Chapter Ten: I Feel So Bad
Cody entered the Martin suite. He had never felt so empty, sad, ready to die. Zack's death was killing him inside. Carey and Maddie followed him.
I feel so bad I think I'll die
All I want to do is cry
I say everything will be okay
But I know it's all a lie.
"Hunny, you are going to have to get back into school if you plan on graduating with your class." Carey said setting her purse down.
"I'll go tomorrow." Cody confirmed sadly going into the room that had been his and Zack's years ago. He couldn't believe he had it to himself. He remembered a fight that he had ha with Zack over it once. He had moved into the coat closet. Cody would give anything to have that moment back, to have one more moment with Zack.
My blood runs cold
My thoughts run dry
I need you back in my life.
Cody sat down on his bed. He looked around the room. He saw what his eyes searched for. By the closet, Zack and Cody had carved their initials when they were 13. Cody walked over to them and ran his fingers over them. It hurt so bad.
Cody returned to his bed, lying back on it.
I hurt so bad
I cry so much
I miss the feel of your touch
Come back to me
I need you much.
Cody let more memories invade him. Holly. The little girl that had conned many Tipton employees. He remembered when he and Zack had busted them, even though he had gotten hurt. Those were the good days, the ones he'd always remember. The ones he'd shared with Zack.
I feel so bad I think I'll die
All I want to do is cry
I say everything will be okay
But I know it's all a lie.
There was also the time that he and Zack had skipped school at the mall. He had gotten to be in a music video! Those were the days when he had no worries other than BO and bad grades. He and Zack had alot of fun hiding from Carey all day, even though they did get caught.
I miss the way it used to be
The way it was before you left me
Now I lie awake thinking of you
I hope your thinking of me too.
Cody stood up, tears begin rolling down his face. His memories continued overtaking him. He remembered the time Zack punched him in the face. Zack had been beat up by Toby because of Cody. Months were lost after that moment. Months that Cody would never get back.
Thoughts run through my head
I think of you always
I can't believe your really dead
Pain fills my never ending days.
Recent times. He and Zack had driven to another town to find Carey and Maddie. They had talked for hours about everything. Cody never did get the chance to let Zack know that he loved Michelle. They had talked about alot of guy things. Sex, drinking, cars, Maddie. Everything.
I feel so bad I want to die
Without you I live a lie
Save me from this pain
I don't want to cry.
"Cody?" Maddie asked entering the room.
"Yeah?" Cody asked, frantically wiping his eyes.
"Are you okay?" She asked.
"No." Cody said letting his tears fall.
Maddie begin crying too.
"I feel so empty." She cried hugging Cody.
"I know. I have a million memories but they only hurt me more." Cody cried.
Maddie calmed and backed away. She wiped her eyes.
"You have a visitor." She said. "I'll send her in."
These memories hurt me so
Much, much more than you'll ever know
This is all I have left of you
They will always be old and never new.
Cody expected London or Rebecca, but was in shock to see Michelle.
"Cody I'm so sorry." She cried hugging him.
Cody felt a sensation like no other. He realized that he was getting an erection. Quickly he sat down and threw a pillow over his lap, like Zack had done months earlier, with the same girl.
"Thank you." Cody said wiping his eyes more.
"Is there anything I can do? To help you through this?" Michelle asked.
"Will you go out with me?" Cody asked, his face emotionless.
"Cody...I don't feel that way about you. I love you, but not that way. I'm sorry."
Cody didn't speak. His heart was broken, he was broken.
Michelle slowly made her way out of the room.
Another memory returned in Cody. He and Zack had stayed in a haunted hotel suite once. That had been so fun because Cody had finally gotten to scare Zack. That day was priceless.
These were the memories that kept Cody going even as they killed him. These were the memories he had left. And these were the memories that he'd never have back.
I feel so bad I think I'll die
All I want to do is cry
I say everything will be okay
But I know it's all a lie.
A/N- Was this chapter boring for you guys? I really liked it personally. Okay, I have decided to make ONE more sequel to this! I was ready to end this series for good, but guess what happened. I thought of an all new great idea for Cody! The next story will follow Cody as he deals with Zack's death, and no, it won't be a happy one. I hope you guys will read it. I know your probably pulling your hair out thinking "I thought this was it! I'm so sick of this crap!" But I am going for the 6th and final one. I know this chapter was super long, Sorry! I made it long because its the FINAL chapter in this story! The sequel will probably be up today sometime. PLEASE follow me to the next tell. It will be so good! Better than the last five of these! I mean I have new characters to work with in the sixth one! Rebecca, Tommy, Michelle... I hope you guys will read it. One more thing. The song is "I feel so bad" it's by yours truly. Yes, me. I wrote it myself, that's why it sucks so bad. Lol. Did you like it though? Really? And are you okay with me doing a sequel? I hope so. I love you guys! Thanks for reviewing. See you in story 6! Thanks!