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No. I can't be doing this. I need to go back. Turn around damn it. Don't take another step. You retard you took a step. Stop NOW. I shouldn't be doing this. I need to be alone. Keep everyone safe.
Unfortunately my body nor heart doesn't want to listen to my flippen brain. Now I'm on a dead set path to putting people that care about me in danger. I took another step to the house. One more step and ill be on the porch.
"I cant do this" I mumbled to myself. I took a step back looking at the house with fear. So many choices I cant make. I need answers not questions to answer. "Fang" I whispered out. He turned around even before I said his name. Those forest green eyes poring out so much emotion." I can't come in." his face fell.
"What do you mean. Of course you can come in." his eyes pleading with me.
"I can't Fang. There- T- There's something wrong with me Fang." he took a step toward me gently placing a hand on my arm in the process.
"Max. Do you see the world we live in. Of course somethings wrong with you. There's something wrong with all of us now."
"N-no." I took a step back letting his hand drop from my arm." I'm in a different situation Fang. I don't know whats wrong with me.I need to go before I hurt someone."
" Why would you hurt someone, Max?"
" There's something wrong with me Fang. I need to go. I don't even need a car nor weapon or food. I just need to walk and keep walking away."
"Max. Tell me whats wrong." Fang took a step forward and threw his arms around me holding to his chest" Just tell me. I can help."
" Not in this situation. You can't. I can't even help me." he held me tighter like I was going to fly away." Fang you need to let go."
"No I let you go before and I lost you. I'm not letting go this time." he breathed out.
" That was in the past. Its different now."
" How he hell is it different now." he huffed out frustrated.
"Its different now because I'm not who I used to be...not at all"I mumbled out with a tear dropping down my face.
"No Max. You're still the same Max I fell in love with a year ago. All that's changed is time, Max." Fang explained into my ear. He held me even tighter now. The feel of someones arms around me. Just the feel of another human next to me sent comfort, but with Fang being in his arms it wasn't just comfort it was home. I felt like everything was OK and nothing had happen. I felt just as i did a year ago when I was in his arms...like all my thoughts and problems and pain was gone and there was nothing.
But there is something and I can't ignore these problems now no matter how bad I want to stay.I took my head off his shoulder and looked up at him with a dead stare.
"Fang I have to go. Its not just time that's changed and I think you know that."
"What are you talking about?" he looked at me questionably.I took a step back from his arms and looked at him straight.
"Don't play stupid. You are the one who found me under that corpse are you not. You saw what happened and how I was after." I started to raise my voice." You know that the blood that was on me wasn't just the zombies. And I know you saw the bite." I stopped with my chest heaving up and down .Fang still stood there with a pleading look on his face.
"Max..." Fang reached out to me but i took another step back,his arms fell to his sides.
"No I have to go...and you know that."I gave him a cold stare" You knew what you had to do when you saw the bite. You KNEW you had to kill me off ... you should have done it when I was unconscious so I do have to feel anything and suffer" I whispered under my breath. Fang's face contorted to anger with those words.
"Do you even understand what seeing you was for me!" he started raising his voice" Max. I felt like I actually had a life to live for when I saw you. I"m incapable of hurting you, let alone killing yo like some animal. So I brought you back hear and bandaged you up hoping for the best hoping to god you weren't infected. And you know what I hoped enough cause you should have already changed two days ago." he stopped abruptly his cheeks red ,his chest heaving up and down, and his eyes green eyes searching for something in mine.
"Fang" I whispered softly "There's something wrong with me...I should be infected. I should have changed. I got bite the blood from the corpse got in every cut and scrape I had. It was all over me. Its not right that I'm not infected or changed. I FEEL different. There's something wrong and I can sense it. I'm different now truly different. And i can't be around the ones I care about when I'm a high risk to their life's. Maybe the virus or what ever it is acts different with my blood like the infection spreads slower. We don't know anything and that why I need to go." I turned on my heel and started off to the gate.
Before I could take the third step though Fang already had his arms around me and turned my body around to face him" I told you I refuse to let you go infected or not." he softly said to me, our noses barley touching. Our faces so close together I could ju- no I have to go.
"Please Max." he pleaded "Just stay...for at least 2 more days I can't let you go again." I could feel a tear run down my cheek. A year ...a year I have thought the boy I loved was dead the only thing really cared about in this god for saken world i thought was dead but he wasn't. He's ear holding me telling me not to go when I don't want to at all but I know I have to."Three days that's all I ask and if anything happens I promise I wont let you hurt anyone nor anyone hurt you. I love you." my heart caught for a second, and I took a deep breath out and raised my head to look him in the eyes.
" Three days then I'm gone if nothing happens before that." I huffed out in defeat. This was a bad decision . Fang took my hand in his and lead me up the porch steps and a grin on his face.I took all four creaky steps as I made my way up and with a second gone bye I felt the door shut behind me and knew this was not the choice I should have made...
-Different Mind Set