Left Hand Suzuki Method Chapter 4, a bleach fanfic

This one seems really weird. There isn't very much dialogue, and it's starting to resemble how I used to write. I'd say I'm getting a bit better at writing now, I still suck a bit though! :P I wonder where the plot will go from here… I took quite a long break for a while- HAVE NO FEAR I'M NOT DEAD! Thx Quyme for that lovely little offer to translate. The whole Google Translate thing really screwed me over for translation- it didn't translate when I turned it into a word document. -

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Today Uryu would have a social life whether he liked it or not. Ichigo made him sit with himself, Orihime, Chad, Keigo, Mizuiro, Rukia, Renji and Tatsuki. He really didn't want to be there because Renji was eyeing him rather awkwardly and Keigo was telling these nowhere stories about fireworks and baseball. Uryu just nodded and mindlessly doodled on his page. He was drawing a cartoon-ish dog and cat. It was turning out okay but Uryu didn't like it too much so he threw it in the trash. All the others were listening; clearly interested in whatever he had to say. Uryu hadn't spoken since he introduced himself to all of the others. Right now he was sitting between Orihime and Tatsuki. He thought that the two girls were really cool for some reason, and Orihime was watching tentatively as Uryu started sketching out a simple flower pattern all over the page. That was what he did when he was bored and could find paper. It was rather comforting, and maybe even a bit aesthetic.

When he was finished he was considering going upstairs and hiding out there for the rest of the visit. He wasn't very good at conversations, and they had yet to ask him where he was from, too concentrated on what Keigo had to say. He honestly would hate having to explain what he did and where he lived. But when the question finally came up he didn't bother answering and went upstairs ignoring whatever they were saying. Uryu didn't want to explain himself to anyone else; besides those he was close to. He wasn't closely followed, thanks to Ichigo telling them not to bother with him for a while.

Uryu entered Ichigo's room and lied down on the bed. 'This is the reason I don't bother with people!' he thought, collapsing in a heap of sobs. He was happy that Ichigo had friends, but he was different in a lot of ways and didn't want others to know about his rather shameful past. He wished he could throw that all away and start anew. That was exactly what he was doing for a while until people brought it up again. He was pretty sure Rukia was decent enough to understand, and Orihime seemed alright, but the guys would probably run off screaming 'Ew! Homo!" Except for Chad. Chad was alright. As these thoughts whirred through his mind, he cried on the bed. But Chad's ears had picked this up as he exited the bathroom, tiny sobs in his range of hearing. They actually sounded a bit girlish; he thought it would have been either one of Ichigo's female companions, or his little sisters.

As he opened the door, he saw none other than the mysterious little guy that Ichigo had recently gotten them to know. Uryu didn't even notice his presence until he felt the huge hand on his shoulder. He looked up at the Mexican-Japanese man, whose eyes were strangely comforting as of now. Uryu could only imagine how bad he looked, in fact he had just had an ugly cry where snot and other bodily fluids leaked from every hole in your face, (yes even his mouth). But he didn't really look as retched as imagined, except for his cheeks were very flushed, a bit of snot was plugging his sinuses and his eyes were pretty tired looking. Chad looked at him for a while; Uryu was avoiding his gaze until he calmed down and regained his composure. When his cheeks were less red and his eyes stopped leaking the boy looked up at the man, who was now hugging him.

"What's wrong?" Chad spoke with his deep voice. It was even more comforting than the relaxed look that he gave Uryu earlier.

"Well I'm not particularly proud of my past. I try to forget it but I just can't; everyone keeps asking me about it and I don't want to answer." Uryu sniffled and pulled his knees up to his chest.

"I don't like what I did in the past either. It happened so long ago, and I'm still a bit haunted by it. But you can't really forget about that type of thing, so what I do is just try to start over and don't let it affect what's going on now." Chad reassured Uryu. He got up. "I don't think that they'll ask again so could you please come downstairs again?" He pleaded.

"Okay I guess." Uryu got up and followed Chad down the stairs. He had rinsed his face with cold water and let the puffiness around his eyes die down; he looked almost normal now and was pretty happy about that. Now he'd have to face everyone confidently; trying to apply what Chad had told him earlier. It wasn't so hard, and nobody really brought up Uryu's past for the rest of the night.

"So what do you do for hobbies, Uryu-san?" Orihime asked.

"Hm. I really like doing crafts and making clothes. I also play some piano… um I don't really do much for sports…" He trailed off. He was well educated from the books he bought while on the streets, and learned how to play piano for the seven or so years he did live with his father. He didn't really pay attention to the lessons his father tried to give him, but he normally wound up playing a freestyle-ish collection of tunes he had buzzing around his head. His father liked listening to these while reading, and that was the only time he was actually proud of his son and what he did, aside from his remarkable grades.

But when he was walking home he was often taken "advantage" of by the boys in the higher grade. They were much larger than him and made him do things that seriously hurt his pride. This was one of the major factors of what made him gay. He didn't exactly hate the fact that he was gay; but it was a lot easier being straight than being a homo.

Now he was sitting beside Chad; who he soon became very close friends with and Ichigo. It seemed like things would be better, he now had a bit of a social life (a very small one, but still a social life), and someone he thought he could really trust. Uryu still wasn't exactly comfortable with Ichigo's family to go in the fridge, so he timidly suggested that Ichigo and he could make something to eat for everyone. But Renji, who seemed a lot closer to Ichigo than everyone else had beat him to it. He brought out some of the taiyaki that Uryu bought yesterday and everyone ate. Renji wasn't a huge fan of it, and offered the rest to Uryu who ate it happily. Ichigo now knew Uryu's weakness, (taiyaki) and decided that he'd make him eat some every day. Now Keigo was talking about how he went out for sushi and how he saw his favourite band in front of him in line. Uryu decided to listen because he had nothing else to do, and everyone else was listening. They were a bit afraid to admit it but sometimes Keigo's little adventures made for a great story to listen to while eating.

Uryu went to the bathroom to check himself. He felt himself gaining weight again. It seemed like his body changed every day and it was bugging him. Although it was a bit interesting, he couldn't stand how small and weak he was. He used to have a toned body, with muscles and everything. But after living on the streets for a few years it was hard to find anything to eat, soon his body started eating away at the muscles on his body and that made him feel so small and helpless. But now he saw that the top rib on his chest wasn't as notable, and concluded that he should start working out again; seeing as he had a constant supply of food and had the nutrients to develop his skinny form a bit.

He went downstairs to see how everyone else was doing. He had apparently missed out on the joke that Keigo had told, and now everyone there was laughing their arses off. He sighed and continued down the stairs, filling the gap between Ichigo and Chad. He had actually sat on Ichigo's hand; who immediately drew it back, but the button had hurt his hand a bit.

"Sorry Ichigo…" Uryu looked at the throbbing ring finger.

"It's fine." Ichigo looked at it, returning it to his lap. Uryu continued watching Keigo doing a bit of a dramatization. It wasn't very interesting… To avoid listening to the sound of Keigo going on and on about his favourite band, Uryu got up and got a glass of water. It was then that Ichigo realized what a nice butt Uryu had. It looked and as just felt, it was soft but had a good shape to it. Also, his skinny jeans weren't exactly hiding it. In fact Ichigo felt his eyes stray immediately to it until Renji noticed. He punched him in the shoulder and told him that somebody might notice him. After that Ichigo regained his self control and realized what a dirty bastard he was being; also if Uryu noticed it might creep him out a bit. That was likely the last thing that the newbie needed as of now; Ichigo thought that if guys were hitting on him then maybe he'd be reminded of what he was trying really hard to forget now. Ichigo let those thoughts invade his mind; how would he feel if he was subjected to that kind of crap. He'd fight back probably, but Uryu couldn't, Ichigo knew that if he could've he would have given it his all and beat the crap out of them. The skinny guy was deceivably strong and fast, why didn't he? He probably would never really understand the quiet boy, and had long since come to terms with that. Right now he could tell that he was just trying to get through life, but they all knew that life was something nobody came out of alive; so going out fighting seemed like the best thing to do.

Uryu came back and sat down again, this time he was more careful about where he sat and was now being a bit squished by Chad and Ichigo, who were sitting pretty close to each other to begin with. Renji and Orihime didn't notice this and they didn't let Chad or Ichigo move either so Uryu was pretty much stuck there. But he wasn't complaining because he didn't get cold at all for the next few stories. All he needed now was some popcorn because he was now seeing why everyone liked Keigo's stories, they never really ended until someone told him to tell a different one, and they were also pretty funny. When Keigo was alone he was a socially awkward person who did things that were totally retarded. This amused Uryu greatly, and everyone else seemed to be enjoying themselves as Keigo preached on.

When Keigo finally ran out of material, Uryu told everyone a bit about himself. He told them about his likes, dislikes, hobbies etc, etc. He didn't spill everything though, and left people wondering a few things about him. Uryu hated when people didn't leave a few things about themselves out, and figured if he didn't tell them all of his personality, that it might make conversation later. Orihime had brought some bread leftover from the bakery that she worked in, and they nibbled on that for a while until it was all gone, Ichigo was happy that Uryu seemed to have developed quite an appetite. Nobody else seemed to interfere with Uryu, as they noticed that Uryu had hardly any weight to him.

Orihime seriously wondered what Uryu was really like, because she never really talked to him, and decided she'd save the conversation for the next time they saw each other, because he was still just settling in here. As she finished off her slice of bread Tatsuki started talking about her karate championships that were coming up soon. Ichigo said he'd be there to cheer her on, and that Uryu would have to come along with him. The boy wasn't really anticipating this, because he simply didn't like people in general. They were loud, and violent. If he could live in a mountain with a few people who were quiet then maybe he'd be better off, but he enjoyed it in crowded Japan, where there were more people, living in dense populations.

Soon Mizuiro proposed that they'd go outside and walk around, and everyone pretty much instantly agreed to this. They needed to get out and walk around like normal teenagers; and Mizuiro knew a good place for takeout. They walked to the place, groups of two or three having separate conversations. Ichigo was talking to Uryu about how he'd be going back to school at the end of the summer, Chad was talking to Tatsuki and Orihime; telling them about the Mexican legend of Quetzocaulus and how the sun was created. I have no idea of what Keigo and Mizuiro were talking about, but it seemed interesting because Keigo was doing some wild hand gestures and Mizuiro was laughing a bit at the loud noise that Keigo was making. When they got there Ichigo immediately ordered Uryu some ramen, and some other carbohydrates, and just ordered ramen, while everyone else did the same.

When the meals came Uryu stared at his plate. He was beginning to notice a pattern here: When they ate, Ichigo almost always gave him something really big with a lot of carbs in them. He was trying to gain weight himself, but Ichigo should have told him. He knew that he was really underweight and wanted to fix it; it was the polar opposite when Uryu had a bunch of people buying him. But he could see right through Ichigo's sheepish smile.

"Ichigo, if you're trying to get me to gain weight than why didn't you tell me?" Everyone turned to Ichigo; who was now blushing a bit. They too had noticed Ichigo giving Uryu more food than it looked like the small guy could handle.

"Well you are really underweight. And I'd say if Ichigo was trying to help you then don't get mad at him," spoke Renji, more to himself than anyone else.

"heh… Yeah I guess I should have told you, but if you don't wanna gain weight then I guess that's your choice and not mine, neh?" Ichigo replied sheepishly.

"Well yeah I don't mind you trying to help and all but I should be fine on my own." Uryu looked back at Ichigo. He did appreciate Ichigo's efforts but this was getting a bit excessive. He was going to start working out again as soon as possible; that meant that he'd gain his weight in muscle, and not fat.

They resumed eating in awkward silence, Uryu offered Chad most of the bread that was in front of him, and they all put in some cash to pay. Ichigo was forced to put in a bit extra because of the unwanted food he had gotten; and Uryu helped a bit by putting in some more than initially expected as well.

The group exited the shop, and resumed their conversations. Ichigo described the school to Uryu in great detail; Uryu listening intently as he got more and more excited. He often interrupted and asked about little things like textbooks, and how the bathrooms were.

They were now one week into the summer, as Ichigo just realized. His head hurt at the thought of having Uryu with him for the rest of his school life, maybe even the rest of his education. Uryu had told him he was planning on being a doctor, and how he was excited about finishing school. He had whizzed by the classes he was able to attend, while he lived with his father and the voluntary education at the orphanage he stayed at for such a short period of time. Also, he knew a lot from the textbooks he read and had to be a year ahead in math.

Thinking about the textbooks, it reminded him about his father. It was about eight years since he ran away. His grandfather had died the day before, and he had nothing to lose. He wanted to see his grave again, and knew exactly where to go to see him again. He asked Ichigo if they could go to the park near the grave yard.

"Yeah sure. Why the graveyard, though?" He wondered.

"I wanna see my grandfather." Uryu added with pleading eyes. Ichigo swore he could have seen Uryu's eyes water a bit, this told him to listen to him.

"I see. The one by the river?" Ichigo pointed to the direction where the river was. It had quite a sentimental value to him, that was where his mother died, and he visited that place at least once a week. He saw her the day before Uryu came to live with them, along with Yuzu and Karin. Yuzu was slightly successful at not crying, along with Karin who pledged to never cry. Ichigo sat there talking quietly to her, even though he knew that not even her soul still existed. It had rained that day too; in fact it was raining a lot these days.

"Yeah that one."

"That's where my mom was buried. She died there too." Ichigo looked at Uryu with a solemn look in his eye. He liked visiting his mom; she was a good listener and didn't interrupt. (ahem- Uryu could learn a lesson or two from her)

Ichigo told the rest of them to come and hang out at the park. There weren't any kids there and all they did was sit on the playground and chat about things. Ichigo and Uryu slipped off to see Soken Ishida's grave. It looked like Uryu had left some of the daffodils he picked from the little meadow were placed there a while ago. He ran off to the very same place where he got them and replaced them. He tied them with a blue ribbon he had in his pocket and laid them gently on in front of the gravestone. Ichigo gave him some privacy to talk to the dearly departed grandfather. Ichigo didn't know how strong the two's bond was, because Uryu hadn't told him about the whole "Quincy" thing that he did in his spare time.

It was almost dark out; a fiery sunset was going down on the land of the rising sun. Ichigo yawned and sat down on the damp grass, in front of where his mother was laid to rest. The birds were singing their evening song before going to sleep. He started talking to her, about how Uryu was now living with them, Uryu's past and how he was doing in school. Ichigo thought that that might've been the most boring conversation he had, but Masaki seemed pretty happy about it all. He could tell.

As he got up, he looked over to where Uryu was sitting. The boy was still sitting cross legged and with what Ichigo thought was terrible posture; his back was hunched and his head was stooped. He looked like a flower near the end of its life. Ishida looked at Ichigo, blushing a bit as he realized he had an audience. He looked quite content bowing his head, as if he could talk to his Grandfather through telepathy. He got up and walked towards Ichigo quietly with his back straight. He was happy with what he had said, and they both silently walked back to the park, Ichigo keeping a few paced behind Uryu. The truth was they both just told their relatives that they were gay, and it seemed like they didn't mind it so it was all fine.

When they got back to where everyone else was, they didn't bother asking where they went, to Ichigo's appreciation. Uryu sat down beside Chad and both of them didn't talk at all. They were happy just sitting there watching Keigo and Mizuiro fart around. It was quite amusing watching them run around, aside from when they actually got hurt and Uryu felt guilty for laughing at their stupidity. This caused them to exit the park, for fear that Keigo might get even more brain damage. So they started walking around some more. They passed a few places where Uryu had "worked", causing him to blush. He was definitely a dirty bastard, and he was starting to come to terms with that. He was going to try to follow what Chad had said and move on.

"What's up?" Ichigo asked Uryu, who hadn't talked in the past half hour. He was definitely quiet around people; but to this extent? It was seriously bugging Ichigo. He tried and tried to strike up a talk with him, but kept getting one word answers or "I don't know" for a reply. It seemed like he didn't really want to be there but he stayed for some reason. "Uryu do you want to go home?" Ichigo finally asked. He seemed so quiet and solemn.

"No… It's just that this part of town brings back really bad memories." Ichigo blushed and realized what Uryu meant. They were at the front of the group, so Ichigo turned and everyone else subconsciously followed them, keeping up their own separate conversations. When they had finally gotten out of that place Uryu talked a little more, about the few movies he had seen when he had extra money to go to a theatre. He liked them, and didn't mind bringing a few of the people he met through jobs or something. He used to have a boss, sometimes he'd take him along, and the brothel that he worked at for a short amount of time gave him lots of work. Work meant money, money meant food. Ishida thought about the path that he was going down before the Kurosakis took him in. What if it had gotten worse?

Uryu hated to admit it, but it was a good thing that Ichigo was around. He didn't mind him as much as he used to, almost to the point of liking him. He hoped he wouldn't screw this up, and decided that he'd have to try not to screw this up. He admitted that he thought Ichigo was pretty cute; and if he lost Ichigo he'd probably not be able to see Renji and Chad anymore. He really thought that Chad was cool and could turn out to be a good friend, and that Renji was really hot if he got past the fact that he hit on him constantly.

Ishida let these thoughts whirl through his head; he hardly noticed that they were at Ichigo's house. Ichigo entered and told the rest of them to be quiet. Keigo, Mizuiro, Orihime and Rukia had to go home, but Chad stayed because he didn't have anything better to do.

Ichigo led the taller man in, and got something for the three of them to eat, which was more than appreciated from Chad, who hardly ate anything at the take out spot that they were eating at. Then he busted out some pop and they all talked about things that they did in their spare time. It was in this conversation that Uryu found out that Chad was the one who taught Ichigo how to play the guitar. The three of them sat down on the couch, Uryu fell asleep with on Ichigo's lap, his long legs strewn across the entire seat. He had been a bit tired even before they left. He cuddled into Ichigo's chest and smiled. He was snoring lightly, and as of now had a cute innocent disposition about him. Ichigo liked seeing him like this. It was cute and funny.

He drifted off into a deep sleep, and about an hour later he felt himself being carried up onto Ichigo's room. He yawned and opened his eyes, blushing a bit. "Ichigo?"

"Yeah?" Ichigo smelt a tinge of alcohol in his breath. Chad and he had brought out some of booze his father had never really bothered with. Ichigo knew that he wouldn't notice, and they had a good time. Uryu had no idea why they did but he was happy that Ichigo was happy. He had never gotten drunk before, and was kind of curious; he wondered if Ichigo had left any of what they were drinking.

"Did you have any left?" Uryu asked timidly. "Did Chad go home?"

"You mean this?" Ichigo held up a jug of sake. It had to be at least a quarter full.

"Yeah…" Uryu blushed. "Could I have some?"

"Sure." Ichigo handed him the oddly shaped jug. Uryu drank some; it tasted funny and had that odd foreign tinge to it. He took another, much larger sip of it before coughing a bit. He wasn't a huge fan, but in a few minutes it started to work. He felt warm, in an altered state of mind. After a few more gulps of it, it didn't seem too bad and he started to feel "Different". He decided that he'd had enough and tried to sleep, but Ichigo kept him up, and they talked a bit more. Apparently Uryu was a better talker when he was tweaked a bit. Then Ichigo suggested that they played truth or dare.

"Truth or dare?" Ichigo asked him. They were sitting cross legged on the bed facing each other. Uryu gave it some thought. He had picked truth at least 2 times in a row, not that he was keeping track. So he picked dare for once. "hm. I dunno… I dare you to sit in my lap."

Uryu, who was in his drunk state of mind decided to do it; he didn't have much to lose anyways. He sat down and squirmed a little, getting comfortable. Ichigo never really answered the question about Chad, who was a total lightweight, had passed out on the couch. The whole game went a little bit crazy, and it ended in the two doing it, not even on a dare. Ichigo had wanted him for a while, and Uryu was a bit horny from the large concentration of alcohol he had consumed through the short passage of time that Ichigo visited him. Ichigo was as gentle as he could be, and tried not to hurt him. Meanwhile, Uryu had been a bit of a masochist and gave Ichigo little hickies and bruises all over.

When they woke up, Uryu found himself less than mobile. He couldn't really move because his lower back hurt like a bitch, and Ichigo was in the shower. But thanks to the fact that Chad had spent the night he had some company. Apparently, Chad heard them and couldn't sleep very well. Uryu apologized about that, and realized that Chad now knew that Uryu was gay. He seemed pretty cool about it; he didn't seem grossed out about it at all but he acted different around him slightly.

"Did you know that Ichigo was gay?" Uryu asked quietly. He had wondered if he had given away some big secret, what if that would kill his social life completely.

"Yeah, He told me a long time ago actually." Chad replied. It was true; Ichigo had told them before they had gone into the Seireitei. He was good at keeping secrets. Ichigo was also almost positive that Chad would accept him anyways; he was quite possibly the most understanding person Ichigo knew. He was pretty sure he was straight himself though.

Uryu tried to move again, albeit the difficulty he found it easier to sit up if his back was straight. His body was covered in the blue sheets that Ichigo had on his bed. The entire upper side of his back had a bunch of scratch marks from Ichigo, and his hair was a bit of a mess. Also he had that uncomfortable sensation of the white sticky fluid Ichigo had put in him the previous night running out of his ass. He shifted and yawned. They waited for the orange haired boy to return so Uryu could take a shower; when he did he grabbed Uryu a towel. Ichigo found it a bit hard to look Uryu in the eye now, he looked like an angel this morning; his eyes were like sapphires and his hair looked really shiny, like god had sent him down to earth to torment and love Ichigo at the same time.

Uryu seemed to be teaching Ichigo a life lesson of acceptance. He was different than anyone Ichigo ever knew before, and he was so complex. Ichigo felt really guilty about how he kicked him around and beat him up. It was a mystery as to why Ichigo had turned around so quickly. Maybe he had realized that Uryu had never had a real family, and if he saw how Ichigo had beaten him up he wouldn't want a family. That would have been a really sad thing for him to have caused. He knew that if his mother had found out she wouldn't have liked it at all. That was another likely factor. Either way he had recently lost his virginity and was happy about that, even if it was another guy. He wondered about how Uryu would act around him. Ichigo could no longer think about him as a brother, maybe just a really close friend.

Lover?

Maybe…