People who are oblivious to the song Breaking the Habit meaning like I was I'm putting it down as a author notes chapter.
Memories consume
Like opening the wounds
I'm picking me apart again [He made the wounds on his body and wants to open them to stop thinking about hurtful memories]
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again [He tried to commit suicide and wants to try again but everyone thinks he is out of danger as long as he is in his "room"]
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose [It is an habit for him to be in trouble. He wants it to stop. he always have to deal with hard stuff but he doesnt want to do that anymore]
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused [He understood that the others were not the problem but he was. When he uses the word "confused" i tend to think that he believed the others were crazy because they didnt think like him but then he understands he was wrong]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream [he is saying something like: I have no reason to live for or to find a reason to live.]
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean [He probably get people mad at him, he argues with everybody but he is never able to find the right words to exprime his feelings]
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright [He starts hating what he became, he wants to change because he knows that the way he acts and what he is doing is wrong]
So I'm
Breaking the habit
Tonight [Okay! He is breaking a habit….something he would do everyday…he is a troubled person…what does trouble people do?...they take medicine, drugs to help them, but this time, he will not take hs pills.]
Clutching my cure[The "cure" is anykind of weapon he is going to end his life with]
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again [Locking the door so this time his plan will work 'till the end and i believe he is trying to catch his breath because he is crying, i dont think he ran away.]
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again [He is mutilating himself harder then he ever did because he deeply believes it's the best way to solve things."
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault [He wants to leave a note to let know to the people he loved that it was not their fault]
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends [He will never have to fight anymore because he just killed himself. The End.]
I'm not the person who wrote this. It was written 5 years ago. I found it when I was looking up the meaning to this song. Anyway, now you see why Kiko song this song.