted,
She did what she's always wanted to do
She has ended all her suffering
As well as her life too."
" But what she did was another mistake
If it weren't for that, she could still be alive
She would've still been able to change for the better
But instead she took her life."
" If you have a lot of mistakes in your life
Start over; don't choose to die
If you do, you'll end up miserable
Like this woman who committed suicide…"
Thanks again to everyone, especially to dark kitsune of Ra… I feel great knowing that you reviewed my poems… I kinda look up to you coz I love all your poems! I also noticed that you changed your pen name, it sounds so cute! Anyway, I'll try to make a song fic, it might take long coz I've never tried it before… I'll update soon!
P.S. if there is any one, and I mean ANY ONE who can write a fic of the episode spellbound with excruciating detail, please, please, PLEASE tell me! I live in a country where they're only showing season two, and I've seen it a million times already!!!I know it sucks, but they're gonna show it on January, and I. just. cant. wait. that. long! If some one can write it, I will love you forever! Thanks!