letters to cam

by oliviasaundersxx

"I feel alone here, And cold here, But I don't want to die" - Cut, The plumb. Two weeks after cam's death, Dallas isn't dealing with it well, He's becoming a stranger to himself. Not showing up to hockey, drinking and skipping classes. He starts writing to cam, will it help or just lead him farther down the same path that cam took?.

21. Chapter 21

11th August 2013.

dear cam,

i've decided i'm going to kill myself, i actually mustered up a laugh out of the word 'decided', i have to cam, if i don't do it now, i will live with it for the rest of my life and i just can't.

I have the sleeping pills cam, there in my hand, i just smoked a smoke. I'm looking at a picture of rocky.

I am going to miss him wherever i'm going.

Cam, I just took 2, i have to do it fast so that i don't fall asleep before i take enough.

so, cam, i guess this is it? maybe i will see you.. maybe i won't.

i don't think anybodies going to miss me, cam, but if they do, then i'm sorry whoever finds me and reads this,

I'm sorry that you see me, here dead, and i'm sorry that I've left you with this.

I don't regret the eleven pills i just took, i don't regret the text i send to ali saying sorry for blaming her.

My writing is becoming doubles, and barely readable.

this is it, cam, see you soon.