letters to cam

by oliviasaundersxx

"I feel alone here, And cold here, But I don't want to die" - Cut, The plumb. Two weeks after cam's death, Dallas isn't dealing with it well, He's becoming a stranger to himself. Not showing up to hockey, drinking and skipping classes. He starts writing to cam, will it help or just lead him farther down the same path that cam took?.

12. Chapter 12

27th June 2013.

dear cam,

made me go to the office today, he told me he had been keeping an eye on me and wanted to make sure that i was okay, i hate it when people ask me that because they know i'm not.

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do people leave because they want to, or because they have to, cam?

cam did you want to leave, or did you feel like you had to?

i know people leave all the time, but sometimes they take a piece of you with that, and it's not fair cam, you took a piece of me with you and i never even got a say in it, did i?

i wish you didn't even come to degrassi, i wish i didn't come to degrassi. i'd still be whole now if you would've stayed in kapuskacing.

cam, i wish you would've left a letter, maybe it would make me feel better, maybe it wouldn't.

cam, have you ever lost a friend?

you never got the chance to did you, because you died 'so young', or that's what people say.

does it really matter how old you were? you're still gone, cam.

I thought about putting these letters on you're grave but then i thought somebody might find them, try to get me help.

but i already have help, my friends and family do enough of that, but i don't want it. I don't want help, I don't want anything.

well, not anymore.