I don't own anything just the plot
The life of a pretty liar
December 31, 2011
You know how you always want what you can't have…?
An idea popped into my head today, like when you always see something that is totally pointless well no pointless is just something that you rarely use and it is always there in your face. And the one time you want to use this thing it's like Bam!
It's gone, and you search and search like crazy and nothing… until you give up hope and you just let it go and accept that you did not appreciate the thing. But you find it latter on when you don't need it anymore and it goes back to being the neglected object.
Well guess what, I just let it go.
I get it I'm not ready to have this to live some exciting life well… what can you do right. The only difference is that I never had it, so how do you lose what you don't have?
So that's that.
Anyways work has been very good lately kind of, Naruto has been rather distant to me lately we have our moments of… what could I call it, our I hate you moments?
Basically I have no idea how to act around him, sometimes he so sweet and nice and then its as if he's bipolar. And member how I wondered if I could pick who I fall for, well it's Naruto his sweet side anyways. Without the bipolar, no I don't want that I want to take that part and rip it off him and toss it off into the beyond… and then… what?
Confession time…
Sometimes I daydream with him, he has wonderful eyes… I like his blue eyes.
But why does he have to be so mean? Its like hurtful at times, just cause I'm smaller than him doesn't mean that he has to pick on me. I can't completely blame him I go along and fight back and it's like a cycle, he'll stare me down. But those other times he is so sweet and I just want to hug and tell him… I think I would after much inner torment I would just say it probably not to his face but, humm.
Stupid question, is this a crush?
Do I have a thing for Naruto?
Yeah, you'll know when it happens, yeah right. :/
All I know is I'm confused… why does he have to be so mean? Sometimes it's like that Taylor Swift song mean, if in life there would be songs to go along with situations and people, hey guess what that would be our song… well no just the part that's like...
What parts would I use? I think it would go a little something like:
You, with your words like knifes and swords and weapon's that you use against me…
Why you gotta be so mean?
You with your switching sides…
you have pointed out my flaws again, as if I don't already see them
Tryin' to block you out, cause I'll never impress you
I just want (us) to feel okay again
All you are is mean
Why gotta be so mean?
Yup those our parts with a little bit of my not so creative handy work. ;) but it's all just in my mind another fantasy to add to the collection, yeah I decided to be a collector of my fantasies. And for your info they are not dirty…
Cause, well I still haven't been kissed here! It's okay I have decided to label myself as a late bloomer, and reading about it might not be the same as actually experiencing it. And when it happens it will happen… I'll bloom when where how and with who?
All a mystery and it is written in my future, there is someone out there for everyone… right?
Hope so and I'm trying to be patient but, ugh very frustrating… please let it be worth the wait! That's my new years resolution, hope 2012 is better than past years. Well I'll find out tomorrow!
~Ino