Jean paced back and forth in his room, clearly deep in thought.
"Are you alright? You've been pacing for a quarter of an hour at least." Javert asked, watching the man as he slipped out of his coat.
Ever since they returned, Jean's been fidgety, bringing Javert to stay. The uneasy stare Jean held when standing in the door way brung Javert to feel he needed to stay. Leaving him alone with his thoughts would've been a terrible thing to do.
"I shouldn't have left. What if she needs something? What if she's too worried to sleep? Wha-"
"Stop." Javert sighed. "The nurse is there. She will be fine."
"But what if Marius wakes? What if he has questions she can not answer?" Jean responded, stopping briefly to lock his attention on the man.
"I don't long to discourage your faith, but I don't think he's going to be waking up tonight." Of course, Javert couldn't leave his coldness behind completely.
"What a thing to say.." Jean frowned, continuing to walk the floor once more.
Javert shook his head, stepping in front of Jean. "Do you plan on walking the floors all night Jean?" He asked with a frown.
"I'm sorry but I can't help it." Jean stared down at the floor.
Javert took hold of the man's chin, forcing their eyes to meet. "You need to let go of all your worry."
"That's all I've known." Jean sighed low. "Like the law has been your life, worry has been mine."
Javert moved his hand down to interlock with Jean's. "Come to bed, I'll help you forget your worries."
Jean gave a frown. "I highly doubt that.." He muttered as he was drug along towards the bed.
"Why do you doubt?" Javert questioned, taking a seat on the mattress. Jean sat beside him.
"It's just.. No, you couldn't understand." The mayor let the words slip.
(Javert:) "Try me. I've witnessed more than you think, I understand more than you know."
Jean took a deep breath. "You don't know what it's like, to love someone more than you have ever loved your self. Cosette, she's all I have had.. She's not all I have wanted but she's all I've known for so long. I feel sick, I'am worried and I can not help it. I'm worried for the both of them." He turned his focus to the floor.
Javert said nothing for a moment's time. He didn't wish to admit it but Jean was partially right.
"I know. I would have been clueless as to how you're feeling. All my life, I've had nothing. No family to protect. To friends to rejoice the wonders of the world with. I've relied on myself. I had only myself. It made me strong, it made me cold and able to push everything that offered happiness away. I pushed it all away because I knew, with that joy would soon come misery. Nothing lasts Jean. Therefore, I never tried with a damn soul. I never got attached, never loved or helped. I didn't long to establish that bond that would eventually break, with anyone."
(Jean:) "I already knew this about you.. I can tell what's in a person's heart from their actions. You were an open book.. I know your every reason for being who you are and why you won't change."
"No, you don't. You don't know how my own mother just handed me over to the police. You don't know how I've never known my father.. You don't know what it's like to not have siblings to blame for you wrong doings.. You don't know what a lonely life is truly like." Javert retorted.
"So what, now we're making this about Javert?" Jean laughed. "Should've known."
"Well, you brought it on!" Javert growled defensively. "I was going to say, that all that was so, until I met you."
"Well, I don't know why it just suddenly changed with me. I'am nothing special. Just a man, constantly risking his life for people. Just a man who has worked hard for what he's earned, and continues to get walked on by those around him." Jean huffed.
(Javert:) "Listen to yourself. You're saying you're just a speck on this world but do you not see? All you do is what makes you the world in my eyes. You push through, when everyone else has given up. You get the job done and that is a wonderful trait. I've seen people turn against one another over and over for self gain. Yet, you've put blood sweat and tears into what you have given those around you I'm sure. You're an exceptional man."
Jean rolled his eyes, letting himself fall back into the mattress. "You're simply just saying that to make me feel better."
Javert laid beside him, propping himself up on his elbow. "Jean, I'am not. I do wish you could understand how much you mean to me." He softly spoke, starting to play with the others hair.
Jean gave a weird glance his way. What on earth possessed the lawman to do that?
Regardless, he pulled away. "I forgiven you, for what you've done but, how can I fully trust you to not do so again? I've been thinking, you could run anytime you want. Just like before. This could all be a trick."
Javert gave another growl. "How dare you? I wouldn't be here right now if I wanted to just simply run away.. What's getting into you? Earlier you were practically all over me."
Jean gave a sigh. "I know, I know. I'm just, I'm scared... I'm afraid if I give in and open myself up to you again, I'm going to lose you."
Javert's facial expression softened. "I see.. I'm sorry if it seems I'm forcing you into something you do not want."
"What?" Jean's eyes widened. "No, no! I do want this... I want you.. Believe me, nothing could make me anymore happier than you being in this bed with me right now. I just don't want you to leave, ever again. I don't think I could survive if I lost you. I just.." He trailed off, exhaling a deep breath. "Damnit, I sound ridiculous."
Javert gave a soft chuckle, scooting closer to him and wrapping his arm around the man's chest. "You're quiet the funny man sometimes. It's adorable." He leaned in, placing a kiss on the others jaw.
Jean blushed light. "Oh, shut up.."
"It's true." Javert smiled against his skin.
"Well, can I ask you something, and can you give me the truth to it?" Jean questioned.
"Of course, anything." Javert assured.
"Do you, um.." Jean paused, rethinking it for just a moment but he needed his answer. "Do you love me? I'm not talking about just caring a lot or wanting to protect me.. But, do you truly LOVE me? Can you see yourself spending your life with me?" He asked nervously.
"Yes." Javert answered simply.
"Because, I do want to spend mine with you.. But, if you don't feel the sa-wait.. What?" Jean asked, rather surprised at the answer.
"I want to leave all I've known behind. The years have aged us quickly, we've both been through some hard times and I long to retire that and spend the time I have left with you. With the only person who's been capable of breaking the steel cage around my heart and who I have first loved." Javert replied, taking the others hand in his.
"Well, don't make it sound like you'll die tomorrow!" Jean exclaimed.
Javert gave a shrug. "No one knows when they'll die. But, I know when the time comes, I'll die a happy man."
Jean sighed. How did this get from a new life to death?
(Javert:) "But, let's not worry about that. We're here, now, together and that's all that matters."
"You're right." Jean smiled slightly.
"I know I'am. Now, come on, you should rest up. I'll take you to see Cosette tomorrow." Javert replied.
"I doubt I can even sleep now that you mentioned her name again. I feel horrible for leaving." Jean spoke, getting up.
Javert sat up, watching as the man started to undress himself. "You'll sleep tonight. Even if I have to tire you out first."
Jean gave a chuckle. "Oh believe me, I'm tired. That's not the problem."
"I know. I was just, implying something... Forget it." Javert replied, beginning to take off his shoes.
"Hm, what would that be?" Jean asked, glancing over his shoulder as he undone his pants.
"Nothing. Just, ignore I even said that." Javert answered, now keeping his gaze off of the man.
"Awe, come on Javert, you've got me curious now." Jean smirked to himself.
"Too bad. Let's just let it go, and get some sleep." Javert ordered, unbuttoning the long-sleeved shirt.
"Alright, if you'd rather sleep than play, it's your choice." Jean remarked.
"Play? Where on earth did you learn to use a word like that in such a way at?" Javert asked, surprised.
"Oh come on now, don't be shocked. I've heard somethings in my long life." Jean answered, making his way back to the bed.
"I'm not. I'm surprised you would use it. You're just a sweetheart who seems shy on anything of such a matter." Javert stated.
"Things have changed in the time you've hidden from me. Besides, when you've gone years without feeling the pleasures another can bring, you suddenly have nerves of steel when the opportunity presents itself." Jean growled playful, pushing the man back down on the bed.
"Jean, it's a little soon is it not? We just seen one another for the first time in a long time!" Javert retorted, placing his hands on the others chest to keep him at bay. He didn't exactly think Jean would want him in such a way so soon.
"I know and who knows what could happen next? I want to have one more night with you. Besides I don't think it's fair that you got to have me when you wanted me." The mayor frowned.
Javert gave a sigh. "But back then, I was hell-bent on arresting you. And I was frustrated, I had deep interest in you yes but I also had a passion drive to put you back in your place by locking you up. I was confused, and angry and well.. Now, I'm nervous."
Jean snickered. "You, nervous?"
"Yes!" Javert blushed lightly. "I'm actually thinking about it now. What it means. What if I'm not like before? What if I'm not as good, what if I can't even do anything?"
Jean blinked a few times, tilting his head slightly. "I never thought I'd hear this from you. A man, who's chained, tortured and killed many men is scared to be intimate with the man he's now courting?"
"I know, it's ridiculous of me." Javert looked away, letting his arms rest back by his side.
"I like this new side I'm seeing." Jean smiled, leaning in to place a kiss on the lawmans cheek. "But you have nothing to fear. Everything will be alright. Nothing has changed."
"You don't know that. I'm not as young as I use to be." Javert fought back.
"Well, don't make us sound like we're about ready to die." Jean laughed.
"That's not all there is.." Javert briefly glanced at him.
Jean gave a puzzling look. "What? You can tell me anything."
"Since we're with one another now, I think you should know that I've had my fair share of people throughout the years. I didn't just isolate myself from that part of life like you have done. I just, wanted to get that out-of-the-way."
Jean clenched his teeth, for a split second he felt like smothering this man. "I had no choice, I had a daughter to raise and I never wanted a woman or another man."
(Javert:) "I know, I'm sorry but can you honestly hold that against me? I didn't want to risk seeing you and after all I done I was ashamed too. I would've rather got caught with a stranger and had them killed and myself than know it was you. Then there was the part of me that would've given anything just to have you with me."
Jean sighed deeply. "It's all the past. It doesn't matter."
"Are you sure? I don't want you to think differently of me, I just don't want any secrets."
Jean gave a nod. "I understand. It's not my right to judge for your past doings. They were your choice to make as a single man.." He trailed off, smiling devilishly as he leaned in close. "But you're mine now and if you ever do that again, I'll be hunting you down for a whole nother reason."
Javert returned his smile, wrapping his arms around the others neck. "Why does that excite me?"
Jean shrugged. "You're an odd man?"
"Maybe." Javert answered, pushing Jean down next to him, climbing over him.
"Yeah, maybe." Jean mocked with an innocent grin.
Javert didn't say another word as he sealed their deal for the night with a passionate kiss.