Chapter 20: On My Own
As the blue-gray she-cat padded into the darkness, rain started to softly fall down. "And now I'm all alone again, no where to go, no cat to go to.." Rainbrook meowed.
"With a home, without a face to meow hello to.." She whispered, as the cold breeze bristled her fur.
She paused, standing where she was for a moment. "But now the night is here.. And I can make believe he's here.." She could feel Sparkheart's pale ginger fur brushing against hers.
"Sometimes I pad alone at night when everybody else is sleeping... I think of him and then I'm happy with the company I'm keeping! BreezeClan goes to sleep.. And I can live inside my head.." She mewed, her paws slowly moving as she padded through the forest.
"On my own, pretending he's beside me.." She murmured, her tail slowly thrashing as a sign.. Of loneliness.
"All alone.. I pad beside him till sunrise. In the darkness, I feel his fur against me, and when I lose my way, I close my eyes.." The blue-gray she-cat closed her eyes.
"And he has found me.." She whispered.
She opened her eyes and noticed she was on the edge of BreezeClan's territory, almost in LightClan's territory. "In the rain.. The river shines it's brightest.. The bright moon, is reflecting onto the puddles.. In the darkness, the trees are full of moonlight.." She turned and looked towards ForestClan's trees.
"And all I see is him and me, forever and forever.." She purred at the thought of them- just her and Sparkheart.. Forever.
Rainbrook then shivered. "And I know.. It's only in my mind... That I'm mewing to myself.. And not to him.." Her eyes then filled with sorrow.
"And although, I know that he is blind! Still I say, there's a way for us.." She meowed, her tail drooping.
"I love him, but when the night is over.. He is gone! The river's just a river!" She wailed, splashing LightClan's river.
She ran across BreezeClan's territory. "Without him, the forest around me changes! The trees are bare, and everywhere the dens are full of strangers!"
"I love him, but everyday I'm learning! All my life, I've only been pretending!" Rainbrook's muzzle was wet with tears by now.
"Without me, his world will go on turning!" She closed her eyes, only to get pictures of Larkwing and Sparkheart having the good life- without her.
"A world that's full of happiness, that I have never known!" Rainbrook yowled, her unsheathed claws clutching the dirty ground.
She suddenly heard pawsteps. Rainbrook pricked her ears, and sniffed. Eaglestrike and Hawkstar! "I love him.." She whispered while heading off to the barricade.
"I love him.." She repeated, starting to run.
"I love him.. But only on my own.." She mewed as she finally got to the barricade.