Chapter 3
I cracked open my eyes to see the obnoxiously bright sun staring down at me. I groaned, hoping that we will have a snow day in September… not likely.
The thoughts of yesterday's events came flooding back to me, now I really don't want to go to school, but I promised myself I would act as normal as possible. I slowly got up and stared at myself in the mirror. I looked more pale than usual, but I was pretty pale as it was so now I look almost ghostly looking. I also lost some weight, since it's pretty difficult to eat and the very top of my hair was starting to turn dull, and grey. Looks like it's going to be a hat day. I went to my closet and got some loose clothes while repeating in my head I can do this, I can do this.
I finished getting ready and walked downstairs. I started making breakfast when those horrible stomach pains returned. I clutched my stomach in pain. I just have to get to the pill bottle. I made my way to the counter top and ripped off the cap. I quickly swallowed one and downed a glass of water. My hands were shaking and my vision was blurry. Great I'm blacking out...again. And that was my last thought before I was sucked into darkness.
I woke up to hear a loud ringing. Ugh. I sat up and looked around. The world was spinning and I had a huge headache. My ears were ringing as I started to recover what happened before I ended up on the floor. The phone ringed again, bringing me back to reality. I stumbled my way over to the phone. "Hello?" I asked groggily, as I just woke up. Oh wait, I just did. "Hello Mrs. Fray. I'm calling because your daughter didn't show up to first hour." I froze. Thank God I sound just like my mom. "Uh… yeah. She just woke up and will be there in a little while. Sorry, I forgot to call." "It's fine, just remember next time. Thank you, Goodbye." I hung up and quickly walked out the door and to school.
Once I arrived, I walked into the office to check in and then skidded away to my locker. After dropping off my stuff and grabbing my books I walked to 3rd period.
I went to Mr. Hodge to give him my note and walked to my desk. I could feel the stares on me and I tried to pay attention. After failing miserably I turned my head and my eyes were met with brown ones. Simon. Concern was brewing in his eyes. I waved it off and mouthed 'I'll tell you later.' My mind wandered off again and I tried to fight the worries but eventually I gave up and let them consume me.
My biggest one was Jace. I had to give him an excuse about why I wasn't in first period, or second, and it had to be one he'll actually believe. I also had to come up with an excuse for Simon, if my parents were still here they would've woken me up sooner. I could tell him the truth, but then he'll make me move in with him and I can't do that to him. If I die soon I can't be living with Simon when it happens because he will try to blame himself. And I really don't want him to do that.
The bell rang and I bolted out the door. I was taking books out of my locker when arms snaked around my waist. I leaned into the comfort, and finally tilted my head up to see him. "Where were you?" he whispered in my ear while I shivered. Only Jace could do that to me. I turned around, still in his arms and looked at his face. He was wearing her signature smirk but his golden eyes shouted concern. "I slept in late." My voice was a little uneven, but I was proud because it sounded pretty convincible, not to Jace, who knows me better than I know myself. He didn't look convinced but I gave him a look saying 'I'll talk to you about it later.' I gave him a quick kiss and pulled away before he could pull me closer. He mock pouted, and I laughed at that. "Love you, Jace!" I called as I started walking away. I heard something of the lines of "Love you, too Clary." I smiled as I rushed to class, not wanting to be late.
I waltzed in to my next period where I sit next to Simon in this class. I prepare myself for a boat load of questions and sure enough as soon as he sees me he marches up to me. "Where were you? Are you ok? Are you not feeling well?" They came out of his mouth almost as if he was demanding to get his answers, but I'm going to give in that easily. I can do something's on my own, and I want to while I still can. "Calm down Simon." He relaxed a little but was still tense, thinking something was wrong. Something IS wrong. I kept hearing those words repeat over and over and I almost put me hands over my ears to make it stop. I looked up realizing I was still talking to Simon. I gave him the calmest face I could muster and replied "I just slept in. My mom woke me up and the school called so she told them I slept in." I felt a pang of guilt. He still doesn't know about my family but I want my freedom, while I still have it. The teacher started talking and I gave Simon a reassuring smile, but concern still gleamed in his eyes. I looked away; the guilt was smacking me in the face. He knows something is wrong, but I can't him. He'll just freak out. I took the medication, the pain will be bearable. I just have to remember to take it first thing when I wake up.
I felt uncomfortable, so I fast walked to the teacher who signed my pass book and I bolted to the bathroom. After puking, I cried. I cried for my parents, cried for my future, and finally I cried for Jace. I cleansed myself and took the candy bar out of my pocket. Whenever I felt dizzy or saw the world spinning I knew I needed food. After a few bites (seeing as eating has become… difficult.) I walked out and popped a mint into my mouth; hopefully it will help with any…after breath. I hurried to class, hoping I wasn't gone for too long. The teacher gave me a questionable look and waved at me to meet her outside in a minute. I deciding talking to my principal about this was a good idea. I really like her and she can help me out for when I need to get out of class.
After I caught the teacher looking at me I followed her outside. Her eyes were full of confusion with a hint of worry. "Are you ok? You were in the bathroom for twenty minutes." I was in there for twenty minutes? Wow, time flies by when you're puking, I guess. I looked up and nodded. "Yeah, I'm fine," Lie "but can I go talk to the principal?" She nodded slowly and once again gave me that questionable look but this time her message was clear. Her eyes were asking what did you do? I replied with an irritated look and marched to the office. This was NOT my fault! I walked in ready to talk to Mrs. Morgenstern.