/Epilogue/ and extras

A/N: So basically, once in awhile, when inspiration strikes, I'll either add missing parts or other alternative endings to UTL and what not. A lot of people requested some different things, so I'm adding more. Albeit slowly. Some people's reviews I replied to on my tumblr: fujishuusukelover. For the rest of you, I'm just really happy with your comments.

In this chapter: first we have an epilogue-ish sex scene. Then, there's a kind of sad (for Rinharu fans) extra scene from when Haruka has one of his Makoto nightmares.

Don't own it/adult content as continued from past chapters.

Here's an epilogue for those who requested it. P.S. I really suck at writing smut, ESPECIALLY fluffy smut. Hence why I did it the way I did it...anyway, there is fluff and smut, and apologies in advance for the shittiness of it. And then, it's followed by some heartstring torture because I can't write fluff without writing something to balance it out. BUAHAHAHAHA.

"gimme the sex already"

okay okay

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Haruka bit harder, and Rin moaned leaning against the locker, "Ha-haru, ah. Go softer please."

But, Haruka didn't obey him. He was mad, he hated Rin, and he hated this undeniable connection to the redhead, Rin begged again, "Haru…"

And finally Haruka relented and pulled back. His eyes had a dark look to them, and Rin didn't mind that, to him there was something sexy about this new Haru, but still. Haruka was being a little too rough. This wasn't what sex with Haruka was supposed to be like. Rin could feel the beginning of a hickey on his neck. Rin leaned in to kiss Haru and their lips touched.

When they pulled back, the dark look in Haru's eyes had somewhat softened. Rin could tell that Haruka had changed since their relationship in high school. Looking into Rin's eyes, Haruka's darker look came back, he swore again, "I really hate you, Rin."

"It's mutual," Rin challenged. Haruka was the one who had left him for Makoto after all, for a relationship.

"I love you, Haru," Rin smiled at him.

Haruka flushed red, he really enjoyed hearing Rin say it, he wanted Rin to say it again and again, "I love you too, Rin."

And Rin's cheeks' color matched Haruka's. He hadn't expected to feel so warm from hearing words like those. When Haruka said them to him back when they were in high school, he didn't believe Haruka. He couldn't believe Haruka. Love only exists in the movies, or so he used to think. And yet, here he was with Haruka, and it was love. This is love. This is warmth, this is everything I want, Rin felt tears in his eyes appear, which caused alarm to appear on Haruka's face, "Haruka, I...I'm so happy."

And Haruka smiled, kissing the tears off of Rin, "M-me too."

Rin felt himself harden because Haruka's soft lips were touching him, his voice deepened again, "Haruka, I..."

"Shhh," Haruka shushed him, "we can take as long as we want."

Somehow though, the idea of that made Rin even harder, and Haruka noticed this as he put his hands on Rin's legs and Rin breathed deeply.

Haruka's hands slid down Rin's swimsuit, and revealed him to be very hard. Haruka's mouth dropped a bit. It had been a long time since he had laid eyes on Rin's manhood, but he remembered every curve of the Rin's body. He leaned into Rin's neck, but instead of biting again, he licked Rin's neck and kissed down Rin's chest and stomach. He wanted to taste Rin's sweet skin. Rin put his hand on Haruka's head and leaned his own head against the locker behind him. He moaned softly, "Haru…"

Rin wanted more. He enjoyed having Haruka play with him and lick him, but he wanted to feel Haruka inside of him. He wanted to feel Haruka inside of him now.

"Rin," Haruka said, into Rin's stomach as he slid down, but before he reached Rin's dick, "I really fucking hate you," and then, he slid his mouth onto Rin's dick and deepthroated the redhead.

Rin moaned, "I know - A-ah!"

"Seriously," Haruka came up for air, "I hate you so much, I wish you never existed, but I can't fucking stop."

Haruka pulled back from Rin's cheeks, and then kissed Rin's lips. Rin deepened the kiss. His mind was blank, nothing else seemed to matter, he focused on the kiss, but he could feel himself melting away. Haruka pulled back, and the look in his eyes had changed. Haruka, who had been soft and gentle all night's eyes had darkened, "Rin, I want you."

Rin nodded, "I'm yours."

And so, Haruka began peeling off Rin's clothes, "Lay down."

Rin obeyed and leaned against the couch with his ass in the air. Haruka stared at it for a minute, admiring it, "You still look in-fucking-credible."

"Same goes to you," Rin turned his neck to smirk at Haruka.

Haruka smiled and slid his pants and boxers down. The fact Haruka was wearing boxers, made Rin laugh internally, but when Haruka revealed his dick to Rin, Rin's mouth gaped.

Haruka smirked, "There's a nice expression, Rin."

Rin flushed, while Haruka leaned over and kissed the redhead's back. Rin relaxed. Haruka pulled the lube out of his pants pocket on the ground.

He bought that today before coming here? Rin thought.

Haruka knew what he was thinking and nodded, "I would have fucked you either way, Rin. No matter what you said. I needed to do you again."

Rin flushed.

"But, this way, is better, isn't it?"

Rin agreed. This way was much better. He felt so damn warm inside. He could still hear Haruka saying that he loved Rin again and again in his head and it was nice.

Rin's mouth opened wide and he closed his eyes, he could barely focus on the words Haruka was saying, because Haruka's hands were moving around his hips and his tongue was, his tongue was - "Ah! Haruka, please!"

Haruka pulled back, "Don't enjoy this, Rin, I'm serious."

But, Haruka was hard too, and he wanted it. He wanted Rin bad. He pulled his swimsuit down and revealed that he was hard. Harder than he had been in a long time. Not that that made him happy.

Rin continued to moan and beg, and finally, Haruka gave it to him.

Rin turned around and leaned against his locker. Haruka prepared him, using lube from Rin's locker, and when he was ready, Haruka slid in, "Oh, fuck, Rin."

Rin moaned, "Haruka - Haruka so, so, big….ah!"

"Rin, I-I wanted this a long time," Haruka found himself admitting. He didn't feel the guilt now. For the moment, this was an escape from that.

"M-me too, Haruka. No one else in the whole world is like you, you're ah, you're fucking incredible," Rin meant it too.

He began to prepare Rin with his hands and the lube. Rin didn't moan, but he could hardly believe it was Haruka's hand entering him. At the same time, Haruka used his other hand to rub Rin's dick. This made Rin breathe a bit heavily. He hadn't been able to feel the warmth of Haruka's hand wrapped around him in such a long time. Looking down at his dick, he recognized Haruka's hand. Even if he hadn't known who was behind him, he would have known it was Haruka just by his hand. Rin used one of his own hands to steady himself, and the other he placed on top of Haruka's hand. Haruka reacted and slid his fingers deeper inside of Rin as a result. This caused Rin to moan a bit.

Haruka pulled his fingers out of Rin, and looked down at himself. He was rock hard. This only happened with Rin. Something about Rin's body just made him go insane. How did I ever swim next to him for so many years without just going crazy?

He lubed himself up and slid in Rin, he couldn't wait any longer. Rin tensed a bit as a result and let out of a bit of a groan. This sound caused Haruka to increase the pace of his hand which was wrapped around Rin a bit. Rin, who had his hand on top of Haruka's, had to move it to use both to steady himself. Haruka felt too good inside him, he couldn't focus on anything but the feeling of Haruka moving within him. He tightened his muscles around Haruka's dick a bit, and moaned, "Haru, god. I-oh, it - god. You feel so good. I - there's no one else in the world who I love as much as I love you."

Haruka smiled thrusting a bit more, "I love you too, Rin," he wasn't used to Rin expressing this much affection, and it made the event feel even more surreal.

Haruka smiled slightly, and thrusted in and out of Rin, this was going to be it, this was going to be the release he needed, and then, the next day, he'd swim against Rin and destroy him in the pool.

Rin was loud, it had been so long since he had felt like this. No one made him feel the way Haruka did. A part of him regretted not lying to Haruka before and getting Haruka to stay with him, I forgot how fucking amazing he was, "Harder, please" he said between gasps.

Haruka obeyed, he had slowed the rhythm down, because he felt himself being near coming and he hadn't wanted to. He wanted to have this go for awhile, but he knew it would wether he came or not. He was going to fuck Rin again and again tonight until he was absolutely spent. His eyes glanced over at the shower in Rin's locker room, we could do it there next, he thought. And that thought alone, the thought that he'd experience this sort of pleasure with Rin for the whole night sent him over the edge, "Rin, Rin I'm gonna -"

"Ah, Haru please! Fill me up, please, please!"

Haru obeyed, "I'm coming Rin, I'm gonna come inside of you," and he felt it rise from within him and go into Rin, he felt Rin's ass gripping him tighter, keeping all of him inside, "Rin, oh god, you're so, ahhhhh!"

Something about the way that Haruka moved within Rin was totally different than it had been in the past. It was softer in a way, there was still their connection, it still felt incredible, but something about the way that Rin began expressing his love and Haru had started to again had made it all feel so different. And Rin loved it, "Haru -" he moaned, "This is our best - this is it. You feel so - god, Haru," then he commanded, "harder."

Haru pushed deeper into Rin, "I know, Rin, it feels so good for me too, I, nothing else has ever been like this."

Haru thought back to his times with Makoto, and that had been gentle too, but there hadn't been passion. Not like this. This was love. This was true love.

Rin's mouth was wide open and he was breathing heavily, between pants he continued to beg for more from Haruka. Finally, Haruka began to hit his prostate, "Rin," Haruka groaned.

"Haru, I...I want you to cum in me," Rin begged, "I wanna feel you cum inside me. I wanna feel your love inside m-m-me-"

Haruka's eyebrows raised and he felt his legs lock forward, hearing Rin beg for him to cum in him, managed to make Haru even hotter, Haruka succumbed, "Rin, I'm going to."

Haruka pumped Rin's dick harder, "Rin, I love you, I love you so much, Rin, I'm going to cum for you."

Rin moaned, "Yes, Haruka, please, I'm cumming too, please, Haruka, please fill me up."

"Haru," in conjunction, Rin came, "I'm coming too, ah, Haru you feel so, so fucking good, ah!"

Rin came on his locker.

And the boys panted from exhaustion. Haruka slowly removed himself from inside Rin. Rin turned back around to face, Haruka. He started to kiss Haruka, but before he did, Haruka said, "Seriously, Rin. I don't love you. I never did. You were right. I hate you."

But, Haruka did kiss Rin, and when their eyes closed, Rin felt tears appear in his eyes. This wasn't what I wanted. Not exactly. But, Rin didn't know how to express that, nor would he. It wasn't like he loved Haruka either.

I will not cry. I won't let him win. And the tears went away. Rin pulled back, "Yeah, Haru, I fucking hate you too. You made me wait forever to get a fuck like that. And now, now it's going to be my turn to do you."

Haruka, who wasn't fully recovered, felt his dick twitch a bit. He nodded, "Okay, asshole."

The two men relaxed on the couch for a minute. Haruka sat silently, and Rin was the first to speak, "Our best, right?"

Haruka nodded.

Rin leaned in and kissed Haruka, "I love you."

Haruka nodded, "I love you too."

Rin bit his lip a bit.

"Don't make the face," Haruka commanded knowing exactly what Rin was thinking.

Rin's lips curled.

Haruka laughed softly, "You'll get more of me, but give me a bit."

Rin had incredibly quick recovery time. Haruka, however, needed some more. Rin smiled, "I can wait. We've got all the time in the world."

Rin kissed his forehead and Haruka nodded.

"I love you," they said together and they curled up on the couch.

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A/N: Extra: Rin deals with Haruka's Makoto nightmares

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Rin was sitting up on Haru's bed. He rarely got up before Haruka. He looked at the dark haired man sleeping. Haruka looked so peaceful. Rin enjoyed moments like these, not that he'd ever admit it. He wished it was possible for them to last, but he knew it was impossible. That's just not how things work for me.

Haruka began to shake a bit. Rin stared at him more closely. He knew what this meant. It was not the first time Rin had seen Haruka do this. Rin's head fell back into the headboard. He hated when Haruka looked like this. This was what happened when Haruka was dreaming about Makoto. Rin closed his eyes and waited.

Finally, Haruka shook awake. He hadn't been able to breathe and now, he was gasping for air. He looked around and slowly recognized his surroundings.

Rin began, "S'okay, Haruka. You're in your apartment."

"Rin…" Haruka said slowly, it came with some sense of disappointment, that always made Rin feel horrible. It always sounded like Haruka had been hoping to see Makoto. It always sounded like Haruka was disappointed to find Rin instead.

But, Rin still smiled, "He's fine, you're fine, we're all fine."

"You can't know that," Haruka replied, his breathing slowing down, "no one can know that. No one has seen him in years, and I...it's all my fault."

"It's not your fault," Rin answered and he put his hand on Haruka's shoulder.

Haruka rolled his eyes, "You could never understand what I mean, Rin."

Rin's eyes narrowed, but he said nothing.

The conversation shifted suddenly, "When'd you get in last night anyway?"
Rin sighed, he knew Haruka was really asking who Rin had been with. He hadn't been with anyone. Not lately anyway, but this whole conversation made him want to. How could Makoto ever have been jealous of me? "Around 11, I came back here in a taxi with the coach," and because he was annoyed, Rin added, "you can confirm with him, if you don't believe me."

But, Haruka did. Rin never lied to him. Rin slept with other people, Rin was cruel, Rin was complex, but Rin wasn't a liar. Not to Haruka, at least. That was part of what hurt, Rin's truthfulness was always cutting into him, "Preparing for the practice match today?"

"Yeah," Rin replied, "I'm definitely going to beat you today."

"You say that all the time," Haruka was a bit grumpy, and his mind was still on the dream.

Rin didn't reply, instead he simply got out of bed.

Haruka started to apologize or stop Rin from getting up, but he was still a bit tired. And so, Haruka rolled back over onto his side and curled up in the covers.

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