letters to cam

by oliviasaundersxx

"I feel alone here, And cold here, But I don't want to die" - Cut, The plumb. Two weeks after cam's death, Dallas isn't dealing with it well, He's becoming a stranger to himself. Not showing up to hockey, drinking and skipping classes. He starts writing to cam, will it help or just lead him farther down the same path that cam took?.

7. Chapter 7

28th May 2012.

dear cam,

sorry i haven't written in so long, i missed writing to you- honestly i did. I just finished my fourth session with the shrink, he asked me questions, lots of questions.

he asked me if I've ever cut myself, i felt proud to say no because i know the thought of it is morbid,

did you ever cut yourself cam? if you did i never noticed.

but then again, i never really notice anything.

if i noticed something cam, you would still be here, right cam?

i've been going to school, but i don't feel any better about things, i have been faking feeling better, i know, cliche.

maya talked to me, trust me, i was as surprised as you probably are, i was walking home and she ran up behind me, at first she was just saying casual stuff cam, but then she said she missed him to. all i did was nod, but i knew the lump in my throat was growing.

cam, she told me that things got better, she said no matter how much i missed you you weren't coming back and life wasn't going to stop for me, so just keep living.

cam, i don't want to keep living.