A/N: Hey guys! As promised, we are updating more frequently! Since this chapter is mainly based around this performance, we really recommend you watch the glee version of Baby It's Cold Outside on youtube or something before and/or after reading it! It will help give you a picture in your mind :) It's personally our favorite chapter so far, but we want to know what you think! Please vote, review, comment, favorite, follow, etc. this story! It means so much to us!
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I pull into set ready to start filming today. I can't wait because it is the Christmas episode. In this one Chris and I get a duet, Baby It's Cold Outside. I have always loved this song and I know it will be great to finally sing with him. Right now I don't know where I am at with Chris. The cast party was a new experience for me and I have been a bit confused if that was actually me or the alcohol talking. Well I guess I just have to forget that and just remember that we a friends and co-workers.

I finally reach hair and make up to get my hair all gelled down, which always seems to take forever, and put Blaine's Warbler suit on. I see Chris and Ryan talking in the corner of my mirror talking about the script and the Baby Its Cold Outside scene. After a couple minutes of intently looking and listening into their conversation my hair is finally done and I head over.

"Hey Dare-Darren, um how are you? Ready to start filming?" Chris says, sounding a bit nervous like he was a bit too excited.

"Hey Chris. I'm good and yeah I'm excited to start filming." I respond. And I really am. Christmas music is the best!

Ryan goes over a few notes with us, reminding us of the fact that Kurt and Blaine aren't romantically involved yet, and that we should be flirty but not overly touchy. Then Zach comes over to give us choreography. "Okay boys, this is pretty much unscripted, there are just a few marks you need to hit at certain points."

Zach takes us through the pathway and the song ends with the two of us sitting on a leather couch.

"Well, ready to start?" Ryan asks. We both nod and get into place.

I sit down in a chair and open the book that Kurt is supposed to be studying from. In my head, I go over the lines I have. There's only a few, right before the song and after, but I don't want to mess up.

"Take 1, Action!"

I get into character, pretending to be studying in a Kurt-like way.

"Hey,"I hear Darren say..

"You scared me," I reply looking up.

"Good, because, I'm actually Marley's ghost, and I'm hear to tell you to stop studying so hard,"Darren says, making an adorable face. I try not to laugh,

As Kurt, I ignore his sarcastic comment. "What's with the boom box?"

"I want you to sing with me. Well, rehearse with me. I got a gig singing Baby It's Cold Outside in the King Island Christmas Spectacular."

"Ah, a personal favorite. Too bad they'd never let us sing it together." When I say this, he gives me a quizzical look.

"I mean, as two, artist." He nods in reply.

"So are you gunna help me out here?"

"Yes, anything to get me to stop reading about Charlemagne."

"Very good then."

After tapping my book, he gets up and goes towards the boom box. Since we are singing the song live and there is no band, like in "glee club", the music will be played though the boom box.

As he comes over, he gestures to me to start singing.

"I really can't stay…" I sing and the song has started. The song is very flirty, so I take on that personality and start being flirtatious. Darren obviously has decided this too, and is being as adorable as ever. Stay in character.

He gets close and reaches like he's going to grab my hand so I get up, remembering Ryan's note.

I know that we are filming but I can't help but to break character just a bit when I can feel Darren right behind me. I crack a little smile and almost turn back but then snap back to being Kurt, as hard as it is.

I walk towards the window and finally give in, facing Darren and giving him a mischevious smile. Since he looks a little defeated, acting as the song says, I go back his way. He leans into me and as he turns to go to our next mark, gets really close so we are pressed up against one another. I can feel the heat rising to my cheeks and catch myself checking him out as he walks away. Stop it Chris! PROFESSIONAL. I can't help but smile though, because that obviously meant something.

As Darren sings about "my eyes" or Kurt's I guess, he frames them in his hands lovingly. Wow, he's really getting into character. I'm honestly a little surprised but pleased. To hide my blush, I head off the camera to a new area.

Darren of course, follows, and continues to be overly flirty. We are on the edge of the couch, one of the marks, and the lines that is up "Mind if I move in closer?" And wow I wasn't ready for him to be so close! I really enjoyed it actually, but get up and move to the piano. Remember, Ryan said not too touchy.

I'm a little annoyed, because Darren keep leaning in and getting close. Not that I really mind, but Ryan said specifically not too, and it's making it really hard to keep it professional.

As I lean against the fireplace, Darren comes up and mirrors me. I walk away once again, because it's kinda fun getting to play a tease, just for once. I look over Darren's way though, and see his sad face. I feel a little bad, he actually looks really upset. At the next mark I lean over the couch kind of a way to say "sorry" for walking away. Seeing this Darren copies me.

As he comes over, I lean in, very close to where he's sitting. Our faces are only inches from each other, and he looks at my lips. If I lean in a little more… No. I turn quickly from him and get up, walking off camera.

Being the final mark I go back to the couch and see him looking a bit defeated. Was that Darren or Blaine? He gestures for me to sit on the couch. I then do a little gesture back letting him know that he can take the first step to sit down. Since we both refuse we nod and sat at the same time.

We have a couple more lines and then "Blaine" leaves the room, so Mr. Schue can come talk with Kurt.

The scene only took one take, apparently we did a "practically perfect" job, and I left before I could get any comments or chatting started. The performance was really confusing for me, because it really looked like Darren was the one hurting, not Blaine. But how could that happen, I'm the gay one. And I hate to say it, but he did a better job then I did at being flirty. It's all so confusing.

I sit in my trailer, wallowing in self-pity. Alright, maybe I'm being a little dramatic. I hear a knock on the trailer door interrupting my thoughts. I almost don't open the door, but I get up and see it's Lea, so I do.

"Hey Chris! How was the Baby It's Cold Outside scene? I wish I could have seen it!" Says Lea, very excited.

"Oh, hello Lea. It was good, I think. It only took one take so that must mean the there was good "chemistry" I guess" I was still very confused about it and I didn't want Lea to figure that out.

"Only one take!? Are you kidding? You guys must have been great! I knew that you two would work well together." Lea practically screamed!

"Well, to be honest, can I share something with you ? I'm really confused and I think talking is the only thing that might help."

"OH MY GOD! You like him don't you? I called it! You guys would be sooo cute together! Too bad he's straight but-"

"Lea!" I cut her off. "Let me explain. Ok, I guess I do like him, like, in that way, but that's not what I'm really confused about. During the filming, Darren was super flirty and went against Ryan's specific note to not be too touchy. And I swea, we almost kissed! That's how close we were. And the other night at your party, he made a lot of, suggestive comments, all basically saying he thought I was attractive!" It feels good getting this off my chest and even though I might regret it later, right now I'm glad to have someone's opinion.

"Oh wow Chris! Well you never know maybe he is in the closet still. I wish I could have seen it, but it sounds like you aren't making this up in your head. But this could also be him just getting used to acting as a gay teen on TV. I think you need to take this a little more lightly and see how it pans out. If he continues to keep it very flirty on and off set then maybe I will talk to him and see where he is at, not directly bringing your name up." Lea always knows the right thing to say to you to make you feel better. I was beginning to feel not as lost and ready to come back on set. We give each other a little hug and I thank her for everything.

"Thank you Lea. Oh and Please don't bring this up with anyone."

"Don't worry about it Chris. Just wait it out for a little while longer and if you need help I am always here for you!"

*Back to before shooting the scene* As me and Chris finish the dialogue portion of the scene, I move to the boom box and hit play. I motion towards Chris to start singing and sit down opposite him on the arm of the couch. As we sing, I walk over to him and pretend to grab his hands. Chris kinda ignores it, and then gets up and walks away. I follow him and keep singing. I guess he's just heading to the next mark?

Chris is just doing his own thing, but I follow him, kinda confused, but mainly just wanting to keep singing. Our voices sound really good together and singing duets is really fun.

He come back towards me and I lean in. I spin so I am facing the next mark, but as I do I end up right in Chris's face. Like, right up against him. I just continue on, but how did that happen?

I sit across from him and as "Blaine" is singing about his eyes I realize how beautiful Chris's eyes were. I mean wow. Wait, what, back to character now. I frame his eyes with my hands. Seeing his smile after that makes me break character yet again and I give a flirty smile back.

We sit on the couch, and Chris is doing a good job acting out the song. I try and get back into character, and scoot in closer, as implied by the lyrics. But Chris gets up, once again, leaving me "behind," and I can't help but feel a little disappointed. Was I doing something wrong?

I follow him of course and at the right part, play the piano along. I don't know if Chris knew it was going to happen, but I feel proud about it. Because, my piano playing is pretty amazing if I do say so myself! I look up to see his reaction, smiling because Chris is always so excited and nice when I show him things, but he's already at the next mark. Oh.

At this point, I'm a sick of being "left behind." I try and get in Chris's face, practically saying "LOOK AT ME!" But then I remember that I'm supposed to be in character and calm down, trying to play it off.

But then, he walks away again, and I know it shows on my face that I'm sad. Well, at least it fits the lyrics. I go along and take my time catching up with him this time. If I get rejected one more time, I may cry.

Wait what? Pull it together! I'm just acting gay, I'm not really gay! And Chris is just acting too. So I get back into flirty and confident "Blaine" mode.

I notice Chris leaning in on the couch, and I sit down opposite him, continuing to act out the song. He continues leaning in closer and I do too, thinking that he's finally giving in. And my eyes go towards his lips. And I think I'm gunna kiss him…

I lean in a little more and then he gives me a quick smile and turns away quickly, walking from me once more.

I feel defeated.

I try to smile and shake it off, because the songs almost over. It feels like I might have done something wrong by Chris's reactions, but I'm not sure. It was worth seeing him smile and even blush a few times.

Excepting that he won't give in anymore I gesture for him to sit down. Of course he won't and he gives me a gesture to sit first instead. I don't, fighting back for once. Then we both just sit at the same time. I give it just one more try to be a bit flirty and sing right in his face with a huge smile, but of course, nothing.

We both look at each other and smile as the music ends. Then, I realize that we are just staring at one another, and I turn away, bashfully.

We say our last couple lines, then I leave, my part over for the day. I only have this one scene for today, but I stick around to wait and see if we need a second take.

"That was practically perfect guys, nice work! I think we got it on one take!" Ryan calls out. I look for Chris, because we always walk out together, but I can't seem to spot him. I feel someone tapping my shoulder, and turn to see Ryan behind me.

"Oh, hi Ryan!"

"Hi, Darren. So I want to talk to you about that scene"

" Oh I thought it was pretty great, I mean we only needed one take right!" I say very proud of that. But Ryan didn't look too pleased, did I miss something? Maybe we forgot a mark or something…

"Oh well Darren, I told you in the beginning that this was not to be overly flirty. Did you get that point your did you miss that?" The tone in Ryan's voice was not inviting at all, he was annoyed.

"Oh, um, Ryan. Im sorry I just thought-"

"No you shouldn't have just thought anything because you were given my notes, more than once, and Chris was fine. Did you see him break out of my direction?" He cut me off, and he was agitated.

"I'm-I'm really sorry. I guess I just got really into it and carried away, which I know isn't a solid reason, but I'll try not to let that happen."

Ryan frowns, but nods. "Alright, just know. I'm not pleased."

Back at home, I'm contemplating the day. A lot happened today and I really don't know how to process it all. I open a thing of Red Vines and sit down on my couch. The first and foremost issue is the problem with Ryan today. I really didn't mean to anger him, and he is my boss so I need to be more careful. I guess this means that the real issue is how I acted towards Chris. Because if I had been in control of my emotions, it wouldn't have happened.

How I feel about Chris? Very confused. Like, why did I feel such a need to be flirty with him? And the want to see him smile? I know we are best friends and that seeing your friends happy makes you happy, but this seems extreme. And best friends aren't flirty. Especially two guys.

Not that I'm against being gay. It's just, I'm not personally gay so…

But how can I explain the way that I was looking at him, I felt like I was never looking anywhere else. And his eyes, wow. They were truly beautiful. I have never thought that about one of my guy friends before. And then when I played the piano just for his reaction. It seems like almost everything I did was to see his reaction, it just felt so right. What did this mean. I had a million thought and questions running through my head but there was one main thing coming up…

"Am I gay?"

A/N: If you haven't already, seriously, watch their version of Baby It's Cold Outside! We watched the performance like 7 or 8 times while writing it, so it will really help! Also- remember, we are still basing this on real events & such, and although we are making up the storyline, EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IT REALISTIC!

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