Devastation. Depression. Despair. These were just a few feelings that Juliet and Shawn were feeling. It had been a day since Juliet had miscarried one of the twins. She went to the hospital to make sure that the other baby was okay. Juliet lay in her bed replaying the events of before in her head.
"Well, Juliet, the only thing that could've caused this miscarriage is stress from when you got stabbed." Dr. Carmen explained, her eyes soft with sympathy.
Juliet felt warm tears fall down her face. This is your fault. Juliet repeatedly told herself. Shawn walked towards the bed that Juliet hadn't left for the past day. He bent over and kissed her forehead. "Jules, it'll be okay." he shushed her. Shawn had been so strong for Juliet. Juliet sniffled and let more tears fall from her eyes. Shawn wiped away her tears and sat down next to her. She turned away from him.
"Shawn, you don't get it. This is my fault. I was the one that was stressed out. I let the baby die." she sobbed.
"Jules," Shawn lay down next to Juliet, "I know this is hard for both of us, but what is laying in bed and moping going to do?" He was always good at convincing Juliet to do things. She lay silent. "The other baby died because you were stressed out right?" Shawn continued. Juliet barely nodded. "So, if you keep stressing out now, the other one might die, right?"
Juliet's body stiffened a bit.
"So, we need to stay strong," Shawn paused, "For the baby." he continued.
Juliet flipped over and looked at Shawn. She wiped the tears off her face and nodded. "Okay." she said simply.
"So, what do you say to Chinese food?" he asked. A smile grew on Juliet's face. She nodded. Shawn helped her out of bed and they walked out to Juliet's Volkswagen Bug.
After dinner at Bamboo Wok, Shawn and Juliet sat on the couch watching a movie. Juliet lay her head on Shawn's shoulder, refusing to let herself cry again. Shawn held Juliet tightly against himself, comforting her. His other hand rested on Juliet slightly less puffy stomach. They lay there for a few hours until Shawn noticed Juliet asleep on his shoulder. Shawn scooted over, catching her head when it fell off his shoulder. He scooped her up into his arms and carried her to her bed. Juliet wrapped her arms around his neck and lay her head on his shoulder again. Shawn set her down in her bed and lay down on the other side. Before he could even feel tired, Shawn fell asleep.
Juliet bolted up from her bed. She gasped for the air that she had somehow lost from her lungs. Shawn looked over at her shaking, panting body. "Jules? What's wrong?" he wrapped his arms around her, holding her tight.
"Shawn, I need to leave, somewhere." Juliet blurted out. She quickly got out of bed and left the room.
"Jules! Wait, don't go- You have to- Jules!" Shawn jumped from his bed and tried to catch Juliet. He placed his hand on her arm, causing her to spin around.
"Shawn, I'll be back tomorrow. I have to go, somewhere, anywhere." She begged through her gritted teeth.
Shawn sighed and placed a kiss on her forehead. "Be careful." he called to her as the door shut.
Shawn walked back to Juliet's bed although he knew that he wasn't going to sleep.
Shawn sat on Juliet's couch, waiting for her to return. He finished watching Wall-E twice when Juliet walked in. He quickly stood up from the couch and ran to her, hugging her in his arms. Juliet smiled, "I'm fine, Shawn." she answered the question that Shawn was about to ask.
"Where'd you go?" Shawn had so many questions but he started with a simple one.
"I stayed in a hotel, The Garden Inn." She replied.
"But that's, like, fifteen miles away." Shawn stared at her.
"Yeah, but I wanted to go there, it's nicer and it helps me relax." Juliet retorted.
Shawn nodded, "Is the baby okay?" Shawn was so used to saying 'babies' that saying 'baby' didn't sound right.
Juliet nodded, "But, we have something to talk about." She made her way to the couch and sat down. Shawn followed. "While I was at the hotel, I did a lot of thinking." Juliet started. Shawn stared at her, taking in every word. "And I want you to know that, you don't have to raise this baby with me." she continued.
Shawn shook his head, "I want to." he smiled.
Juliet smiled back and continued, "Well, I also want you to know that in about six months, my- our lives are going to change dramatically. You need to be ready for that and I don't know if your ready for that type of responsibility." Juliet said as nicely as possible.
Shawn leaned in and kissed her on the mouth, "I've never been more ready for something in my entire life."