Chapter 3: feelings

Three weeks later

The rain continue to pour, he was dripping wet. Did he care? No he didn't. His mind was blank, his body was numb. If one were to look at him they would've mistaken him for the living dead. It has been three weeks since he ran away. Three weeks since he last saw his friends. Three weeks since he killed his brother.

Memories of that horrid day plagued his mind.

Flashback

Naruto and Sasuke have been exchanging blows for a while. Each of them weary, Sasuke in level three of his cursed seal yells "Chidori!" and Naruto on the complete opposite side, covered in the demon fox's cloak yells "Rasengan!"

Both ninja's adding as much power to their attacks. Sasuke's chidori, is noticeably more gray-er due to his infusion of dark chakra from the cursed seal. Naruto's rasengan has a distinct red outer glow due to the infusion of the demon fox's chakra with his own.

Both shinobi, jumped at each other, and with a loud explosion, their attacks met.

"CHIDORI"

"RASENGAN"

Sasuke with combination of the cursed seal and his sharingan sees Naruto's weak spot. He hand goes toward Naruto's heart, but as he struck. *Poof* Naruto disappeared

"A shadow clone" thought Saskue, surprised. Naruto then jumped out from the waterfall, and hit Saskue squarely in the chest. Sasuke was sent flying back immediately and crashed into the foot of the statue. Naruto was victorious.

Naruto walked over to where Sasuke had crashed. He seemed unconscious. "Shit. What have I done?" thought Naruto. He kneeled beside Sasuke; he put his ear to Sasuke's chest listening for a beat. He had found one but it was weak; it was also growing faint. Sasuke was dying.

"NO! NO! NO! Don't die on me Sasuke" said Naruto

Naruto pulled out a medical kit from his pouch and pulled out a solider pill but a small weak voice stopped him

"...Naruto..." said Sasuke

End of Flashback

He could feel his eyes watering, and he knew for a fact that it wasn't the rain. Naruto continued walking not knowing were he was heading. All he knew was they can never find him. Especially her.

Flashback

"Please Naruto, please bring him back," a sobbing Sakura pleaded.

Naruto stared at her for a moment, he could feel his heart breaking knowing the girl he was in love with loved another. He would bring Sasuke back. Not for the village, not for the Hokage but for her.

Putting on a brave face he made a promise to her. A promise that was broken the minute he slammed his rasengan into his brother's chest.

End of Flashback

Naruto could feel his heart shattering, if Sakura found out the truth…Kami knows that she would hate him. He could live with the village hating him, he could live with his hokage hating him, hell he could live with the fact that all of the rookie nine hating him. But her, he could never live with her hating him. If she knew he killed Sasuke than she would see him as the one thing that everyone saw him as. A demon, a monster. He could never live with that. Knowing that Sakura hated him and saw him as nothing but a monster. So he did the only thing he could think of, he ran. Ran until his lungs collapse. Ran until every bone in his body practically beg for him to rest.

Not knowing where he was heading Naruto continued to walk. Ignoring the swelling pride he was starting to feel knowing that he killed his brother.

Konohagakure

Everyone was celebrating. There were so many reasons to celebrate and mourn. Emerald green eyes stared out her window to see her entire village celebrating the death of the fox. Her body moved mechanically to the window. She closed the blinds to shut out the rest of the world. As if her body was on auto pilot she walked to the door and headed outside. She kept her head down not making eye contact with anyone. Someone bumped into her, she grunted and continue to her destination.

"Hey Sakura want to go on a date with me?"

"Sakura are you alright?"

"Sakura-chan!"

She kept walking as memories that reminded her of her knuckle head kept following through her head.

"Hey Sakura how about I walk you home?"

"She's here to save Sasuke and Kakashi-sensei,"

She blink her eyes and didn't even know that she reached her destination. She looked around the tiny apartment. There wasn't much just a few posters, a table and a bed. Hard to believe this place was a mess before she cleaned it up. She walked up to the bed and began to undress herself. When she was only in her underwear and bra she grabbed his jacket that still had his scent and put it on. She the crawl into the small bed as the memory that would always plague her mind whenever she enter the room would come and haunt her.

"Hey Sasuke I want to thank you, you know for saving me from that Garra kid."

Sasuke looked at her as if she were as dense as Naruto.

"It wasn't me, it was Naruto."

"Naruto? oh come on Sasuke quit being so modest I know Naruto has gotten stronger but-"

"I'm not lying,"

"Huh?"

"Naruto did everything he could to protect you. He fought as if his life depended on it," he turned to Sakura as he said this.

"No matter what Garra did, Naruto made sure that he didn't win. He did everything to protect his life."

"His life," she whispered. The rosette turned to see the blond performing (or trying to) a Chidori. She couldn't help but see him differently. Sure he was still a goof ball. But he was her goof ball.

"Remind me to thank him," she whisper so softly she doubt he heard her.

She never did thank him. She never got the chance to tell him how grateful she was. The day Kakashi came back with both of her teammates all dead broke her heart.

Flashback

She stood by the gates along with Tsunade and the rest of the rookie nine. Waiting for Kakashi-sensei the team that was sent out to get Sasuke and her teammates.

"Please let Naruto be alright. Please let Sasuke come to his senses and come back to the village so that we can be a team again. Please Kami please bring him back to me. I don't care how badly hurt Sasuke is but please bring Naruto back to me safe and sound."

She looked up to see the boys that went to help Naruto and Kakashi-sensei carrying two bodies. One over his shoulder and the other under his arms. Sakura could feel her heartbeat accelerate. Everyone looked up to see the revival team. They all let out a breath of air knowing they were all safe.

"Naruto!" the pinkette shouted momentarily forgetting about Sasuke. She ran up to them as fast as she could. As she got closer she could see the sad expressions on each of the team.

"No," was all she could get out of before Kakashi told her what happened.

Kakashi looked at his student's somber expression and knew that if Naruto was here, all his fears would be washed away.

"Sakura I'm-"

"Please don't," was all she could get out before she closed the gap that separated her and her teammates. Kakashi placed Naruto and Sasuke on the ground and took a step back.

She kneeled down and stroke his hair. Tears fell off her face and landed on his face. He looked so peaceful one would actually think he was asleep.

Sakura pulled him closer and cried her eyes out. Cried for the death of her teammate, the death of her lover.

End of Flashback

"She continued to cried until her eyes ran out of water. As usual she fell asleep on his bed. Dreaming of her teammate and her lover.

With Naruto

He found a cave to take shelter in. Lying down on his back Naruto allow his mind to wander. He didn't know why but when he drew power from the Kyuubi he felt...stronger as if he could take on the world and still have energy to run a marathon! he didn't have to be as smart as Shikamaru to know that was the Kyuubi's influence. But he was also worry about what this meant. He would have to look into this some more in the morning. For now he needed to rest his body. Closing his eyes he decided to take a nap and then he would continue his journey in the morning.

Naruto was dead asleep not knowing that two figures were heading his way.

A/N: Okay tell me what you guys think okay? I know is short but trust me the chapters are going to be twice as long from here on out. R&R people.

~Goddess of Night out ^^