I don't own anything just the plot
The life of a pretty liar
November 17, 2011
Okay its been a while…
And I have quite some stuff to say, remember how last time I said that things between me and Naruto had been going good and we were all buddy buddy and stuff. I think things are starting to get out of hand with that…
The picking and teasing is starting to get out of hand, I think... I've never had this type of friendship?
As for my life…
…yeah I'm only like two steps forward and there's like the longest road ahead of me, oh I feel like I'm not progressing. I guess I just don't…
I don't know what I want; it's supposed to be a try and fail well I have yet to do the try part. What should I do? There is a world out there and I have yet to explore it… what should I do?
Ugh! What should I do? What should I do? What Should I do? God when is the answer going to come to me! I fantasize constantly about what my life could be like, and I wish I could have an affair something that will be exciting and wonderful, but…
What if I fall in love?
Maybe it would be a wonderful experience… have I ever been in love? What does love feel like? I have looked for that answer and all I get is, 'you'll know' is that true? Will I just know, just like that. And can I pick who I love or fall in love with? Hummm. Or is it like that whole you can pick your friends but you can't pick your family type of deal.
But when? Who? And how?
I hope my adventure come soon… but how, how will I be able to find my adventure if I'm trapped and too full of fear to just jump out there, i have no one after all. And even if one day I just get the nerve, what would I do? No where would I go?
My ass is broke and I have zero responsibilities, I can't really take care of myself so um… how would I survive! And to top it off I keep getting lectured by my father, I get it thou he was probably expecting more from me. But I don't know what I want…
Duh idiot, I should smack myself on the forehead, bang my head against the wall… but I'm not going to Because that would hurt too much.
But that would be the answer, the solution to my issues… no I don't have issues, right? And even if the answer is yes, doesn't everyone. But back to my epiphany, lol I had an epiphany… I can't recall the last time I had one.
I should go find my life out in college… I hear it's a place where you discover yourself. But what could I be… do people have an idea of what they want to go to do when they are about to finish high school? I don't know what to do and I really want to just have that adventure…
Why can't I just have fun!
Am I really even close to getting that? When people say if you think about it hard enough, it will come true. What happened to that?
Lately I have been checking my horoscope…
And it tells me that my life will soon change… hey dude who writes this stuff, Nothing is happening! Aren't you supposed to direct me in said direction of change?
…
Dear Universe
Hi it's me the girl who you have not been too easy or kind to lately, what with the isolating parents and my lack of model features… yea I think you owe me! Please, please a billion times please and then multiply that by 12; may I please have some excitement something… I just really want an adventure please just a little one for a little while.
With much love
~Ino