~Flashing disclaimer...I DO NOT own Harry Potter but would love to own or be owned by Severus Snape! I DO NOT own the Lauren Hill if I DID I'd have stopped her from dating Wycleff and becoming a crazy mess lol. I will not make any money and will be forever poor. This is a slash fic please don't flame you are warned it's also AU so don't flame on that please. It is a song-fic but give it a try anyways :)~

The Fall of Severus Snape

For the LOVE of Severus

It was almost a typical night at Hogwarts, students were in their dorms or common rooms playing around or studying. The more devout students were cooped up in the library like always. Two students on very different sides of the popularity tree were pulling a long detention with(or without since he never stayed in the room to supervise) Professor Slughorn one raven haired teen with beautiful grey eyes sighed loudly because he was yet again cleaning cauldrons by hand while the other raven haired teen with piercing black eyes looked at the other boy annoyed. The grey eyed boy was the ladies man of Hogwarts, handsome by almost every girls and some boys standards. He was also a well known prankster who ran with his clique of friends called The Marauders. His name Sirius Black and their mission as James Potter one of the founding members of the group once said was to cause chaos and have fun but when they first laid eyes on the other raven haired boy meticulously scrubbing cauldrons named Severus Snape they made it another mission to give him as much hell as they could. Severus was highly unpopular because of his hair that was oily from doing potions constantly and his skin was more pale than most because he was constantly inside in the sanctuary of a lab or the library. He is a loner but not always by choice his sharp tongue and bordering on paranoid vigilance kept others at bay. In the past five years he's had to become that way or he'd always be prey to his most hated enemy James Potter. He at some point towards the beginning of the year become friendly with Black but neither could say how it happened. Neither one could say and would deny making the first move when they went from kind of friends to kissing then from kissing to making out and from there both denied anything from that point. After a month of constant denial they said what the fuck and started secretly dating both not wanting their rival houses to know. This didn't mean that they went easy on each other when it came down to having to fight it just meant kisses and apologies followed when they could sneak away though Sirius was the one that almost always had something to apologize for. It was almost always his best friend who initiated a fight with the Slytherin. This time however it was Severus who had retaliated by sending a Slugulus Eructo curse causing Sirius to send a curse of his own while Remus helped James who was spitting out slugs left and right. A teacher happened by while the couple sent stinging hexes back and forth landing them in detention and James in the Hospital Wing. Sirius sighed looking at his lover "It could all be so simple, But you'd rather make it hard." Severus was appalled that Sirius would say that to him did he expect him to just lay back and take what those moronic Marauders did. "What do you mean make it simple, listen to me mutt and listen good. I am not just going to stand by and let you lot do whatever you damn we please to me!" "I didn't mean it that way but you don't have to go out of your way to start a fight with James now do you?" Sirius asked softly. "I hardly think it's looking for a fight when I am just answering his latest lets see what it takes to humiliate Snivellus quest...is it?" Severus sneered. They had been over this so many times before, Sirius would never understand how could he? He had his perfect life while Severus' life consisted of pain and humiliation. Sirius grew frustrated "YOU are just like him in that sense never wanting to let the other off the hook...dammit Snape." Severus was tired he didn't want to argue with anyone let alone one of the few people he let past his barriers well some of them. He wanted this thing with Sirius whatever it was, he wanted it. "Loving you is like a battle, And we both end up with scars." He whispered softly to the air. His lover knew what he meant, they had everything against them including his own cowardice he put his friends above anyone. He just answered back to the same air "Tell me who I have to be, To get some reciprocity?" This caused Snape's mood to lighten "My My Black do you even know what the meaning of such a big word?" Despite the jibe Sirius chuckled wrapping his arms around that lanky teen "In fact I do Snape, I may not be as smart as you but I do know a thing or two." He proceed to show him by kissing him soundly on his pale lips, Severus answered him by wrapping a hand in those wavy locks and crushing their lips together harder. Breathlessly they pulled apart to gather themselves before Professor Slughorn came back. When they headed out Severus was surprised to see Regulus, Sirius' younger brother waiting there and if the grunt that came from Sirius was any indication he was too. Severus and him had become friends when he came to Hogwarts a year after himself. Their friendship started from their dislike of his older brother oddly enough. "Regulus what are you doing down here?" Sirius tried to sound friendly even though they could hardly stand each other. Regulus was all about family tradition, Pure-blood ways, and Slytherin everything Sirius wasn't he even as far as to boast his Gryffindor colors in his family home anytime he could. Regulus sneered a sneer worthy of Severus "Black not that it's any of your business but I have come to collect Severus." He turned to his fellow Slytherin and spoke in a happier tone "Severus I heard you had to endure a detention alone with one of the idiotic Marauders so I figured I'd come walk with you back." Severus shook his head slightly while smirking softly "And it has nothing to do with you needing help with your potions essay hmmm?" They walked away without a glance back leaving a confused Sirius. If he didn't know better he'd say his brother was blushing even if it was miniscule. He shook those thoughts heading in the opposite direction to his own dorms.

It had been a week before the lovers were able to sneak off to meet. Sirius slid into the abandoned classroom under Jame's invisibility cloak as soon as shut the door he cast the required silencing and locking charms. Severus was already there hiding in a dark corner waiting patiently as soon as the last charm was placed he swooped enveloping the Gryffindor in a tight embrace. The other answered with a kiss on his pale neck as he spoke gently into his ear "No one loves you more than me, And no one ever will." That sent shivers down Severus' spine from both loving the feeling of possessiveness in his tone and being scared of it. He didn't like the feeling of being owned but couldn't help reveling in the feeling of warmth that washed over him. Sirius kissed him with hungry abandon as his hands worked frantically at his robe, the other set of hands worked swiftly but methodically on the animagus' robe. They broke their kissing long enough to shrug off their robes, Sirius pounced the topless Slytherin knocking him into the nearest wall pushing his erection into the other earning a low groan out of the usually stoic teen. Severus slid a free hand to Sirius' pants freeing his prize as fast as possible once free he gripped his cock tightly and stroked it slow driving his lover mad. Sirius wasn't a patient man by any means, with the way his lover was driving him close to the edge then stopping wasn't working for him. "Fuck Sev stop teasing me already, I need it now." The hand kept moving slowly to the others dismay it even slowed down a little he tried bucking his hips to not avail. Growling low he pushed those lovely fingers away so he could pull off the still half dressed teens pants. He made quick work of them then drug him to the nearest desk to bend him over. He couldn't wait he prepped him swiftly before plunging into a tight bliss moaning Severus' name. Severus' breath hitched at the intrusion he was grateful that Black waited till he was ready to move. He gave a signal that let him know he was ok, soon white burst from behind his tightly squeezed eyes as Sirius hit his sweet spot over and over. He knew it wouldn't take long not when his Gryffindor was this needy he tried to snake his hand down to his forgotten member but it was slapped away and replaced with another. "Mine" Sirius growled in his ear causing Severus to tremble soon he was coming moaning "Yours" over and over, his orgasm milked the others out of him. Grey eyes stayed shut even as he collapsed onto his lover's back. When both of them caught their breaths he pulled out slowly while feeling a cleansing charm being cast on himself. As always they dressed in silence, kissed as long as time allowed, and happily went to their own dorms. Sirius smacked his hand over his head for forgetting to give Severus his homework he ran quickly to see if he could catch him before he went too far into Slytherin territory. He slowed down when he heard voices. He was glad he had James' cloak as he recognized the voice of his brother he followed the voice finding that he was talking to his lover. Sirius was nothing if not opportunistic so he cast a silencing spell on his shoes listening for any good information. "Why won't you tell me Sev, you know I keep any secret you tell me." Severus stopped mid-stride to give him a warning glare which caused Regulus to mumble an apology. "I told you what I was doing Reg why must you insist it be something it isn't?" Regulus made a pained face but covered it up with a huff pointing at his friends neck. "I'd like to know the name of the book that gave that 'he spat the word like rancid food' to you?" Sirius wasn't sure if he wanted to know what excuse he made but he also wanted to see how his brother reacted because from what he was seeing his brother had a crush on his lover and he didn't like that one bit. They may not be telling anyone about this thing but he was not a very good sharer especially with his bigoted brother. "Fine I was studying but then I met up that seventh year Ravenclaw, you remember the one I told you about and we snogged a bit that's it...that's all it will ever be dreadful kisser he was." Severus lied smoothly. Regulus bit his lip willing the hurt to pass this was his best friend he was suppose to be supportive when he was well enough to speak again he forced a smile nudging him with his elbow. "I could have told you he'd be a bad kisser he is from Ravenclaw after all probably just read about how to kiss in a book, tell me did he ask you to grade him on his technique when you were done?" This caused Severus to laugh he wrapped an arm around the younger man dragging him down to their dorms "No but if he did I would definitely have to give him a T!" They both laughed disappearing out of Sirius' view, for his part he started making his way to his own dorm homework forgotten. He was in his dressed in his bed clothes before he even noticed someone talking to him. "Hmmm sorry what did you say, I was thinking about something." Remus gave an exasperated sigh "I gathered that much considering I've been calling you since you walked in the dorm. I said did you have a big date tonight but judging by your face it didn't go well at all." "Sorry Moony yeah I did and it went ok just have a few things on my mind nothing worth mentioning. I'm just gonna go to sleep maybe if I get a clear head I can sort it out better." Remus looked unsure but let it go "If you wanna talk Pads I'm here, Goodnight." Sirius yawned out "Goodnight Moony, I know that thanks." He shut his curtains to try and sleep but all he kept doing was running a mental checklist of seventh year Ravenclaw boys. Sirius trudged up to his first class pissed from lack of sleep and lack of food since none of his friends decided to wake him for breakfast he was just lucky it was History of Magic with Binns so he could catch a few more zz's or so he thought as soon as he walked in his eyes fell to the black haired teen who was jotting down notes as far away from the class as possible. His mind was back on who the other teen was seeing behind his back. He wanted answers but didn't know how to get them plus he didn't want to know if it happened to be true. He also remembered he had his homework they needed for their next class. Grabbing a spare piece of parchment he scribbled a note then charmed it to look like a spider that made its way to the studious male behind him. Severus was taking notes as the teacher droned on about yet another Goblin Revolution when a paper spider walked on top of his work then swiftly unfolded it self. All it said was

'Got your homework still. -S'

he breathed a sigh of relief thinking he had lost it which was highly unlike him, he wrote out his own message then charmed it into a snake returning it back to the original sender. Sirius was already becoming droopy eyed when he heard a small hiss in his ear his eyes widened for a fraction of a second before noting it was a paper message he couldn't help but roll his eyes at the obvious choice for his Slytherin. The snake gave one more hiss then unfolded he chuckled slightly at the message back.

'Good grief I forgot I lent it to you, thought I was losing my mind. I'll have you know I ransacked my whole bag looking for that damn parchment...don't sit there snickering send it over. -S' Grabbing Severus' homework he charmed it into a lion then sent it back to other teen, he knew said teen received it when he heard a soft snort behind him. With that done he followed his friends' example falling to sleep to the monotonous voice of their ghostly Professor.

It was a few days before he thought of the Ravenclaw again this time it was staring him in the face so to speak he saw Severus in the back of the library talking to a Ravenclaw boy with blonde hair. They were shoulder to shoulder looking down at something when the boy looked up at his Severus he blushed then looked away as soon as Severus looked up at him. Sirius' blood boiled he stalked up to them "What's this Snape found someone just as pathetic as you to hang around?" Severus and the Ravenclaw looked up startled but onyx eyes narrowed at the intruder his so called lover with a quick glance he noticed no one else was with him so why was he here harassing him. "Don't you have James' ass to kiss Black or are you done for the day?" he sneered. The green eyed teen giggled at the remark causing Sirius to lash out harder "Oi Snivellus don't you have a Death-Eater dick to suck." He knew as soon as the words left his mouth he went to far. His companion gasped but Severus calmly turned to him "Charles I think we're done for the day, Why don't you owl me the time and place to finish up ok?" Charles looked uncertain "Are you sure Severus, I can walk you to your dorms?" Severus turned to his partner softened his features a bit "I'll be ok Charles believe me it is nothing I haven't had to deal with before, I'd feel worse if you got caught up in this mess." He wasn't a Slytherin for nothing he might not have tons of friends but he was learning how to get things he needed with subtle gestures and phrases. Charles gathered up his things before he left he gave Severus a one armed hug then ran off. Severus ignored the fuming teen to gather his things to leave. He made it out of the library and as far as the bottom stairs before he heard "Snape!" he cursed as a hand yanked him to a stop. He took a survey of who was around thankfully just a few first years. "What the bloody hell do you want Black?" The other teen dragged him to an empty classroom as soon as the door closed he kissed the Slytherin hard enough to leave a bruise. It ended when Severus responded the instant he did he was pushed away, when Sirius reached the door to leave he was pulled roughly away from it to the floor. When he looked up he was greeted with a confused, angered, and even sad faced teen who gritted out "Is this just a silly game, That forces you to act this way? Forces you to scream my name, Then pretend that you can't stay." Sirius tried to speak but what could he say that didn't sound like a lead on. He said the first thing that came to mind "Don't make me out to the bad guy when you were with Charles." Severus glared at the other man spitting his reply with as much acid as he could muster "Is that why you chose to embarrass me in front of my Charms partner because of some petty shit you made up in your head?" "I heard you talking to my brother the other night about the seventh year Ravenclaw who you were snogging!" Sirius accused. Severus gave a bitter laugh "Merlin you are stupid what did you want me to say I was off fucking your brother? I'm sure you would have liked that, you know I may not be interested in Charles but at least he isn't ashamed to be seen with me!" Sirius stood up walking to his lover "What's that suppose to mean?" He used Sirius' own words against him "Tell me, who I have to be, To get some reciprocity? I am sick of having to hide this from our friends." The Gryffindor sighed "I know but it's not the right time, wait for me...remember No one loves you more than me, And no one ever will." Severus shivered in pleasure but his mind kept telling him this was wrong. "I don't think so Black I don't want to be in the background anymore like a cheap mistress this isn't working." Grey eyes flashed with concern as he cupped his lover's sharp face "No matter how I think we grow, You always seem to let me know it ain't workin'." Thin lips crushed onto his after a few seconds they pulled back and in a sullen silky voice he said "It ain't workin'." he snatched his face from those warm hands then ran as fast as he could back to his dorms leaving a stunned Sirius in his wake.

It was only a day before he saw Severus again it had been due to a mix up with both houses' Quidditch teams booking the field on the same day. Since neither refused to leave they grudgingly decided to have a duel practice. Severus was reading a book waiting for Lucius to finish practice he was content enough to read since Regulus got himself detention for casting Bird-Conjuring Charm to attack a fifth year who was bashing his house. He reminded himself not to look at Sirius no matter how much he wanted to it would only hurt worse in the end. Halfway through practice Sirius made it a point to maneuver himself closer to Severus he wanted to gain his attention by any means necessary. He saw his opening to call Severus' name with no one else around and a Slytherin had "accidentally" threw a bludger in his direction. Severus looked up at his name being called noticed it was Sirius he was ready to tune him out when he saw a ball come flinging in his direction. Severus got to his feet calling Sirius' name thinking 'where is my wand, why doesn't he move, why do I care we're over?' Sirius just smiled at him as he got smashed by the bludger in his arm, Severus willed himself to stay put. He was thankful his body listened to him because Potter was at Sirius' side in no time taking him to the nurse. He sat down forcing himself back into his Slytherin role. While everyone on both teams were fighting on the field Lucius flew down to him gracefully landing next to him. "McNair did a real number on the Gryffindork didn't he?" Severus made a small laugh come out "I wish I could have seen his face, too bad I was reading I even had front row seats to Black getting injured." Lucius laughed then got up calling the rest of the team who stopped their brawl some in mid-swing to follow their Ice Prince off the field. Some Gryffindors looked shocked others were disgusted by the way they followed him like a pack of dogs following their master. Severus wasn't like the rest of their House he walked with Lucius never behind him. When dinner came he noticed Sirius wasn't eating with the rest of his gang. Despite his breakup with the beautiful boy he was worried about his well being. He decided to check on him just to sleep better that night or so he tried telling himself. He snuck out as soon as the others were asleep, it was easy enough to sneak into the Hospital Wing since most tried to sneak out not in. He spotted those wavy locks right away causing him to all but run to his side. He was barely by his side when he was flashed a pair of perfect teeth and a big smile. "I knew you'd come." He croaked out. Severus sighed as he sat down "You fool why didn't you move out of the way even I know you had plenty of time to dodge it?" Sirius took Severus' long fingers to thread into his own he looked up in the deep dark pools he liked so much whispering "It was the only way I knew of to get you to talk to me. I...I wanted to say I was sorry for how I acted yesterday." Severus should have known this was a ploy but if he was honest with himself he was flattered that he had gone through so much just to get his attention. "Sirius I already told you I need more that's why I walked away..." he pulled his hand free to hold his face "And when I try to walk away, You'd hurt yourself to make me stay!" Sirius gently pulled his hands away from face to look him in the eyes "I can't promise you I can tell my friends but don't you know I care for you I'll be there for you if you need me hell I'd die for you Severus." Black eyes stared at equally shocked grey eyes, Sirius hadn't meant to go that far but he meant it. He held onto the other teen in case he got the idea to flee but the other teen stayed still mumbling "This is crazy" Sirius had to agree with him there "You're right This is crazy but this is us Severus you know I love you I just can't tell anyone yet." Severus gave a resigned groan "I keep letting you back in...How can I explain myself. As painful as this thing has been, I just can't be with no one else!" He leaned over and kissed pale pink lips softly multiple times before leaving for his dorm.

They had a couple of weeks of pure bliss that consisted of quick gropes, soft words, and heavy make up sex. In the Great Hall one morning James made a gagging sound causing Sirius and Peter to look up from their food. "What's up Prongs, swallow a fly or something?" James rolled his eyes but replied "No just looking at Snivellus makes me want to throw up my lunch." Remus looked up from his book for the first time that morning to peer at the Slytherin table "He does seem different lately, he seems I don't know happy I guess." "What the hell could that greasy git have to be happy about?" Remus just shrugged "Maybe he has a girlfriend we don't know about?" That caused James to shudder "I couldn't imagine who'd want his greasy paws all over them but whatever the reason, I don't think I can let it stand. I mean it's against nature for a conniving Slytherin to be happy isn't that right Pads?" Sirius didn't like where this was going but he wouldn't go against his best friend with a forced laugh he replied "Of course not Snivellus being happy is a crime against nature, what were you thinking Prongs?" "I'm not sure yet give me a few days to think of something really good." Remus gave an irritated sigh as he returned to his book, Peter clapped excitedly before returning to his food, and Sirius returned to his food sullenly looking between his dish and Severus. Sirius thanked Merlin that the rest of the day had gone off without a hitch besides scaring a few first years. He tried to keep his mind off the next round of Humiliate Severus that James had planned by sinking himself into school work to James' dismay and Remus' surprise. One evening James opted out of going to the library with him and Remus to chase down to spend time with Lily which was a good thing since the first thing he spotted was Severus sitting alone. He sat with his back to his lover or he knew he'd get caught by the ever watchful wolf he was studying with. They were barely thirty minutes into studying when Remus gasped "I wonder if that's why he's been so happy?" Sirius knew right away who he meant but played dumb "Who Moony?" Remus discretely pointed to the table behind him "Severus...just come to this side to act like you need to read from my book." Sirius got up to sit next to Remus when he looked to where Severus was sitting he spotted the blonde haired Ravenclaw leaning a little too close to Severus. "Do you think that he's dating a guy?" Sirius gave a shrug then pulled his own supplies to where he was now sitting not that it would do much good he didn't think he would be getting much work done. Remus didn't bother he only put his book to his face to look like he was reading. It didn't take long until Remus elbowed him "Look he's actually smiling, I've never seen Severus actually smile before have you?" Sirius glanced up at his Severus' face YES he wanted to shout I'M suppose to be the one making him smile that beautiful smile and laughing that deep sexy laugh. NO one else is suppose to see this side of him. He squeezed his eyes shut before replying "No I mean it's Snivellus all he ever does is sneer and scowl." Remus gave him a disapproving look mumbling "Well this look looks good on him." before continuing his Snape watching. His quill snapped when he indeed heard his lovers laugh accompanied by the other boys. He gave up on trying to do actual work to do what Remus was doing he needed to know what was so damn funny. Remus commented unknown to the storm brewing inside one of his best friends. "He is kind of a pretty boy I wonder what his name is?" "Charles" Sirius sneered causing Remus to tear his eyes away from the couple "How did you know that?" "I uh heard some firstie talking to him the other day." Sirius lied. Remus took it at face value continuing his watch on the couple. He couldn't take watching them but he couldn't make himself leave his heart gave a lurch as he saw Severus wipe something off the blushing boys face. Even if his Severus didn't look like he liked him or didn't caress the other man's face he didn't like him touching anyone but him. Remus awwed which really made Sirius want to punch him hard. Before they headed out it happened what Sirius feared and Remus had been anticipating while Severus was packing up his bag the blonde leaned in stealing a kiss from Severus. Surprise was written all over his face before he could recover the boy ran off stopping only enough to glare at Sirius and Remus not that either noticed. "Well I guess we found out why Severus has been so happy, Good for him." They packed up their bags leaving unnoticed by the shocked Slytherin as soon as they rounded the corner away from the library Sirius made up an excuse to head back telling Remus to go ahead back to the dorms. When he was sure the other Gryffindor was gone he headed back to Severus. He was packing up bag when Sirius reached him "What the hell was that Snape?" Severus was startled "Well hello to you too Black, What was what exactly?" Sirius was furious "Do not play with me Snape you know damn well what I mean, blondey kissing you and you not shoving him away or is this what you do with anyone who gives you attention?" Severus closed his bag then shoved the grey eyed teen away from him "Fuck you Black!" he hissed. Sirius followed him out letting his mouth get the better of him. "Did that with him too I bet what did you spread them for my brother and Lucius as well. I see they give you enough attention." Severus came to an abrupt halt "I can't believe you would think so little of me first I'm Snivellus, then I'm a Death-Eater, now I'm a whore?!" He was my second kiss and it wasn't even by my choice." His breath was coming out harshly willing the tears not to show. Sirius was too angry to think straight "I'm sure, then what was that caressing his face Snape. Face it you led him on knowing I would be watching if you think that is going to make me tell my friends faster then you are mistaken. I can't even look at you right now!" Severus clenched his hands to his side trying to control the hurt and rage that threatened to take him over. "I see...I know what you really think of me...See I know what we got to do, You let go and I'll let go too. I'm done with this, whatever this was it isn't working because I can't keep loving a man who thinks so little of me. Good-bye Sirius." Feeling like deja vu he ran off heartbroken again. The tears in Severus' eye did little to curb his anger he headed out to fly and clear his mind.