~ Hold my hand .. No? Why? Afraid you might fall? Don't worry, I'm here to catch you ..~

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"Another restless night, I see."

"Is is that obvious, Auntie Molly?"

It been a couple of days since my incident with Castiel. I been trying to avoid him ever since but my attempts seem futile. It like he knows where I'm going or where I'll be because he was always there. Either he's flirting with one of the school cheerleaders or he's just not paying attention to me. I mean I should be happy right? but I'm not.

On the other hand, My relationship with Nathaniel has improved by a lot. He spent more time with me, we go on a lot of dates but deep down inside me, I'm not happy. I know I love him, but he just doesn't make me happy anymore. I sighed as I look down at my dinner. I wasn't hungry but I also hate to waste food. Auntie Molly must have sense my uneasiness because she took my plate and wrap it with aluminum foil and put it in the microwave.

"Don't worry. You'll get hungry later on. I must have made dinner early huh?" She said with a smile on her face.

"Sorry auntie, I'm just not that hungry." I said as I got up from the kitchen table.

"Oh honey, if it involves dear Nathaniel just know that he loves you very much." She gave me a kiss on my forehead and walked away.

If only she knew that it wasn't him but me.

"Come on Maxy. Let go for a walk." I grab her lead and we left the house to walk the few distance to the park.

I let Maxy run wild and free and smile as she took off running after a squirrel. I took a seat on a near by bench and admire the sunset. It was an amazing view and it seem to give me a little ounce of peace that I so desperately needed. I gave a soft sigh as I saw Maxy in the distance barking at a huge tree. I adverted my eyes to the entrance and that's when I saw Castiel coming toward me. He was wearing his usual black leather jacket with his band tees underneath and his ripped up jeans. I could feel my heart beating at a faster rate as he got closer to me. I put my head down as I felt him take a seat next to me. I could smell his scent, it was a mixture of cigarettes and a musky cologne that I unconsciously long for.

"I'm sorry." He whispered.

I gave him a confused look, not really sure why he was apologizing to me about. "For what?"

"The kiss." He trailed off. "It should have gone like this .." He leaned forward and crash his warm soft lips to mine. I was in shock as I felt his lips move against mine but soon enough, I found myself closing my eyes and moving my lips to his rhythm. I could feel the butterflies running wild in my stomach, my heart beating ten times faster than before. And I could feel myself being lost in his touch.

He pulled me closer to him, this time I was straddling him and my hands flew up to his neck as my other hand played with his hair. I felt his hand go up my shirt and unclasp my bra which lead me let out a slight gasp and made him chuckle. I pulled away from him, my cheeks tinted with crimson red as I saw the lust in his grey eyes.

"Wh-what are you doing?" I said trying to get up from the position we were in. I was happy that there were no one at the park considering that it was already late because the sun had already set. The hands around my waist seem to tighten around as I desperately tried to get up. I sigh exasperated as I gave in to him, I crossed my arms and glared at the man in front of me only to be greeted by his selfish smirk. But deep down inside me, I knew I wasn't mad at all because being in his arms felt right.

"Don't go. We have the night to ourselves." He whispered. He leaned forward and started kissing the nape of my neck making me let out a slight moan.

"Ca-castiel .." I trailed off.

I could feel him smirk against my skin as he continue to tease me. His hands went up to my chest and started pitching and slightly pulling at them. I closed my eyes whilst releasing an endless streams of moans. I move my head slightly back as he lift my shirt up and put one of my nipples in his mouth. I closed my eyes at the sensual sensation I was feeling. It was something I'd never experience before, something that I knew nothing about.

It was now getting dark outside, and the streets light did little to illuminate the park, but I could clearly see his mischievous features in front of me. Without any hesitation, he leaned toward me and kissed my lips then move slowly toward my neck , the center of my breast leaving a hot trail of wet kisses. His hand coup my sex, massaging me through the material of my pants. I let out a shaking breath as I felt his fingers massaging me, arousing me even more making me wetter and wetter by his touch. My hands traveled down my pants, to my belt and just as I was about to unbuckle it, a familiar voice stop me dead on my tracks.

"Hey girl." The voice trailed off. "Where's Cassie?"

I immediately push Castiel off of me whilst trying to compose myself and ran toward Maxy and Nathaniel. I smiled as he saw me and wrap my arms around him tightly.

"What are you doing here?" I shakily said.

"Are you alright? And I came here to give you the geometry textbook you left at my house." I look down to find my textbook in his hands. As I went to go reach it though, he moved away and started looking behind me. I turn around to find Castiel with his dog by his said and a cigarette on his hands.

"What are you doing here, Castiel?" Said Nathaniel through clenched teeth.

Castiel had a smirk plastered on his face as he looked at me and back at Nathaniel. "I was attending to some business that needed to be taking care of." I hung my head whilst blushing as the events from moments ago rushed through my head.

"Wh-Why don't we go home, Nathaniel?" I said as I clipped the lead to Maxy collar and began to walk ahead. I Heard Nathaniel run to me whilst mumbling to himself as he did so.

"I really hate that guy."

"I know." I said as I looked at him. I never understood the hatred between those two, they always seem to be in a mental competition with one another. I felt a sharp pain in my heart of the thought of hurting Nathaniel. Most importantly, of him finding out that I cheated and have feelings by the guy he hates the most in this entire world.

"Hey, are you alright?" He said as he stopped in front of me. I nodded my head but he didn't seem to be convinced as he pulled me in to him and gave me a tight hug. "Then why are you crying?"

Crying? I had no idea I was crying, I didn't feel the tears come out my eyes but I couldn't tell him the reason why I was all of a sudden crying. I knew that if I did, I would be breaking his heart.

"I just really miss you." I mumbled.

I felt him stroke my back causing me to relax a little. He slightly pull away from me, his hazel eyes looking deep into mine. "I love you," he whispered.

I simply nodded my head as more painful tears rolled down my cheek because tonight I realized I no longer love Nathaniel.