letters to cam

by oliviasaundersxx

"I feel alone here, And cold here, But I don't want to die" - Cut, The plumb. Two weeks after cam's death, Dallas isn't dealing with it well, He's becoming a stranger to himself. Not showing up to hockey, drinking and skipping classes. He starts writing to cam, will it help or just lead him farther down the same path that cam took?.

14. Chapter 14

7th June 2013.

dear cam,

I don't know what to write, usually they come tumbling right out, but not today,

why can't i write?

I feel sick, Ill, tired.

the ink on the page is smearing, why can't i stop fucking crying, cam, jesus christ i'm a fucking mess cam, I won't stop crying, i can't, I wan't to, I miss you, cam, I want you to come back.

.

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cam?

I feel like i'm drowning, maybe i should drown, maybe i shouldn't, maybe i should close my eyes and wait, wait for you to come back, you will right cam?

I wan't it to come cam, the words.

I wan't to stop seeing a doctor.

I wan't to be happy.

We would all better then, wouldn't we?

wouldn't we?