I don't own glee

Pairing; puckleberry

Chap 2; distance

I had been sick off and on for months; you took me too many doctors, only to have them tell us that is just the flu.

We had just gotten back from a camping trip with our daughter, son-in-law and grandbaby. That's when things got worse. I was in so much pain that you rushed me to the hospital, the doctor ran a bunch of tests only to find out that I had cancer and I needed it removed as soon as the or was ready for me. Tears fell down my face. You gave me a kiss and said you would be there when I woke up. They wheeled me in to the operating room and I fell in to a deep restful sleep.

When I finally woke up after the operation, saw not only your face but Lilly, Will and baby Sophie. The week and a half that I spent recovering in the hospital flew by fast. I was ready to go home and get on with our lives after what happen to me.

You helped me out but I was so scared, you held me and told me that you love me. But now I feel you feel you pulling away from me, we now sleep alone in different beds, I sometimes lay awake crying only to fall asleep shortly after.

I wonder if it's because I have said or done something wrong. I try to push the thoughts out of my head but it's hard. The kids bring the grandbabies to see us, a smile crosses my face but you are still distant with me and I don't know why. You lean down and kiss me but only on my forehead.

The distance I fear is growing bigger and bigger. Some days I can barely hold it together. But I have to try for us, there are more tests, but there you are holding my hand through it all. I still feel sad and lonely through it all I still love you.

I need your cuddles, just to be held. I talk to family and friends they listen to me but I can't tell them how I truly feel inside.

It's now Christmas, my dad comes for a visit and we go to spend Christmas with our oldest and her new husband.

I hope that someday that we can close the gap that has fallen between us, the pain of the distance makes my heart ache. Why can't you tell me what's wrong .it hurts me to see the sadness in your eyes. Maybe you think I will be mad at you, but I won't be.

I think that I just want to give on us, but I don't, I love you. Please just talk to me.

I love you! Come back to me; hope our love is strong enough to get us through this bump in the road?

It's almost been a year since all this started, but here we are still together there's a few more tests. Then out of nowhere, the words my late grams told me when things in life seemed unfair 'this too shall pass.' I heard it clear as day but it was soft as a whisper in my ear.

I hate to admit to it but those words gave me hope. Well let's hope my last doctor's appointment goes well!

The next day I walk into the doctor's office, he gave me the best news ever. He told me that I am now cancer free. I thank him and walk out of the office, turn to walk to the car, I see you standing there waiting for me, I run into your arms and tell you what the dr. said the distance that was there is now gone. You kiss me with the passion that I was used to, on the way home you tell me that you were scared that you would have lost me to the cancer. But I tell you that I am and always will be a fighter.

For the first time in a year we fall asleep having cuddles.

A/n; based on my life in the past year.

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