DISCLAIMER: I do not own any creation of Hayo Miazaki

A/N: This is not dead, it just won't be updating all that frequently, that's all.

Also, anyone who knows the first book she describes is generally awesome and deserves every imaginary point that exist in the imaginary world, and anyone who knows of John Green and his books is just awesome and a Nerd Fighter. For those of you who do not know who John Green is, go to youtube and look up "Vlogbrothers", also you can google them and see how they got started. That is my shameless nerdfighter plug for the day.

I will try to update again soon but I make no guarantees.

The library was much larger than I expected it to be. When I think of an asylum library I think small and stuffy with very few books. On the contrary, this place was very modern and seemed to have a fine selection. It was upstairs and was a veritable catacomb of book shelves that had a small clearing type area in the middle that had four comfy looking chairs around a small coffee table. They were all facing each other, a conversation trap no doubt, meant to enhance bonding and therefor help healing, there were a few people sitting there talking as I entered with the book I had chosen.

I found another place to sit.

I found a nice place with chairs that faced a screen door, it led out to a balcony but I suspected that the door would be locked. So I sat down in one of the chairs and opened my book.

I was immediately immersed in the world of a lesser demon of hell that had been trapped within a book. He was telling me to burn the thing incessantly, this went on for a couple pages before he let it slip that he was a demon. Eventually he side tracked himself into a story about his father, who seemed to be a putrid old abusive demon. My heart was racing along with the little demon as he ran away from his murderous father across towering trash mountains when someone plopped violently into the chair beside me.

It was San.

I was startled to see her in the library, let alone away from anyone in a nursing uniform. She stared at me angrily.

"Um. Hello?" I said uncomfortably.

She looked down at my book, a motion I almost didn't catch.

"Uh…it's about a demon that gets trapped in a book. It's kind of cool, on the cover it says that the author found the book instead of wrote it and just translated it instead. It's kind of cool." I continued awkwardly as she stared at me, boring a hole between my eyes.

"I've dealt with demons before. They are not, 'kind of cool'." She said and then looked out the window.

I didn't want to step on any more land mines of hers so I slithered back behind my book and shifted in my chair.

A few moments went by in silence before she stood from her chair with some urgency, bringing me out of my book again.

"That damn woman." She whispered, inching toward the window, anger in every step she took.

"What?" I said clueless and stupid. San didn't look back at me.

"That woman!" She said, only marginally louder. "She keeps coming here to torment me!"

I couldn't tell if she was talking to herself or to me. I stood up to look at what she was seeing. There was a black haired woman all the way near the entrance of the building. She was walking away. From where I stood she seemed to be rather tall, one hand was gripping the jacket she wore while the other arm was hanging limply at her side. I couldn't tell what was wrong with her other arm but it seemed fake. "The black haired woman?" I asked.

San was at the window now, hands against the glass, almost clawing it. "The nurses think I tried to kill myself. It was her. I want her dead." She was growling, and it sounded inhuman.

I've heard people growl before, jokingly, or mimicking animals. This was different though, it was that feral thing I sensed in her from the beginning coming out. It was as though she was born amongst animals, she knew how to growl from a base instinctual place. She scared me, but since I'm the curious little idiot I am, I had to persist. "What was her, wait why do you want her dead?"

She didn't answer any of my questions, the next thing I knew she had taken off running through the stacks. Something told me to follow her so I did. "What are you doing?" I spoke urgently.

"I have to kill her before she gets away!" San Growled.

In an instant she picked up speed. I started running to keep up with her but knew that she would get away.

So instead of letting her leave, I kinda, sorta, tackled her.

We were on the ground in an instant. I was on top of her and she was struggling against me as violently as she could.

"Child! You don't know what you're doing. That woman is evil!" She was grappling to get on top of me. I tried to pin her hands down and dodged her as she tried to bite me. Bite me! She belonged here!

"You don't even know who she is!" I countered trying to keep my voice down to possibly keep attention away from us. Like that was going to happen.

"She killed Ashitaka!" San near yelled in my face before she succeeded in flipping me over. She didn't waste any time on me before she was off in a wolf like sprint. I'd never seen such elegance in a run before. Not even in the spirit world.

I followed her as best I could but she found her way to another window and before I got there she had thrown a book at it hard enough to shatter the window. The sound was enough to call attention to her.

"San!" I yelled before she disappeared through the broken portal.

I gingerly stepped through the jagged window and watched her slide down the slanted part of the building. At the end of the slant she jumped down to a drainage pipe on a lower roof and then finally jumped to the ground, landing smoothly. I wondered briefly how she got the courage and sheer ferocity needed to perform a stunt like that.

I hadn't noticed that I was surrounded by two nurses and one security guard who was mumbling something into his walkie talkie, it beeped after he got done talking and then beeped again and protruded some sort of garbled speech that I guess he alone understood.

One of the nurses shook her head. "Who knew she'd come here." She said to the other nurse.

The other nurse looked at me before she spoke. "San escaped therapy this morning. We've been looking for her everywhere since. She seems to have a problem with Miss Eboshi, a woman who comes to see her son every once in a while." I nodded, intrigued by this.

"This Eboshi lady had to have done something." I said inquiringly.

The other nurse shook her head. "San sometimes goes to talk to her son, but she had Miss Eboshi never had any feuds that we know of. One day San just started going after her."

Then they were done talking to me. They walked back into the library, probably headed to meet San at the door after she had been detained. I heard a little bit of their conversation as they went though.

"Hey, when San tried to commit suicide…"

"Yeah, Eboshi was there, looks like she might have been going after her again."

"Jeeze, I mean I know San likes the kid, but Eboshi is his mother, you'd think that they would get along."

"Hey, that's gissip."

The nurses drifted out of earshot after that and I stared down at the scene. No one had arrived yet and the two seemed to be staring each other down. I may have just been seeing things due to being far away but it seemed like this Eboshi lady was hostile towards San as well, and not in the you've-attacked-me-before-so-I'm-afraid-of-you way. San lunged at the woman and I saw something shiny in the woman's hand before two burly men came and detained San. Eboshi made a quick movement to hide whatever was in her hand and the men carried a screaming San away. Two nurses then came up to talk to Eboshi and I walked away from the window.

I decided not to finish the book I had picked out on the grounds that I had already viewed too many horrible things and did not need to read about those macabre evils. I went back to the shelves and found a book by John Green instead and tried to calm myself down by getting lost in the quirky writing style, and personalities of "Paper Towns".

After finally convincing myself to get lost in that book and wandering around the streets and fake suburbs of Orlando Florida I found myself at the acknowledgements page having missed lunch.

It was six and so I decided to head down to the cafeteria where most people were eating dinner. I found Kiki and Howl and discovered that they had not yet heard about the San incident in the library and I was not about to inform them. I sat in silence during dinner and ate while Kiki and Howl had a stop and start conversation about their days.

It was obvious that they were trying to pretend that Howl had not had a break down the night prior and as a result was extremely awkward.

I was decidedly quiet during evening group therapy and went back to the library briefly before it was time to retire for the night. I was able to check out a couple of books and took them back to my room. I read a little in silence before they called lights out.

Kiki told me that if I wanted to I could probably try to talk to Howl tomorrow and I made a plan to do just that and then we said goodnight. I was glad there was not any drawn out conversation between us because I didn't want to tell her about San and have her scold me for that situation on top of what happened with Howl. Kiki seemed to be close to her friends if nothing else.

As I drifted off to sleep flashes of blue water behind my eyelids kept waking me up. It was as if I was dipping my head into a river with my eyes open. The current was fast and cold and said that something important needed to be conveyed. It was uncomfortable, but finally I fell asleep, and what I found in unconsciousness was not much better than what falling asleep had been.