Disclaimer: I do not own CCS or any of its characters, it belongs to CLAMP NOT me. Used part of the lyrics from the song "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" by Green Day; I DO NOT own the song. The song is centered and italicized.

Chapter V On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Last time on "Boulevard of Broken Dreams":

'Did "they" park the car, were "they" following me now, on foot?' I heard some noise from around the trees in the park. I was close to home but am I leading my pursuers to my own home, would they attack me while I'm asleep? The noises were getting louder every minute; it was getting closer to me with every passing second. Then, I saw…

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Then I saw a squirrel! A very kawaii (A/N: kawaii is Japanese for 'cute') and harmless squirrel. It looked at me with those beautiful big brown eyes and then ran away again, possibly home.

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone

Then, it got quiet again. Once again, I'm alone; no one else along this barren road, it's just me.

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams

Barren, it's just like my life, empty, meaningless, and alone. What have I accomplished in my life? What do I hope to accomplish? The only thing would be to be free, to avenge my family's deaths and to be able to live without having to look over my shoulder all the time wondering if I'll live to see the sun rise again.

What can I accomplish when I'm constantly on the run? How can I give back when I have nothing, no money, and no time, to give? I've certainly never made a difference and I won't ever be able to.

'I'm a useless creature to society, so wrapped up in my own troubles and without any time or resources to help others.'

Sakura's eyes were watery thinking about how useless she's been. Her vision blurred as her eyes filled up tears threatening to spill. Trying to blink back those tears she was glad that it was night time thus no one can see her cry.

'I must be strong. Or else, I might as well be dead.' Sakura rashly reminded herself that if she isn't strong, she won't be able to have her retribution for family's deaths, and if she can't then what's the point of living?

She continued walking home with a heavy heart due to those melancholy thoughts.

Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

Everyone else seems to be asleep, everyone on this side of the world at least. They're all safe in bed knowing that they'll wake up tomorrow for another normal day. Normal, that's one thing I've been defrauded out of, and heaven knows how much I wish to lead a normal life. I was doomed to lead a, a different life than others. Even if I hadn't run away from home, my life wouldn't stay normal for long.

Sakura sighed, 'Why, why me?'

"Why?" Sakura screamed, frustrated, wanting an answer, "Why ME?!" It echoed, bouncing off the majestic, looming buildings until it reached her ears again. It was faint, soft until it finally died off leaving her engulfed alone in the darkness.

She stood there, as if expecting someone to show up and give her the rejoinder she's been looking for. But, no one came, no one ever does. Only silence answered her, silence surrounded her.

Knowing it was useless to stand there and wait, she continued her long journey home.

Looking up at the sky, she found it barren and empty of stars. The only thing that lit up the night sky was the city lights and they weren't very comforting; they were too garish and gaudy.

She walked past a couple light posts and it threw light upon her, casting her shadow about. Looking down at her shadow, she thought, 'Isn't it a shame that it's my only company during this dark night? How pathetic, when your only company is your shadow.'

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

She continued walking, her heart beating against her chest, the only noise this quiet night. She noticed something she didn't before, there was a school here. She lingered by the school gates, recounting her own days in grammar school. How she dreamed of attending her prom but she was deprived of that because of "them."

'I was looking forward to prom, I wonder how it went, and it must've been so much fun.' Sakura sullenly wondered.

Continuing along the road home, a bridal store caught her eye.

'Touya died before he got married, and I might too. I've always dreamed of it, but how will that come true when I'm never in one place long enough for guys to really get to know me, and will they ever get to know me when I'm constantly pretending to be someone else? I've always wanted children, but what child would want to run away all the time? If I had a child, he/she will hate me; hate me for the life I can't give him/her.' She took one last glance at the bridal gown before she tore her eyes away from it and started running.

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'I can't stand it anymore, all of these thought about what I've always dreamed of but can never have, thoughts of another life that I long for.' She slowed down to a jog, 'Why do I keep dreaming for what I can't have?'

'I can't help but wonder what life could've been like, and yet another part of me doesn't want to know,' Sakura realized, 'it's such a dilemma. To wonder or not to wonder?'

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone

She was spared more agony because she was finally home.

She felt the cold freezing metal of the doorknob against her skin as she opened the door; warm gusts of air greeted her as she stepped into the apartment. 'Home sweet home,' she thought as she nimbly stepped inside the apartment and closed the door behind her.

Exhausted from the day's events she decided to eat a quick dinner and then get some rest. The bed never felt comfier and sleep never came as easily.

For the rest of the night, no more shall she be reminded of her horrible fate and what fate has denied her. For that night, she slept without having any dreams and she slept soundly for the rest of the night.

To Be Continued…

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LC: WOW! It's been FOREVER since I last updated. School's been a nightmare and I haven't found much time to go on fanfiction. Well, since I'm on winter break, I've been able to type up this short chapter. Nope, I haven't forgotten about this story, or my other one. It'll make me extremely happy to see some reviews, it'll make me know that the time I spent typing this up was worthwhile! Thanks to everyone who reviewed the last chaptrer and to everyone who's reading this story!