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Fin got up from Olivia's bedside and sprinted over to the bathroom where Amanda was looking in, her eyes wide with terror as she looked at a bloody Cassidy lying on the bathroom floor.

Fin ran in and kneeled down next to Brian and put his fingers against his neck. "Is he alive?" asked Amanda, her voice cracking with tears at the terror around her.

Fin held on for several more moments before he nodded and stood up. "Barely. Radio dispatch again, tell them we got another office down at the same address, severe head trauma, barely breathing and low pulse. Make sure he stays breathing and his heart keeps pumping."

Fin went back to Olivia and continued to do whatever he could to make sure she stayed with them. He shoved a clean towel in between her legs, throwing away the blood drenched one from earlier.

He felt her pulse again and his eyes widened with fright when he no longer felt one.

"I lost her!" Fin barked at Amanda who quickly radioed back to the Dispatcher they not only had a second Cop down but that the first no longer had a pulse or a breath.

Amanda stood in the doorway to the bathroom, fear and panic threatening to overwhelm the blonde detective as Fin tilted his head back, held her nose, and breathed into the unconscious Olivia. He gave her several chest compressions before he preformed another rescue breath, checking her vitals once again after he was done.

"Come on, Liv, stay with me!" Fin ordered as he once again saw no rise and fall of her chest and felt no beating of her heart, the sirens that had been a mere echo now getting louder as they drew closer. "Stay with me, Girl, come on!"

Amanda watched as Fin bent back over Olivia and repeated the procedure, praying to God that the woman laying on the bed would survive whatever that monster had put her through.

Moments later they both heard footsteps storming up the stairs and then someone all but crashed through Olivia's front door.

"In here!" Fin cried out as he gave her more chest compressions. The first set of paramedics ran into her bedroom, stretcher in hand where they look one look at Olivia and rolled it over to the woman bound on the bed. They tapped Fin on the shoulders who immediately got out of the way. They attached a breathing mask to her face while one continued the compressions Fin had been given to her heat

"I'll ride with Olivia," Fin told Amanda as the Paramedics lifted her from the bed and placed her on the stretcher as they heard another set of footsteps pounding up the staircase that was meant for Brian. "Call Amaro and Cragen, tell them to get CSU and get their asses over here now! I'll call you when I figure out what hospital we're going to."

Amanda nodded as Fin and the Paramedics sprinted out the door with Olivia in tow without a single look back.

Amanda waited impatiently as another set of Paramedics rolled in no more then half a minute after Olivia had been taken out of the apartment and they hooked a still seemingly lifeless Brian up to a stretcher and rolled him out with equal haste.

Once she was alone Amanda felt tears in her eyes that she tried to hold back but the more she looked around the trashed apartment the harder they fell.

After she had consoled herself as long as she dared, Amanda took a deep breath as she got out her phone again and dialed a familiar number, praying she maintained whatever minute amount of strength she had left.

"Captain Cragen, Manhattan SVU."

At the sound of her superiors voice, that strength vanished and she let out a sob.

"Rollins? Rollins, whats wrong, are you okay?" demanded Cragen suddenly on high alert. "Where are you?"

"Liv's apar- apartment! She was attacked by Lewis! We- we don't know if she's gonna make it!""

There was a short pause before Cragen spoke, his tone frightening her almost as much as the situation she was in. "We'll be right there."

There was a click that told Amanda he had hung up, Amanda put the phone back in her pocket and took several breaths that did nothing to console her. Finally, making sure she was away from the blood and the marks on the carpet, she got on her knees, folded her hands, and prayed.

Amanda had always been a religious woman. Not a fanatic by any means but she did believe in God and Christ and the miracles the Good Book said they preformed. She went to Church every Sunday since before she could remember and always prayed to God.

Rather it be to help her sister out, to help her with her gambling addiction or to win her bets before she had gotten help, to help the victims, to make those who raped innocent women be forced to live through the pain they put others through, she had turned to Him to help.

But never once, in all of her years of prayer, did she every pray as hard as she did now on the carpet in the room where her friend had been violated for hours on end, begging and pleading God to let Olivia survive this...

6 Days Earlier

"He was there when I walked in," Alice Parker told Olivia once she had settled into the hospital, the rape kit that he older woman had taken in surprising stride ready for CSU to come collect. "It was about eight a clock. I heard a noise so I went into my Bedroom and he was there with a gun."

Olivia quickly wrote down what Alice told her. "He pushed me into my room and he made me undress. I... I tried to cover myself but he just laughed at me and pushed me on the bed."

"There was cables on the headboard. Were those there when he pushed you on the bed already or did he put them there after?" asked Olivia as gently as she could.

"They were already there. I wanted to fight but he had the gun and I was afraid." Alice sniffed and wiped her tears. "Maybe if I had actually challenged him I wouldn't be in this mess right now."

"You did exactly what you were supposed to," Olivia told her as he looked up from her notes. "You survived."

Alice took a shuddering breath before she nodded. "He uh, he tied me up but left one of my hands free. He took off his clothes before he grabbed my free hand and he put it on... on his... private parts and I started to... to cry. It's not the first time I've touched a man, I have three children," Alice clarified as if Olivia had rolled her eyes over the fact she had shed tears over what Lewis made her do. "But I haven't been with a man since my husband died three years ago and it was just a bit overwhelming."

"That's perfectly normal, Mrs. Parker. Plus you owe no explanations on anything that happened," Olivia told her gently. "Lewis is the only one who needs to answer for any of it."

Alice took a deep breath before she continued. "He... he laughed at me again and told me that if I was already crying over this then I wasn't gonna last throughout the night. He made my hand stroke him until he was... ready to do what he had plans to do. After that he climbed on top of me and... and he um... uh Lewis, he..."

Olivia swallowed hard as the older victim struggled to tell Olivia what had been done to her. She didn't want to imagine what it would be like for Alice if this went to trial...

"What did he do?" Olivia prompted as gently as she could.

Alice sniffed and once again wiped away her tears. "He ra- raped me. His hands were grab- grabbing my chest and he was biting my neck, an- and he was saying the most vile things I'd ever heard!"

"What was he saying, Mrs. Parker?"

She shook her head as more tears fell to replace the ones she had cleared away. "I won't repeat it."

Olivia took out a page in her notebook along with an extra pen. "do you think you could write it down? Like you did when he flashed those two girls?"

Alice looked between the paper and Olivia and she sniffed. "Do you really need to know what he said? How is that important?"

"Every little detail helps, Mrs. Parker. If he attacked another woman and said the same things to her, we can get him for her attack as well simply by matching it up in the computer," Olivia told her."

Alice sighed before she shook her head, pushing the piece of paper away. "If I wrote down every horrible thing he said to me, you'd be out of paper." She took a deep breath before she glanced down at the blanket that was covering her,

"He. He told me that even though I have an old... an old pu- pussy, it was still good enough to.. to fu-... to fuck," she finished in a whisper as more tears began to make their way down her face. "There was more but I can't say them or want to think about them. It was disgusting and no one should ever need to hear it," she told Olivia sternly. "You'll have enough evidence to match up, I promise."

She took a deep breath before she continued. "After he was finished he... sat on my face and held a gun to my head and told me to open up and that I was getting my first meal of the night. He... tasted absolutely repellent. After he was... done, I threw up. And then he laughed at me again. Like he was happy I was being embarrassed," she finished with a trembling voice.

Olivia jotted down the notes once more. "Then what happened?"

Alice continued to tell Olivia what Lewis had done to her. He had raped her twice more before he got out the cigarettes...

"He burnt me," said Alice with a trembling voice. "All over my private areas."

Olivia closed her eyes and licked her lips, struggling to keep the revulsion from her tone and to let her see the shudder. She couldn't imagine going through something like that. She would take any other torture over fire...

"After he got through two cigarettes there was a knock at my door. He untied me, made me put on my robe and told me if I said anything that made the guy suspicious he'd kill me and make the other person take my place. It was Captain Cragen. He was so sweet," said Alice with a short lived smile. "You don't see that kind of attitude with men anymore. I knew he would help me if I said anything but I didn't wanna think about him going through what that beast was making me go through so I sent him away." After a pause she added. "He knows not to blame himself right?"

Olivia knew her Captain well enough to know that he would indeed be blaming himself for everything this woman had gone through. But instead of telling the victim the absolute truth, Olivia simply nodded. "Of course. He knows the only person to blame is Lewis Williams. Can you tell me what happened after Captain Cragen left?"

Alice nodded before she continued, telling Olivia how he forced her back into the bedroom. "He asked if I had feelings for the Captain. I was to afraid to tell him the truth so I told him no and he told me he knew I was lying and I needed to be punished. He... he took me out to the kitchen. He wouldn't let me cover up and he laughed every time I tried. He sat me down on the chair, and turned on the stove. He.. he put my keys on a frying pan and left them there for a while. He picked them up and..."

Steady streams of tears flooded down her face as she took a gasping breath. "He branded me with the keys. Th- then he took a- a wire hanger and branded me with it. I begged him to stop but he just laughed at me again, he always just laughed at me!"

A sob ripped past the older woman's throat and her heart machine started beeping rapidly. Her eyes fluttered open and shut for a moment before they closed. Olivia stood up from the chair as a doctor and nurse hurried in. "Ma'am, you need to step out for a moment," the nurse told Olivia hastily as the machines continued to erupt in sirens. Olivia hurried out of the room and shut the door behind her, just as the drapes were drawn on the room.

The detective sighed as she leaned against the wall. How could one man be that sadistic? To torture and rape a woman as sweet and kind as Alice Parker for the hell of it? It was unthinkable.

In all of her years working SVU, Olivia had never dealt with someone as psychotic as William Lewis and she prayed she would never have to again.

Olivia was still lost in her thoughts when she heard someone call her name. She turned and saw Cragen with a bouquet of white lilies in one hand a book titled 'Best of New York City Photography' in the other walking up to her, worry and fear etched in his face. "Is she okay?"

"She started telling me what Lewis did to her, she got to the branding, and her heart started going wild and passed out. Doctors are working on her how," Olivia informed him.

"Yeah, Amaro found heart medication on her drawer. With everything Lewis put her though, I'm amazed it hasn't happened before this." Cragen looked in the window at the older woman who had been through literal hell and back. Olivia looked over his face and saw the same look in his eyes she had when she was waiting to see if Brian would survive the shootings.

Cragen took a deep breath before he turned towards her. "Go to the precinct, start looking up other cases connected to what she's told you so far. Amaro still at her apartment and Fin and Rollins are heading over to the half way house to arrest Lewis. I'll stay here and take the rest of her statement if she wakes up."

Though all of the horror that the woman in the next room told to her, Olivia managed a little smile. "She likes you just as much as you like her, Captain. She told me as much."

Cragen looked over at Olivia who raised her brow as if to dare him to tell her she was wrong. "She's strong, Captain, she'll survive this."

Cragen sighed as he turned back towards the window and glanced back at the window. "I hope you're right."

Olivia gave him a reassuring smile before she headed back down the hallway.

Two hours later she was in front of her computer screen, trying desperately to find anything that could help her find other victims. Cragen called her and updated her with more details of the attack. When asked if he was going to come back, Cragen muttered something about spending the night encase Alice remembered anything else. Olivia had no luck in hiding back the smile in her tone as she bid her Captain goodnight.

Another hour passed and Olivia still had no luck on finding any information on Lewis. Amaro had come and gone, Olivia would have liked it if he stayed and helped but he had two small children at home and a sitter who got paid by the hour, while Fin and Rollins were staked out on Cragen's orders.

Olivia ignored the grumbling in her stomach as she waited for the recent search results to pop up.

She was the only one left in the building and the bullpen was dimmed to the point Olivia's desk side lamp was the brightest light shining.

Olivia heard the elevator ding and she glanced over at the hallway curiously. What cops the 1-6 did have on night call hardly ever came up to their floor unless they were out of coffee ingredients. When no one came around the corner for several moments she stood up, grabbing the butt of her weapon. "Hello?" she called out as she slowly made her way over, her mind racing with the words of Alice Parker and what had happened to her.

"Liv?"

She breathed a sigh of relief at the familiar voice and immediately pulled her hand away from her weapon. "Jesus, Brian, you scared me," Olivia said as Brian rounded the corner, a pizza box and a 2 liter of Diet Cherry Pepsi in hand. "What are you doing here?"

"You never showed up for dinner and you weren't answering your calls," he told her.

Olivia's face fell. She ran a hand over her face and groaned at her own forgetfulness. "Bri, I'm SO sorry! I completely forgot we had dinner tonight! This case I'm dealing with, it's-!"

"Liv, I get it," he told her with a smile. "Remember I did work with you before. Plus I figured you were busy with a case so I brought you nourishment."

Brian set the pizza and soda on her desk before he looked at her, wrapping his arms around her waist and pulling her in tight against him.

"I am sorry I forgot," she told him again sincerely. "This case I'm dealing with is... this guys a sociopath. He raped and tortured a 60 year old woman for eighteen hours straight. He humiliated her, Bri, and got off on doing it."

"Jesus," Brian breathed. "Is she okay?"

Olivia shrugged. "Physically I think she will be, emotionally... I don't know. And I'm sorry for telling you all this, I know you aren't a fan of my work."

"Babe, if you need to talk about this then pleas feel free to say 'fuck you' and talk. I can handle hearing about your cases," Brian assured her as he began leading her not to her desk but to the cribs.

"I know what you're thinking," said Olivia as he shut the door behind him. "And the answer is no. Everyone from Rollins to Munch sleeps in these beds."

"You have a dirty mind, Olivia Benson," he told her with a smile as he sat down on one of the bottom bunks. "9.999 times out of ten your intentions are usually spot on but this time is different, I promise. I just wanna give you a massage to relax you, that's it."

Olivia chuckled as she sat down beside him who immediately got up. "Okay now lay face down." She raised her brow but he promised her no sex so she did as she was told. Without another word Brian straddled her back and began to work and massage the tense muscles in her back and shoulders, making the woman below him groan in satisfaction. "Holy shit, Bri. Where did you learn how to do this?"

Brian shrugged as he continued to work her muscles. "You'd be surprised how tense pimps can get. I got a lot of practice when I was undercover."

Olivia simply nodded as she let out another moan as he kneaded her wound up muscles. After he felt her completely loosen up, Brian leaned down and began to kiss her neck, instantly finding that one spot behind her ear that turned her to mush.

"I thought you said you weren't thinking about sex?" she asked, but made no other move to discourage him after he had relaxed her enough to the point she felt like a new woman.

"You've never heard of a happy ending massage?" he muttered against her skin.

"Is this also something you practiced on the pimps you were undercover with?"

Brian retaliated with a gentle nip at her ear, sending a shudder down her spine. "You know there's other muscles that I know how to relax."

"Oh really?" Olivia purred.

Brian's hand slid down her body until he reached the front of her jeans. "Really," he whispered hotly in her ear as he slowly slid his hand inside her jeans and underwear.

Olivia bit her lip as Brian unzipped and unbuttoned her jeans and he slipped his hand inside her jeans and underwear. He ran a single finger up her already wet slit as he continued to kiss behind her ear. 'You're so beautiful," he whispered softly, his finger teasing her with single gentle strokes.

Olivia couldn't help as she bucked against his touch as his free hand made it way up to her ass where that too slid under her jeans. He began to massage her there as well, still whispering in her ear just how beautiful she was and how perfect she felt... A complete one eighty from that morning but it still had the same effect; wanting Brian to take her right then and there.

Just as Olivia was about to voice that particular desire to him, a distinct ringing came from her jeans that made both of them groan in annoyance.

"It could be about the case, I gotta answer it," Olivia explained apologetically.

"No problem," Brian told her as he gave her a chaste kiss behind her ear before he pulled his hands away from her.

He reached in her jeans pocket and pulled out her phone. Seeing the contact name on the screen, instead of handing it to Olivia he answered it himself. "Brian Cassidy's massage house, happy endings guaranteed, how may I help you?"

"Put Olivia on the phone now, Cassidy!" Amaro barked at him.

"Ooh touchy touchy. You know I got a guy that'll relax you a little. Can I put you down for Latino male mid thirties next Tuesday?"

"Put. Her. On. The. PHONE!"

Brian rolled his eyes as he handed the phone to Olivia. "Tell Rickey Ricardo he needs to get laid!" Brian said just loud enough for Amaro to hear him as he climbed off of her.

"What's going on, Nick?"

"Your boyfriend's an asshole!" Amaro barked at her.

"I assume you didn't call me up just to tell me that?"

She heard him sigh and take a deep breath before he spoke, "Amanda and Fin found Lewis, they're bringing him in now."

Olivia bolted up from the position on the bed. "Thanks. I'll let Cragen know."

Without another word Olivia hung up the phone and got up from the bed, zipping up and buttoning up her jeans. "They found the guy," she told a confused Brian. "The one who raped the sixty year old."

Brian jumped up from his spot on the bed as he walked back out to the bull pen with her. "I gotcha. You want me to stick around?"

"Don't you have work in the morning?"

"Not if you need me to stay with you."

Olivia turned around to face him and gave him a grateful kiss before she pulled away. "Thank you, Brian, but I gotta be completely focused on this guy. I don't want him getting out on some technicality."

Brian nodded in understanding before he gave her another swift kiss. "I get it. Stay safe, Liv."

"Always," she said with another chaste kiss before she turned her attention back towards the task at hand; making sure William Lewis payed for his crimes...

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