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Chapter 3: knowing each other

Author's Notes: Ok guys, i want you to tell me does flashbacks support the story or its only boring. plz feed me back!

"No, No, please...I'm sorry, I'm sorry" Faith was shouting and crying in her sleep. Joyce, Xander and Willow ran to her room trying to calm her down. She's been a sleep for the whole day, they were very worried about her, and they never imagined that Faith's death will affect her that much, but this is Buffy who blamed her self on everything.

"Shh, baby, calm down sweetie, I'm right here beside you" Joyce said with calm voice rocking her daughter between her arms.

"We are all here for you Buffstar, just calm down" Xander told her with a small smile

"Buffy, you shouldn't blame your self for everything, it's not your fault...its.." Faith cut Willow immediately "It's my fault, you don't understand, it shoulda be me, it shoulda be me" She started to sop again.

"No Buffy, it shouldn't be you or her, what happened to Faith isn't fair, she shouldn't be killed, She was a kid who made mistake and our duty as adults was to help her through, she killed people, but she saved more. She should be punished for this crimes but she didn't deserve to die" She could see tears on there eyes, even Xander and Willow and this made her feel how scum she was, how selfish and stupid she was "I know you loved Faith, I loved her too even when she hurt me, I didn't stop from seeing the little girl she was, the hurt and confusion that showed in her face" with those words Joyce hugged her again and the guilt was now eating her alive.

"You did what you have to do, Buffy, you didn't know that they will kill her" Willow said caressing he cheeks and smiling "You wanted all of us to be safe"

"I will always keep you safe, willow, all of you" Faith put her hand on Willow's hand and looked at there eyes, they cared, she now know that they cared about her one time and that if she gave them the chance, they would be friends and maybe she would be Xander's girlfriend, but this is all in the past now, all she could do now is to be Buffy not only by her body but also with her soul, no more get some and get gone, no more partying and slaying for fun. The smallest thing she can do for her is to take her responsibility and safe all the people she cared about.

Flash back

From the night of Allan Finch murder. Buffy is standing in front of Faith in the motel bathroom.

"So, I, uh...How are ya doin'?" Buffy asked her looking at the shirt in her hands. "I'm alright. You know me" Faith answers still scrubbing"Faith, we need to talk about what we're gonna do""There's nothing to talk about. I was doing my job""Being a Slayer is not the same as being a killer" Faith has nothing to say. She's finished scrubbing."Faith, please don't shut me out here. Look, sooner or later, we're both gonna have to deal""Wrong" Faith said while hanging the shirt to dry out."We can help each other" Buffy said with bleeding and disparate voice."I don't need it" Faith said with determent."Yeah? Who's wrong now? Faith, you can shut off all the emotions that you want. But eventually, they're gonna find a body""Okay, this is the last time we're gonna have this conversation, and we're not even having it now, you understand me? There is no body. I took it, weighted it, and dumped it. The body doesn't exist" she turned away to leave her."Getting rid of the evidence doesn't make the problem go away" Buffy said with chock in her voice "It does for me" She said facing Buffy"Faith, you don't get it. You KILLED a man" Buffy was very concerned "No, YOU don't get it" she smiles daringly "I don't care!" She turns away again to tend to her things. Buffy is speechless with disbelief.

End of Flashback

Buffy was leaning against a very dirty wall, she felt helpless and she didn't know what to do, yes she was the slayer but now she's a murder who's chased by both the police and the council and she is far away from her home. By the time she can get out of this town it would be too late for her, Faith will be convincing every one that she's Buffy, she was always a very good actress.

A man passing in front of her through her a sandwich, she crawled and grab it with both hands before any of the other take it and start to eat it like no tomorrow.

Flashback

From Faith dinner in the Summers house. Joyce is serving dinner to her and she's eating from everything. "So you're a Slayer, too. Isn't that interesting!" She said with a smile "Do you like it?" "God, I love it!" Faith answered her mouth full of food"Uh, Mom?" Buffy was trying to take the bowl in front of her mother "Why do you love it" Joyce said while scooping some broccoli onto Faith's plate "Well, when I'm fighting, it's like the whole world goes away and I only know one thing: that I'm gonna win and they're gonna lose. I like that feelin'" she stop talking and start digging into her food with no mercy."Oh, Faith, can I get you another soft drink?" Joyce said noticing Faith empty glass"Oh, you bet" she hand her the glass"She's really cool, huh?" Faith said still eating"Best mom ever" she looks back into the kitchen "Excuse me" She gets up and goes, Faith grabs a bottle of hot sauce, gives it a sniff and grimaces.In the kitchen Joyce gets out a bottle of cola, brings it to the island and opens it."I like this girl, Buffy" she said pouring the soda in the glass"She's very personable. She gets along with my friends, my Watcher, my mom" she leans back and looks into the dining room to see Faith eating from everything "Look, now she's getting along with my fries""Now, Buffy..." She said closing the soda bottle"Plus, at school today, she was making eyes at my not-boyfriend, this is creepy""Does anybody else think Faith is creepy?""No, but I'm the one getting single-white-femaled here" she said pouting"Look, I-I know you didn't choose this, I know it chose you" pausing "I have tried to march in the 'Slayer Pride' parade, but..." suddenly very solemn "I don't want you to die""I'm not gonna die. I know how to do my job. Besides, like you said, I've got help now"She looks into the living room to see Faith picking at everything in sight and stuffing it into her mouth like no tomorrow."I've got all the help I can stand" she said raising her eyebrows for the sight of the brunette slayer eating and stuffing everything like it was her last meal ever.End of Flashback