Paul Pov.

I break the kiss quickly as I hear a faint whistling in the distance. Steven! My mind screams at me, time to get moving. I jerk Barry up roughly and run into the forest dragging him along by my side. "Paul.. where are we going?!" he gasps out between breaths as we run faster.

I hope Metagross wont rat me out on me. I keep moving faster and faster until the only sounds I can hear are my breathing and the faint sounds of nature. "Paul what is going on?" Barry asks looking at me seriously.

I can't let them find out about each other, it isn't time to pick! Instead of answering him I run into his chest and cry. "Barry I'm so lonely! I have nothing left for me! Everyone wants me dead, my sister, my father, and i am pretty sure Reggie wouldn't give a fuck about me dying either!" I cry out.

Barry wraps his arms around me and rocks me soothingly whispering sweet nothings into my ear and slowly massaging my sides as I continue to cry into his chest. "I will be your everything Paul, just give me the chance. You don't have to suffer like this you know that right?"

I look up at him hopefully. This can work out, I know it will, without a doubt. I will have Steven and Barry and I wont need anyone else. I will have my two brick walls helping me stand up, even though those brick walls wont even know that the other is there. I sigh content and sit there with my head in his chest.

"Barry you know what?" "What?" "I think I am in love again..."

I can sense him smile and rub my back softly. I didn't even know myself who I was in love with. Me and Barry had been through a lot, I was just remembering the day when I knew that he would support me 100% and not ever let me fall.

Flashback

My lungs burned as I ran through the steamy ran on that hot summer afternoon. I can't believe it, it was really over, I wanted to die all I wanted to do was die! Green and that stupid mixture of hers! I f-ing hate her!

She destroyed my life and took away the only thing I had ever cared about Reggie..my soul mate, even if he had come to his senses and said the mixture didn't work it still destroyed me when he said we had to end our relationship. All because of a reputation and a matter of living, it was a damn shame the world we lived in today.

But like they always say life just simply isn't fair. I knew what I wanted then and there..to die just end it all. I had nothing left after all nothing I wanted nothing I needed.

At that time this seemed perfectly rational, but honestly looking back I now see I was truly heartbroken and how I would've kept going if I maybe tried. I ran as fast as I could through the woods and almost jumped right into Lake Verity. I wanted to die, that's all I wanted to do was jump into the lake and call it a day.

"I hope you know what you've done and I hope you are happy now," I say to no one in particular but myself. Another tear streams down my face but isn't very noticeable in the steamy summer rain. I started to get choked up again as more tears follow along causing me to break down to me knees and roll into a ball.

"I'm pathetic simply pathetic, that's why no one wants me. No one at...at..all!" I say burst into a bigger fit of tears than before. I lay there in my pathetic ball and begin to whimper and hiccup in my fit of sadness.

I decide to delay my fate no longer as I muster the last of my strength to get up and end it all. I take in a gasping breath and let the last tear fall, "This is what it has come too, all those promises..." I stop for a moment and whisper the last part, "That are now lies..." I squeeze my eyes shut tightly and ready my legs.

"Paul! Don't do it stop!" I hear Barry cry out causing me to snap my eyes open and almost fall back into the water. "What are you doing?!" he asked frantic. I study the ground and kick around a small pebble on the ground not even willing to give him an answer.

To my surprise he merely runs over and hugs me, hugs me like I have never been hugged before, not like one from Reggie or anybody. It will filled with so much love the only thing I could do was slowly hug him back, slowly tightening my grip around him as I finally stopped trying to hold back my tears.

I let them all go, didn't struggle or hold them back like a car desperately trying to come to a stop on an icy road. No, I let it out along with every hiccup and gasp, whimper and snort, everything.

I'm tired of being my wall, my own pillars trying to support myself while my family hung around and watched as I struggled.

All I needed was someone to be my wall and now my wall was Barry. He carefully pulled me away from the lake's edge and on a small rock near the woods. He slid me on his lap and I merely looked up at him.

"Paul please tell me you weren't going to do what I thought you were going to do." I hung my head in shame, I knew he would be disappointed I just knew it! But instead of scolding me and getting bad he just kissed me.

It was anything intense or crazy it was just a soft and easy kiss on my lips. It was amazing, how to describe that is almost impossible, it was like having my first kiss all over again.

My body was tingling from head to toe because I knew that feeling that was there. The feeling of being wanted, being needed. It was all I asked for, this kiss meant that Reggie wasn't the only thing out there. It said that there was a second chance, a new door being opened. But most of all, I pillar to hold me up.

Flashback End

I slowly slip back into reality as Barry brushes the hair out of my face and looks me dead in the eye. Even after that kiss things weren't all sugar and rainbows.

We had both went our separate ways a year or so afterwards. But the time in between that I would only be able to explain it as sugar and rainbows because that is what it seemed like.

I was breathing sugar and dancing on rainbows, but as with all good things it came to an end, you may think it broke of easy but it honestly wasn't. But this time instead of moping around and bawling on the floor I became bitter and mean and spat in the face of the breakup. Even though it wasn't an official 'goodbye' and he said we would cross paths again and be together I wasn't hearing it. I wasn't going to have a repeat, a deja'vu, I wouldn't hear it.

Even though I knew it broke his heart I justified it by saying he did it to me to I did it to him. Even against what I really thought, what he said was true, here we are again having literally crossed paths and being together again.

Well not officially...especially since Steven was still in the equation... Oh crap! Steven! I totally had forgotten about him, "Paul! Paul!" I heard him call as if he was on cue.

My eyes widened and I jumped up. "Paul what's going on?" Barry asked worried. "Don't worry, it is just champion Steven he gave me a ride here and I am staying at his villa in Hoen. But don't be all lovey dovey and stuff because I think he might be homophobic."I whispered to him quickly.

I knew I was going to be with Girantina for the rest of the afterlife for lying to him like that. It was the biggest lie I have ever told, I knew for a FACT that Steven was nowhere near homophobic but whatever end of discussion they can not know about each other.

"There you are!" Steven said stepping out of the underbrush looking between the both of us and hesitantly coming closer. "Who is this?" he said pointing to Barry.

I smile being nonchalant, "Oh it's just my old child hood friend Barry."

He smiles and shakes his hand acting like nothing was out of the ordinary. "Uh okay, come on Paul let's go, I'll see you later Barry." he said pulling my arm into the woods again as I sneak a look at Barry and he mouths the words that made it harder for me to choose, 'I love you.'

Me: well it seems as though Paul gets around a lot now doesn't he!

Vicky: It seems so! Oh I can't wait to tell his father!

Me: you will not! It isn't part of the story line!

Vicky: It is now! *runs to the door*

Me: *tackles her down* See you later folks R&R!