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Chapter Two

Ebony Eyes

BPOV

His eyes shined in the faint silver light that sliced through the cold air, and made his skin look like it was glowing. His straight shot of jaw, his smooth face, and perfect pink lips...my eyes just couldn't drink him in fast enough. His perfectly smooth abs, his almost illegally tight jeans, everything about him called to me, and I hated it; I hated it with a passion.

I hated being pulled and pushed around. This feeling of sick happiness and love radiating out of me, I felt this guilt...the guilt of knowing that my mother never got love, and yet, here I was, getting everything I ever wanted, while she could be dead, hard and cold, or feeling emptiness flowing inside her slow beating heart. My eyes felt cold and wet, and I turned to look at the ground.

Or should I say, I tried to look at th ground; My eyes were stuck on him, and I couldn't stop smiling. It almost made my cheeks hurt

There was a silence; a very awkward silence. Sam finally cleared his throat, and mentioned something about going inside...I wasn't sure because my ears were buzzing, and I couldn't have payed attention if I wanted to.

I was vaguely aware of Emily yanking my arm to force me to go into the house, and most of it was a blur. I felt very light headed and sick, but not exactly in a bad way. I felt full of love and adoration, and it annoyed me, a lot, but it was...saddening too. There was emptiness; the emptiness of having this man all the way over where he was, sitting on the love seat in Emily and Sam's living room.

"So Bella, I just thought that we could all introduce ourselves..." Emily smiled. I nodded with numbness, and attempted to smile; the smile turned out to be lopsided and pathetic, but I tried.

"Well, I'm Embry!" One short burly man yelled. I smiled and nodded, responding with a quiet 'hey'. I looked toward the next one, who had longer hair than the rest, and looked a bit taller than Embry. He had a small bronze haired teen on his lap, and his arms were wrapped around her. She reminded me a lot of Edward for some reason. She was also the only one besides me with that Alabaster face in the room.

"I'm Jacob, and this is-" he cut off as the pretty bronze haired girl hopped out of his lap. She strode toward me, and pulled me into a big hug. "The name is Vanessa, but they call me Nessie, since they claim that I am devious like the loch-ness monster, and I can be a bit too violent..." She giggled into my ear as I tried to comprehend her jumble of words. she was Alice junior, oh screw it, she was WORSE...

"Nice to meet you Vanessa-" she cut me off immediately with her non stop babble and bright happy voice.

"Oh, call me Nessie! Everyone does!" she squealed happily as she jumped off me and back onto Jacob's lap. He smiled, rolled his eyes, and kissed her forehead lovingly. My gaze flew to the next-a pretty dark skinned girl with thick black eyeliner and pretty green eyes leaning against the wall with another boy. She smiled warmly at me, and perched herself against th boy. I felt a tiny sharp pain in my chest and frowned slightly.

"Hi Bella! My name is Kim-I already know you, and you should remember me!" I squealed with excitement and threw myself toward her. Kimmy Conweller-Brady's older sister, had been hanging out with Brady and I since we were nine. Of course, when Brady left, so did she. Kim hugged me back tightly.

"Kimmy! I haven't seen you in so long! Holy fuck! You are so gorgeous!" I laughed loudly. She giggled and blushed as who I assumed was her boyfriend smiled and kissed her hair.

So many things were happening now, and I loved it all; i loved having friends, and having them know what I have been through. Everyone looked at us like we were crazy.

"We'll explain later." Kimmy waved off as they all nodded very slowly. I couldn't help notice that the ebony eyed boy just stared at me. It made me feel all warm an fuzzy inside, which I hated terribly.

"This is my boyfriend Jared!" Kimmy smiled. I nodded and greeted the russet skinned boy with a nervous hello.

After letting go, I sat back down beside Emily, and I glanced toward the ebony eyed boy. his pure white smile lit up the room as I did so, and I heard some snickers, which made him glare at Embry, Nessie, and Brady angrily. They both shrunk back in their seat-well, Nessie shrunk back into Jacob.

"My name is Collin, Collin Locks." Oh God...his voice...so rugged and husky, low and beautiful- well if a voice can be beautiful that is. I again felt that ping of guilt light up in my stomach as I realized this love. I beamed him a smile though, an uneven one of course, due to my sickening gash.

"Bella. Bella Uley. Nice to meet you." His eyes went wide at the sound of my high soprano voice, and I felt my heart thundering in my chest. I could hardly breathe.

He was beautiful, polite, and cute, but yet, I felt wrong wanting to be with him; well, t did feel right, but knowing that my mother couldn't have any love made me have second thoughts. I guess I just didn't want to end up like her, wherever she was. I didn't want Collin-such a beautiful name...-to be like how Joshua was to Mom. I also didn't know if I should call her that, since I really didn't know her...

There was another problem. He looked much to old for me. I was probably just imagining this; him liking me. Who would like me anyway? The things I have seen and done are so revolting, i wouldn't be surprised if someone ran screaming from me when they found out about Joshua and my problems.

Again, someone, whom I think was Sam, cleared their throat and knocked both me and Colling out of our trance. I blushed brightly-probably settling at the color at around the Fire Engine Red shade. Collin looked even happier as I did so.

The rest introduced themselves. Quil, his friend Claire, Paul, and Seth. It came down to the last person; a russet skinned girl, leaning up against the wall with tortured eyes and a tough face. She was silent, and someone chuckled.

"that's Leah, the pack bitch." Quil snapped. Everyone burst out laughing except Sam, Emily, and Me. One, I didn't understand why they would have said 'pack', and Two, I would not stand them calling someone a bitch.

People used to call me that. Back at my old house. I already had anger management problems; I didn't need someone to point it out to me. Yet, they did it anyway, to my compete displeasure.

I recalled every time that had happened to me. It came down to every single one, until stopping on that shit-eating smirk, and that ugly twisted face; Joshua.

'You little BITCH!" and the pain arrived, smacking into my head, my chest, my arms, my body...

Some kind of rage ripped through me, and I stood and marched over to Quil.

"FUCK YOU!" i screamed. "DON'T YOU DARE CALL HER THAT!" -and he just smirked. My rage was bubbling up inside of me, and I felt myself beginning to shiver and shake with anger. I felt uncontrolled, just like Joshua, shaking, trembling, screaming...it felt too wrong.

As if that stopped my fire. I pulled my fist back and let it slam forward, only to be stopped by his hand, and twisted around hard, I screamed bloody murder, and then, all hell broke loose. Paul swooped me up in his arms, and sprinted out of the house as I heard a loud angered growl shake my soul. The growl of a wolf; the growl of my wolf; I was sure.

"Bella, you need to stay out here okay? Nessie an Kim will take you to first beach, and maybe we'll have a bonfire tonight, I dunno..." and with that, he ran off, and Nessie and Kimmy hurried out, looking worried.

"Here. let's go to first beach and get to know each other a little better...the guys are..." Kimmy struggled for words. "...fighting a bit." After she said that, Emily and Claire ran out.

"Well, it's just a girls night ain't it?" I chuckled, trying to break the awkwardness. The girls let out a few short laughs, and Emily led us to Sam's truck.

We all hopped in. and when Emily twisted the key, Kesha came on. Weirdly, at such a tense, scary time, we all started blurting out the lyrics while Kimmy and I freaked out by arm flailing and screaming out lyrics. I hadn't felt this happy in...well, ever.

"Don't stop, make it rock,

DJ blow my speakers up,

Tonight, imma fight,

Til we see the city lights,

Don't stop."

We had already arrived at first beach by the end of the song. All of us jumped out and walked along the beach slowly, talking about random favorites, stories, and about me; that kind of got me annoyed, but they seemed nice enough, so I let them ask, and I answered.

"So...favorite animal?" Claire asked me. I thought about it while looking at the twelve year old. Okay, no I didn't think bout it, I basically blurted out a wolf. They all laughed as if they had some big inside joke about it. I just raised an eye brow and chuckled to myself quietly.

I found out that Nessie was adopted, and she also doesn't know who her real parents are. I felt pretty bad for her. We had that part of our life in common; I had no clue ho my mom was. I also found out Emily is Leah's cousin, and Claire is Emily's niece. apparently Emily's sister is around 12 years older than her, so Emily and Claire ended up being closer in age than Emily and her own sister; something I thought was a bit weird. (It's the same story as me and my sister. We are twelve years apart. but me and her daughter are only 6)

You can tell that they are all head over heels in love. Anytime they talk about their boyfriends, they smile and look all lovey-dovey. Then again, when i think about Collin...A smile appears on my face too, and embarrassing as it is, it is completely true.

I am hopelessly Scarred, and in love, and for some strange reason...

I hate it.

So there I didn't get too long of a chapter. I think it has 2,000 words, but I have been writing a long time, and it's ten, which means my mom is crabby and wants me to 'get the hell off your laptop and sleep' i think it's because the last day of school is on Thursday! (today is Tuesday.) I will be able to get a lot more chapters in, and my new updating time will probably be every Tuesday, or maybe every Friday. Not fully sure yet, but I'll get it straight.

Also, I would very much appreciate suggestions of what i should draw from this story. like Bella with scars? Collin? whatever you guys want. I have a deviant art profile, and I will post it on there.

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