hey guys i hope you have had a brilliant Christmas.

here is my present to you

well i did not take as long as last time.

i hope you enjoy

Thoughts in italics

Hermione pov:

I sprinted down the hall back to the hospital wing and straight to the bed that held a broken Draco. My right hand instinctively reached for Draco's limp hand, my hand coiled round his ice cold palm, i brought it to my lips and whispered ageist it "please Draco." Please, please just don't give up dray. I was there for only a moment longer before a warm heat consumed me in a protective bubble. The smell of chocolate shrouding me, his arms wrapped tightly around me, his hands falling on mine gently but reassuringly on my hands that held Draco's paler one in my grasp. Madam Pomfrey walked through and opened her mouth a quizzical look in her eye and a question on the tip of her tongue. She wanted to know who would stay but as i meet her eyes pleadingly, silently begging for both of us to stay. She nodded her head slightly and walked off to her own quarters not too far from the hospital wing. Theo's arms filled me with warmth and reassurance, my anger subsided and guilt began to well in the pit of my stomach.

I was too hard on him.

Harry's pov

Draco's blood stained face tuned to look at me. His eyes were not his own they were tormented pools of hazel sorrow and accusation. They were the eyes of Theodore Nott. A single word tore though the silence destroying it, a shrill scream that echoed though the void of blackness. "Why?" it was not Draco's voice the shrill scream that crashed and tore it way around the abyss was that of Hermione granger. This patchwork creature let out another pained shriek and fell to the floor reviling in pain. His shirt rip in multiple places simultaneously blood pouring out the fleshly created wounds leaving in their wake three worlds ripped in the creatures flesh "HARRY POTTER'S BITCH" my blood stilled. The creature began to wail and thrash. The shrikes getting louder and louder i thought my head might split.

I jolted forward in my bed a scream of my own escaped my mouth. As my eyes adjusted i heard Ron's voice through the dark "harry mate are you ok?" his voice was groggily and scratched by sleep. "I'm fine Ron just go back to sleep" i looked round the dorm to meet the concerned yet slightly annoyed and sleep ridden faces of my dorm mates. I guess i screamed louder than i thought. Ron was still looking at me quizzically and he, leaning over and discretely whispered "was it one of... you know 'those' dreams?" Ron's voice was still coarse with sleep and was fighting to stop his eyelids from obscuring his sight. "Huh... uh yeah... sure" i sputtered out and Ron continued to stare at me so i whispered back "it's fine. I'm fine. Go back to sleep mate" without another word Ron did as he was told and was out before his head hit the pillow.

A chorus of snores echoed thought the dorm. Desire for sleep consumed me and darkness encased my sight. . my eyes snapped open and i heaved myself into a sitting position. The images haunt me every time i close my eyes.

Looking around it finally hit me. How did i get here? Was it all just a crazy and demented dream? Ah no. Pain flared in my limbs as i attempted to seat myself comfortably on the bed. Oh fuck Draco. Painfully i swung my legs off the bed and dryly noted that i was indeed in full clothing and was even wearing my shoes. Noticing the marauders map on the table by the door i limped towards it and found it neatly folded with my wand place next to it. Scanning the room i could not find my invisibly cloak.

My head was still pounding out of lack of sleep; i glanced out of the window and saw it was still vaguely dark. The sky glisten a light violet getting progressively darker the higher i looked. Somehow the beauty of the world outside my own confused circle of a life allowed hope to blossom. I let myself dare to hope that this may all turn out ok in the end.

My breath hitched as i found myself outside the hospital wing once more. Taking a calming breath i peered inside. I saw Hermione fast asleep her hand clutching Draco's paler one. Nott's arm was draped loosely over her shoulder. As i took a step into the room i notice Pansy on the first bed shifting in her sleep. I noticed my invisibly cloak on the back of Nott's chair and so i carefully slipped it off and threw it on myself and tiptoed to Draco other side.

My heart sunk as i looked down at his face. The phantom hole that had ripped in my chest began to fill with pain "i am so sorry" i sobbed "this is all... all my fault." I spluttered as tears began streaming down my face. I lowered my head to ashamed to look at his face.

"Harry ... don't cry" a faint voice cut through my pathetic sobs and my head snap up at the familiar voice of Draco Malfoy. But he was still asleep but he had begun tossing and turning in his sleep. It was at this moment the sun thought it best to shine the first golden rays of light through the large windows.

The sun grew stronger with every passing minute the light illuminating Draco's platinum hair. The sight caught Harry's breath Draco must have been the only person he knew that after the night he had been though could still look that radiant. He was just lying there. Harry was entranced, he was captivated by him. How can he still look so hot lying in a hospital bed? Harry's hand inched towards Draco's vacant one. Intertwining their fingers harry let out a shaky breath.

What am i doing? Doubt began to invade my mind since when do i find men hot? Did i really say radiant? Oh what does that matter, the real question is: do i disserve him after what i put him though? Have my insecurities not cost him enough? Hermione is right i don't deserve him. I considered removing my hand from his. A few more minutes won't hurt.

However Nott chose this moment to wake, I quickly removed my hand from Draco's. He whimpered from where he lay asleep. but I am sure that i am giving it to much importance. Nott hearing the whimper was up in a flash and I had to stand away for fear of being run over by him. He placed his hand on Draco's and something in side me coiled.

I guess now that Nott is up we will have to have that chat. I am not looking forward to this.

so are you worried about me yet with the last chapter and the dream sequence.

wow i am worried about me.

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emerald

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