A/N: Okay, two updates in two days! Woo! And next is Silly Love Songs! So obviously that will be a fun chapter :) This chapter is just a continuation of the last one, kinda a filler to be honest, but stick with us! Also- It might seem like they won't ever get together but we have a bunch of "research" & since it's based on real events we have to wait! But it's coming everntually :) Okay, comment, review, follow, favorite, etc.! Thanks!

So far, my goal of hanging out with other guys is going well. I've even been invited to their annual last day of vacation video game day! Right now I'm driving over to Cory's actually, which is where it is taking place. So far I have hung out with Kevin and Harry once each, and one more time with Chord. I didn't find Harry or Kevin particularly attractive, but yesterday I was walking around the mall and I saw quite a few good-looking guys. So I'm pretty sure I'm gay. But as I've said before, I really don't like putting labels on things.

As I pull up to Cory's I see a few other cars parked outside. When I get inside I see Harry, Mark, Chord, and Cory all sitting in the living room, already with Xbox controllers in hand. Everyone says hello and I sit down. Already we are joking and laughing and I can tell it will be a fun afternoon.

We have decided to take a pizza break and our all sitting on the couch in silence since we are eating. Cory suddenly speaks up. "Has anyone seen Chris at all during our break?"

We all shake our heads and he looks a little worried. "Well, I invited him as usual, but he said no, as usual. I was just wondering because we usually at least hang out once over vacation but he hasn't so much as texted me. I'm a little worried about him." Cory sighs.

Oh my god I haven't seen Chris in almost two whole weeks, and today is the last day of our break before we go back to filming. Right now all I want to do is surprise him with Diet Coke and do our little movie marathon. I feel absolutely awful, he probably thinks I have been avoiding him this whole time. Chris has probably texted me about ten times asking to hang out or see a movie or just get coffee and I said no to play a stupid video game. I have had a great time getting to know all of these boys and do guys things like pig to pizza and watch stupid action movies that they seem to love. But I would give up all of those days to be with Chris. Now that I think about this I feel very selfish and incredibly rude. I have been avoiding him. No intentionally but still avoiding him. Before I was unsure but now I know, I'm gay. And that's not it, I have these strong unconditional feelings for Chris. Whenever I think about him, which has been pretty much always lately, I light up and feel safe. I know with Chris I can truly be myself and I don't have to hide anything, not that I'm lying to the guys but still I feel like they only know about half of me. They guys don't know that I love to sing and play the piano. They have know clue that I would much rather watch and cry along to Titanic then watch any other the pointless action movies that all have the same plot point to them.

"Darren, dude...Did you hear what we said" Chord mocked me while shaking my arm to get me to lose train of thought. Wow how long was I sitting there spacing out about Chris?

"Oh yeah...What were we talking about. Chris, was it? Yeah I haven't heard from him too much. I could call him, or go stop by his house after our games, or now even." Two weeks ago I would have been very nervous to say that but now it is the truth, I needed to be there for Chris, he was able to clear so much time for me and now it was my turn to do the same.

"Um, Darren are you sure? You are so close to winning Zombies…?" Kevin was a little confused as to why my mood has completely flipped around.

"Yeah Kev how about you take over, you are much better than I am anyways. And I'm sure it won't be long. I'm just checking on him and maybe after a bit I can get him to come over and we can all hang out, but I will see what his thoughts are; we all know that he hate video games!" Everyone chuckles and forgets my eagerness to go see Chris.

"Alright dude see you later then, if not then tomorrow man!" Cory says

" By guys, I had a great time today and these past weeks, thanks. And thanks Cory for having all of us over

I had a great time, sorry I'm leaving so soon." I looked at my phone and it was only twelve o'clock, plenty of time to run to the store for junk food and maybe an apology gift, not anything too big but just to let him know that I am here and that I'm sorry for ditching him so much. I hope he is home, I don't see why he wouldn't be, but he may be out with Ashley or Amber. This doesn't worry me too much because knowing Chris he is probably getting all settled for tomorrow.

I finally got done with the food shopping and hurry to the mall. It is only 12:30 but I want to spend as much time with Chris as I can so I want to be sure not to be out all day getting ready. I stop by the mall on my way to Chris's because I really want to make it up to him and I have just the gift that will do that. I knew where everything in the mall was because Chord and I went a few times and so did Cory and I so this didn't take to long and I was in and out within twenty-five minutes. I also had yet another reassurance that I was in fact gay because the guy that was ringing me up was rather attractive, not like Chris but still very cute, and I even found myself unintentionally flirting like I did before with girls that I didn't even know. And I wasn't like overly flirtatious, just very light and playful. This was great because now I don't have to sit in confusion, but know I have to figure out when to come out and when to tell Chris. That's what is most important to me. I don't care about labels at all, and I say that a lot but that is because it is true. Putting labels only gives people the opportunity to break you don't and make a million assumptions about you. I don't need that and I don't want to add to Chris's publicity.

I finally get to Chris's house and I am actually

nervous. I like him, a lot, but I'm not quite sure where he is at if he likes me, doesn't like me, or just is confused. But it isn't about that now, this is me apologizing for being a bad friend and just being there for him through thick and thin.

*Knock, knock* Here I go. There is no answer so I knock once more a little louder this time and I hear shuffling.

"Oh hi Dare… What-"

"Chris I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to leave you in the dust like that, I was just getting to know the other guys and having sometime to figure stuff out about myself and all the changes…"

"Thank you Dare, I have missed seeing you. My break was really laid back so I would have loved to see you more and do things to get out of the house, well I wouldn't really mind where we went or what we did really. Sorry just not seeing you I have so many things to say! Hmm… Wait changes… is everything alright, do you need help or anything, here come in you must be freezing you aren't even wearing a jacket. And changes?"

He was right I wasn't wearing a jacket, I left it at Cory's because I kind of rushed out of there to see Chris. Oh no what did i say changes, I'm so stupid, I can't tell him yet. I want to but it is too soon. "Oh um… Just working more, living on my own, not seeing my Starkid friends. Stuff like that will take some getting used to." I lied. I couldn't say what I really wanted to say, but that ill come out soon.

"Oh...Alright well what brought you here because really a text would have been fine, I know you are busy and you didn't need to clear up time for me." Chris said, I could tell he sensed something more that was bugging me but he knew how to avoid it seeing that I wasn't in the mode to talk about it. "Oh and you brought snacks! Diet Coke, thanks i love you, I mean I love that you remembered...Yeah...I um...Thanks…"

Did he just say he loved me! He probably didn't mean it but still, it took every bit of me to hold back my feelings and tell him that back.

"Oh yeah sure I know you loved Diet Coke and i thought we could sit around and spend our last day watching movies like what we planned a while ago. I mean if you're up for it?" I completely avoided the fact that he said he loved me because I could see he was blushing and wished he had never said it.

"Yes, I'm totally up for it! I mean I was already planning on watching Harry Potter today seeing as I had know plans. Unless you wanted to watch something else we can do a marathon!" Chris changed his mood and was completely lit up! I'm glad to see everything was all cleared up and I can't wait to relax and watch some of my favorite movies with him.

Wow, what a boring couple of days. I have been moseying around a lot lately just watching movies and eating crappy foods. Ever since that one night of grieving over Darren I have been crying almost once or twice everyday. I know I shouldn't be Dare and I are just friends and that's all we will ever be but I know I felt something more with him and saw him putting more effort into our… relationship. I fell asleep around 2:30 am last night so I slept in until about 10:45, I have been doing that a lot lately. I knew I wouldn't be doing anything today but I got dressed anyway, nothing fancy just jeans and a sweatshirt. I did my hair a bit by the slight chance i needed to run out to the store or something like that. After getting ready for my day I made scrambled eggs for breakfast.

For the past two weeks I texted Darren several times but everytime it has no answer or he is out with the guys. I can't help but be jealous. I would do anything to be hanging out with him. I have a strong sense that he is avoiding me. I wish I knew why.

My thoughts were interrupted when the o heard the door, two fairly loud knocks. I look out the peephole and I see Darren's adorable eager face! Oh my god! I could not be happier! Darren is finally here! But why, oh well. I had a billion things running through my head; I was mad and hurt by him but on the other hand i was ecstatic and excited to talk to him and catch up and goof off like we used to.

I open the door and I could have said so many things but the only thing that came out was "Oh hi Dare… What-" and I was immediately cut of by Darren.

"Chris I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to leave you in the dust like that, I was just getting to know the other guys and having sometime to figure stuff out about myself and all the changes…" he sounded very apologetic at the beginning but when he started talking about his changes i could sense that something was really bugging him. I didn't know whether to talk to him about it or not.

"Thank you Dare, I have missed seeing you. My break was really laid back so I would have loved to see you more and do things to get out of the house, well I wouldn't really mind where we went or what we did really. Sorry just not seeing you I have so many things to say! Hmm… Wait changes… is everything alright, do you need help or anything, here come in you must be freezing you aren't even wearing a jacket. And changes?" I was just rambling on. I tried not to show how excited I was but I blew that. I also couldn't help but asked him about his "changes." he came in and i just wanted to give him a huge hug; one because he was so cold, and two because he was actually there. I was surprised to see that he had a few bags in his hands, two where grocery bags and one was something I couldn't make out. It looked fancy like a present. I know it couldn't be that so I didn't get my hopes up but I was still excited to see it.

"Oh um… Just working more, living on my own, not seeing my Starkid friends. Stuff like that will take some getting used to." Darren said after getting settled in the house. I could tell he was hiding something but I left it there and didn't go any further.

"Oh...Alright well what brought you here because really a text would have been fine, I know you are busy and you didn't need to clear up time for me." Chris said, I could tell he sensed something more that was bugging me but he knew how to avoid it seeing that I wasn't in the mode to talk about it.

"Oh and you brought snacks! Diet Coke, thanks I love you, I mean I love that you remembered...Yeah...I um...Thanks…" Oh my gosh what did I just say! I said that I loved him...Do I… NO CHRIS STOP. But I did feel so strongly about him. God I probably freaked him out, I'm an openly gay guy and he, well actually I'm not sure, but still. Maybe I'm overreacting and he understood that I loved what he did, not him… I think.

"Oh yeah sure I know you loved Diet Coke and I thought we could sit around and spend our last day watching movies like what we planned a while ago. I mean if you're up for it?" Said Dare in a relaxed tone. Thank god he took that lightly.

Yes we are finally going to have our movie day! I was so excited I practically yelled him my answer, "Yes, I'm totally up for it! I mean I was already planning on watching Harry Potter today seeing as I had no plans. Unless you wanted to watch something else we can do a marathon!" This was finally going to happen. And I couldn't help but feel like it was a date.

"Alright, well lets get started! I have to unload my bags first though. Oh and I got you something to kinda say sorry for leaving you alone so many times lately." How sweet! I had a feeling it was a gift. But what he possible get me, I have never really talked about things that I wanted.

"Aww Dare you really didn't need to do that, thank you so much!" I ran over to give him a great big hug, finally, I couldn't resist! He was a little shocked but then embraced me. We stood there for several seconds hugging and I couldn't let go, I never wanted to, and by the way he was hugging me I think he felt the same way. To make things less awkward for him and to keep up the mood I whispered "Thank you" in his ear and broke the hug. He nervously smiled then gave me the bag and rubbed my shoulder. He had such a warm touch I felt so safe and comfortable with him.

I could not believe he remembered… He got me the Chewbacca Backpack I have been wanting so badly! I told him that I wanted it the first night we met. How sweet.

"Dare, oh my, thank you so much! This is exactly what I was talking about! How did you remember?" I was so excited I kept looking back and forth at my Chewy bag and Dare.

"Chris i remembered because you got so excited when you were talking about it and that was the first conversation that we actually clicked on. I have been looking for one ever since you told me and that and I decided that today would be the perfect day to give it to you." He said this in such a warm inviting way. He truly did want to make me happy and cared about me like that. I can't believe it.

The rest of the day we watched movies and and hung out until about 12:30 that night. There is no way that I could have had a better day to end my break.