Chapter 13: Welcome to Sunnydale

It's been two days since they arrived to Sunnydale; things went well with Buffy's friends, Giles and Joyce. Faith was very surprised from there behavior, they were all happy and relived that she wasn't died, of course they were scared that she goes psycho on them but the tears they were trying to hide behind the angry mask on there faces made her feel smaller than she ever felt.

She could sense Buffy's eagerness to hug her friends, she was scared that she will not control herself if she meet her mother and Buffy approved that it will be better if not. She knew that once she looks in her mother's eyes she will lose it so she decided to wait tell they reverse the spell.

Ironically Buffy was staying with Danny on the same motel room Faith used to stay in back then. She was trying to figure how to get her body back without any one noticing anything. She was going to meet them back on the magic box after two hours so she decide to go through some books while she's there. She was bored of staying on this room, of course Danny was doing his best to keep her busy but still it wasn't enough.

On the other hand Faith was doing extra effort to find the spell, she was afraid if they didn't find it fast enough Buffy will have to tell Willow or Tara and she didn't want this to be added to her file. She was deep in her thought when Willow approached her slowly and put her arms around her shoulders.

"You need to sleep Buffy; I know Faith's return was hard on you…will it was hard on all of us…I mean who would believe that she's a life" Willow trailed a little and Faith knew that she wants to say more than that.

"What's on your mind Will?"

"Do you believe her...I mean I think she changed and Tara feels that she's not evil" Faith had to smile at that "But I'm scared Buffy…I'm terrified of living this tragedy again, I will not be able to live and see my friends hurting again…what she did to all of us was hard…I don't know if I can trust her again"

Faith felt like her heart was bleeding, she felt every word like a dagger penetrating her heart "You don't have to trust her Will, I believe that she changed but she has to pay for what she did, eventually we must all sit and discus what we will do with her and if you all decided that she should go to jail then she will go"

"Do you think she will accept that…you seem so sure of that?"

"She will accept anything we decided, don't worry Will…she will never hurt you again" Faith smiled and Willow return the smile back "I know Buffy, I'm not worried about Faith hurting me, I'm not stupid I know that Faith is a slayer if she wanted all of us died she would do it long ago, killing me, Xander or Giles wouldn't be a problem for her…I'm sure that things got out of control for her"

Willow stop talking when tears start falling from Faith's eyes, she knew that Faith was a difficult topic for her, but she didn't know what her speech was doing inside Faith.

"Buffy I didn't mean to give her excuse for what she did or make you feel guilty…I'm"

"I know Will" Willow raised her eyebrow "Then why are you crying?"

Faith took a deep breath trying to stop crying "I'm crying cuz every day I discover how lucky I am to have a friend like you…a friend with heart like yours" Willow smiled and hugged her best friend "I'll always be there for you Buff"

"Thanks Will" Faith smiled and then pushed her playfully "Now go and leave me to search"

"Actually Buffy there is something I want to discus with you" Faith looked at her seriously "Sure Will What's the what?"

"I was thinking maybe I could do something for Faith's police record…this is if you are sure it's a wise idea and that she changed" Faith was mesmerized she didn't thought that Willow could do something like that for her "No Willow not now, lets think about it first but if you could find a spell to hide her from them until we decide" "Sure I could do that, it would be easy"

Willow said and gets up to leave but Faith grabbed her arm "You don't have to feel guilty for her Will" Willow took a deep breath "But I do feel guilty Buffy, I kept thinking maybe there was something we could do to help her not to go this way…maybe…" Faith cut her before she could say anything more "No Will, Faith's problems wasn't with us, she had her own demons and sooner or later they were gonna catch her"

"I know that Faith had a rough childhood but maybe if we helped her more…maybe if she could feel that she can trust us…"

"Maybe Will if she had a friend like you she would never slip to the dark but still it's not our fault"

"Some time I remember the look on her eyes when I told her that she had no one" Faith looked at the floor remembering this day "She told me that she got the mayor, she was disparate for some one to accept her, to be part of something…I really feel guilty Buff"

"I'll tell you something, when we made sure that she really change we could all make things right with her and make her feel welcome with us" they smiled at each other and continue what they were doing.

Later in the same night Buffy went to the magic box, they all were nice with her but she was feeling how scared they were. She found Faith between a huge pile of books, it was the first time she saw her that serious and beautiful. Since the day Faith confesses her love to her, Buffy couldn't think of anything rather than how this happened.

She was always jealous of how all the head turns when Faith pass any where, the girl who could get any man she wants chooses her, but why she didn't say anything? Why didn't she use the want-take-have with her? Was she really in love with her?

"Buffy, r u ok?" she didn't notice when Faith moved closed to her "Sorry Faith I didn't see you coming"

"No worries B, I found the spell and its ingredients" Faith said without enthusiasm but Buffy sighed with relief "Thank god, you think we could do it without help" Faith didn't say anything and Buffy was now worried "Faith you're not going to run again, are you?" Faith was surprised "No B I wasn't thinking of that…I was thinking maybe we should tell the others"

"Tell the others what? Oh! What make you change your mind?" she was very curious

"I feel guilty Buffy and I can't do this any more" Faith couldn't say any thing more she start sopping and collapsed on the ground. Buffy kneeled in front checking her pulse but suddenly she heard Willow screaming her name and when she looked up she found them all staring at her with anger and she didn't know why until the fact that she's still in Faith's body hit her. She hoped that Faith wake up quickly or this will gonna be hell for her.