Absolute Magnitude
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Summary: He's been falling his entire life. So has she. But maybe together they can be each other's balloons. Shameless romance. NaruHina.
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Poem one
His new team could not be worse
It was slowly sucking the life out of him (the petals were falling...)
His teammates both hated him (big surprise)
And his sensei doesn't seem particularly invested in anything (why is life always so difficult?)
Feeling embarrassed and confused he kicked a rock desolately
tap tap tap
Breathe, he tells himself, pretend like you always have
Force a smile
Fake a laugh (no one's noticed before, except...)
Hinata
A shadow passed his face, what about her?
She wasn't on his team, she would forget about him soon enough (f-o-r-g-e-t about him)
He was used to being forgotten, not like it hurt anymore
Numbness coursed through him
She was the one person who looked at him...period.
What did she anyway? What was there to see?
His fingers clutch his shirt, and there is a tightness to his throat
He is back at the swings
All he was (all he will ever be)
A pathetic excuse for a human
There was a reason he had no friends
There was nothing about him that was special, everything he did was wrong
Even his own parents abandoned him (there was a reason he was an orphan)
Orphan
No one loves an orphan
Why did life hurt so much? Why couldn't it end?
Poem two
There is something wrong
Something has shattered (into tiny fragments of nothing)
The pieces lie around her, splayed around the tattered parts of her everything, and
she can not pick them up
She tries, but they fall, slip, and tumble toward the ground
Where they lie in a heap, slowly dying, and crumbling to dust
Everything is going wrong
Naruto has stopped talking to her (stopped, there is not a word spoken amongst them anymore)
He's probably come to his senses, and realized that all she's been (will ever be)
Is a disappointment (don't forget a failure, a nobody, and worthless)
The voice in her head is killing her, but it only speaks the truth
The words are spinning around her (make them stop), and she doesn't know what else to do, but surrender
Bow down to them, and accept the abuse because it's what she deserves
She deserves everything she's ever gotten (why does it hurt so much then?)
Her head is pounding, and her life is slowly trailing out in tendrils...whisks of faint vapour
She wishes that once (just once) someone would tell her she's wrong
She wants Naruto would come back, and talk to her (just a few sentences)
Now that she knows what it's like to be talked to, to be noticed
She can't forget it
She wants it so badly
It's disgusting.
Poem three
As the Hokage sits on his desk, and watches on
He wonders if he's made the right decision.
A/N: Depressing, ne? I'm sorry if this brought your feelings down, and I know I said shameless romance, but I want it to take some time before getting to the good part :) Things will get better! They have to :) So, was this chapter better than last? It's still a little rough, and I'll probably look at it again tomorrow, but I wanted to get it out today :D
...Thoughts?