letters to cam

by oliviasaundersxx

"I feel alone here, And cold here, But I don't want to die" - Cut, The plumb. Two weeks after cam's death, Dallas isn't dealing with it well, He's becoming a stranger to himself. Not showing up to hockey, drinking and skipping classes. He starts writing to cam, will it help or just lead him farther down the same path that cam took?.

16. Chapter 16

28th June 2013.

dear cam,

I wen't to Canada's wonderland yesterday, it was fun, i smiled, but then i saw Maya and Zig, she kissed him, cam, right in front of me, on the lips, i don't know why i was so upset, i grabbed zig and punched him in the eye,

He has a big bruise on it now, it reminded me of when you elbowed him in the face a few days before you died, cam, do you remember?

I think i was upset because i felt like i had to be upset for you.

You're not here to get mad, cam, so i was for you.

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Sometimes i wonder if Eli is mad at you for jumping off the roof and him finding you, I would be.

i know it's kind of sick to think of it, but i know he started doing drugs after, i wonder if he has dreams about you're mangled body, i did,

still do.

Does Eli want to kill you for you killing yourself? I do sometimes.

god, do i even make sense, cam.

you don't make sense.

I don't make sense.

nothing make's sense.

I could kill someone,

Could you?

this doesn't make sense.

definitely not these letters, anyways.