A/N: I just made it home from work since the guard that was supposed to relieve me cancelled at the last possible moment and I had to stay four extra hours (Curse you gate posts!). But I made it home and decided to offer you guys a small treat...an update a day earlier than planned! So without further ado, here is the second and (possibly temporary) final installment of this two shot. Now we see things from InuYasha's side!
I know someone was interested in me expanding the story beyond a two shot...although the idea is tempting, my mind can't seem to work out a good plot for it. But if I do come up with something, or if you guys suggest something that can get my lazy brain to think, then I'll consider expanding this story.
I, very sadly, do not own InuYasha or any of the characters from the InuYasha manga or anime. I write solely for my own entertainment and share my shitty writing for the world to see. The true owner is the ever awesome Rumiko Takahasi.
A/U, everyone here is human.
InuYasha is 26 – looks just like his human form
Kagome is 24
Kikyou is 25
Miroku and Sango, although very minor characters here, are both 24
Replying to comments:
Princess Inume: So do I, and huzzah! I have updated :D
shermsgirl:My lazy ass brain refuses to work up a good plot for the story. So for now it'll probably remain a two shot. But if you have any good suggestions for a plot to continue the story then I welcome it :D Maybe it could push my brain to do some exercises~
I Love Siberian Tigers: This happens next!
xoxoSoCal619Sweetheartxoxo: Wait time is ova! Enjoy!
Guest #1:Maybe there is a bit of confusion? Kagome has been in a relationship with InuYasha for five years, they've been separate for only 10 months...which is not enough time (in my personal opinion) for some people to get over the other person. But I do agree that Kagome deserves some revenge on asshole InuYasha...don't worry; I am planning another fic where Kagome plays a more strong willed part. But this fic was written for the angst, delving a bit into what depression can be like for someone who has lost their other after being together for an extended period of time.
Peace:Thank you, and it has now been updated. Have fun!
Glon Morski:I gave in and updated a day before As for the suicide, I was interested in trying to sort of write out what it would be like for Kagome to battle through depression but then lose her will again once she knew he was coming back. I do believe she's is a lot stronger than that though; how else would she stay with InuYasha after all the Kikyou moments?! And I am planning out a fic with a strong willed Kagome whose determined to make something of herself and not rely on InuYasha anymore...so yeah...if my brain keeps working than maybe that will come though :)
Chapter 2
"Are you certain?" asked a tall, well-built man with long raven hair and piercing violet eyes. His gaze was sharp, concentrated solely on the person in front of him who stood with an envelope in his hands.
The man with the white doctor's coat nodded solemnly, his dark braid moving up and down with the movement. "I'm certain. The test has an accuracy rate of 99.9%...the child, Kaede Takahashi, born from Kikyou Takahashi, is not your child."
The man looked away briefly, exhaling a breath he didn't know he had. "I see…" he trailed off, his gaze becoming distant, contemplating something.
"If that's all you needed then I'll take my leave." The doctor bowed, "I wish you the best, Takahashi."
"Wait," he called out, turning his gaze back towards the doctor.
"Yes?"
He took a deep breath, "If it is necessary…will you be willing to testify this in front of a court?"
The doctor looked at him sharply, "You know my work by now, InuYasha. Of course I will testify if necessary."
InuYasha starred at him for a moment longer before nodding, "Thanks, Bankotsu."
The man nodded in return, "Anything for a friend….Oh, InuYasha,"
Said man lifted a brow in question.
"You should go get your life back." Bankotsu stated firmly before giving him a half assed salute and walked away.
InuYasha watched his retreating figure for a couple of seconds before he smirked. "I plan to."
InuYasha sped down the streets in his brand new, bright red, Lexus; not giving a fuck about the speed limit.
How could he? He was finally going to get his life back.
He was finally going to live again.
He almost laughed at the memory of what had happened just twenty minutes ago.
"You can't mean this!" she shrieked in disbelief, tears flowing freely down her eyes. She clutched at the sleeve of his white dress shirt desperately, as is hoping it would keep him there.
He almost scoffed at her foolishness.
"I can." He stated, prying her hands away from his now wrinkled sleeve, "and I do." He stated, his tone completely serious.
"But why?!" she openly sobbed. "I thought that we loved each other!" Her hands wiped furiously at her eyes, smearing the dark mascara and eye shadow that was once beautifully placed on her eyes.
InuYasha shuddered, he knew that she was faking it. The last torturous months they spent together taught him how to read her well. "You knew before coming into this marriage what it would be. You were aware that I was not, and am not, in no way whatsoever, in love with you."
Kikyou stared up at him, her eyes narrowing in suspicion. Her make-up was completely ruined and made her look like a child who attempted to look like her mommy rather than the model she was supposed to be. "It's because of her isn't it?!" she hissed out, "It's because of that whore!" she spat venomously.
In a second his demeanor changed and she found herself pushed into the wall, his hands shackling hers against the cold surface. "Don't you dare refer to her that way." He hissed, spittle flying out of his mouth, "She is more of a woman than you'll ever be."
She stared at him defiantly, paying no heed to his warning. "She's a whore, and you're not a man. Did you forget we have a child?!" she ended in a scream, trying to fruitlessly escape his grasp.
InuYasha smirked then, "I did not forget, but that child is yours."
Kikyou instantly stopped her struggle and stared at him. "She's yours too! Or did you forget it takes two to make a baby?"
InuYasha laughed then, a dark sound devoid of any humor, "Of course not. But the tests say that I was not the second half." He stared down at her then, his violet eyes piercing, searching for her reaction, "I am not the father of that child."
Kikyou's eyes widened marginally before narrowing again, "What are you talking about? Of course she's yours!"
InuYasha let go of her wrists then, watching her lean against the wall, as if looking for some type of support. "I did the DNA test," he noticed the look of fear briefly cross her eyes, "No one knew, of course…the fact of the matter is that I know that child isn't mine." His anger began to flare then, "You purposely lied to me, led me to believe that the girl was mine. I stayed by you for ten months out of responsibility for that child, only to find out a week after her birth that she wasn't even mine."
Kikyou continued to stare at him hesitantly, unsure of what to say.
InuYasha smirked, "I will be filing for divorce. You will be receiving the formal paperwork by tomorrow."
"You can't do this!" she screamed frantically.
He gave her a brief glance before turning around and replying, "I can. I already spoke with the lawyers." He pulled out his smartphone from his pocket and unlocked it, scrolling through various contacts before finding the one he wanted. He dialed the number and waited patiently for the other person to pick up. InuYasha faintly noticed that Kikyou remained silent behind him. "Yes. Nozomi rail? My name is InuYasha Takahashi. I had requested for two train tickets with destination for Kyoto for this afternoon. Yes, well I would like to cancel one of them, and the other one to be moved up to the closest time possible for today. Cancellation fees and any other charges are of no matter to me, just have it done immediately. Yes, thank you, goodbye." He hung up the call and turned back around to face Kikyou, who by this time was sitting with her back against the wall, her body shaking.
"You…you're serious…" she whispered, "I could have given you everything…we could have been the ultimate couple…the ultimate family. Why?" she looked up at him then, "Why for her? Why would you trade me in for her?!" she ended in a scream.
InuYasha lips were a thin line, staring at her briefly before he answered. "She is my everything. You're not. The fact that I left her had nothing to do with you…and everything to do with her. I never traded her in, I just willingly downgraded…so that she could have a future." He looked away then, his hand reaching for his car keys that always sat upon the table at the entrance. "I never wanted anything more than to be with her…and now that you gave me the out…I'm taking it. Our marriage is null and void, Kikyou; because of your adultery and your lies I'm finally free." He turned away from her and turned the knob to the front door, "I'm not entirely heartless like you were with me…I do hope you find your happiness." His grip on the knob became tighter, "but it will not be with me. Goodbye, Kikyou," he said before finally walking out for the final time, hearing her loud sobs as he left.
He had never lied to Kikyou. Never.
He told her from the very beginning that he was going to marry her solely out of responsibility for that child…
That, and because of his father's threat all those months ago.
"Do you mean to tell me that you will not own up to your responsibility to Kikyou and the child?" the great and powerful InuTaisho asked, his grey eyes staring accusingly down at his son.
"I never said that!" InuYasha argued back, "I'll still be there for the kid! But I refuse to leave Kagome!" he growled back.
InuTaisho crossed his arms over his chest, his muscles straining against the dark blue dress shirt. "I will not accept this. You will marry Kikyou and have a legitimate heir."
"The hell I am!" InuYasha yelled in anger, his fists clenched so tightly that his knuckles were white, "I don't love Kikyou and you know that!"
"Then why did you sleep with her?" it sounded more like a statement than a question.
That question hit InuYasha like a ton of bricks, "I don't even fucking know how it happened! It's not like I wanted to or anything! I won't marry Kikyou just because it helps you. I'm no puppet, old man!"
"You will marry her." He firmly stated.
"Or what?" InuYasha challenged.
"Or you will find all ties to us cut."
That statement hit him hard. Not that he particularly cared for his father, much less his brother, but his mother… "It won't change my mind," he declared. Nothing would hurt as much as losing Kagome.
"And I will personally make sure that Kagome's life is made a nightmare."
That particular statement stopped him cold. "W–what?" he stuttered.
InuTaisho nodded, "You will find all ties to the family lost. And you and she will never be able to find a job. Never. I will make sure of it. How long do you think she will last, InuYasha?" he asked.
InuYasha didn't answer. He knew that his father was messing with his mind, but it didn't stop the violent shake that coursed through him.
"How long, I wonder…" he mused, his hand stroking his chin in thought. "Maybe a year of absolute poverty will finally tire her enough to leave you…maybe less. No jobs, no money, no home…all connections severed so badly that not even your 'friends' can help you." He turned his gaze towards InuYasha, "How long until she comes to hate you for ruining her life?"
InuYasha was trembling in rage, his eyes practically red. He couldn't believe his father could be capable of doing something so horrendous. But deep down, he knew. He knew his father was capable of doing it. He would do anything to get his way.
That was what terrified him the most.
After a moment of silence his father spoke, "You have an hour to choose, you may either leave in your foolish pursuit of a woman not worth your standards, ruining both of your lives in the process. Or, you may leave her and marry Kikyou, someone actually worth your standing, and I will assure you that I will not ruin the girl's professional future before it even starts." InuTaisho finally stated, his tone allowing no argument. He turned away and walked back towards his desk before hearing InuYasha call out to him.
"Wait."
InuTaisho turned back towards his son whose face was tilted down, the fringes of his bangs covering his eyes. He arched an eyebrow, "Have you already decided?"
"No harm….No harm will come to Kagome," he looked up then, his gaze fierce enough to send many off to hide in a corner in fear, "You give your word."
He nodded once in reply.
InuYasha looked off to the side, concentrated on the wall, "Kagome will be coming by in ten minutes…can I at least have a final goodbye?"
"You may. I frankly don't care what you do or say; use her and be done with it."
InuYasha clenched his fists hard, ignoring the warm, telltale sign of blood running down his palms as he bit out a "fine" before leaving his father's study.
That day would always haunt him.
Always.
He told Kagome that he was leaving her for Kikyou. He told her why. And against every single fiber in his being, he let her walk away.
That same night his family happily celebrated his engagement to Kikyou. That night she was all smiles, her arms wrapped tightly around him during the beginning of the party. InuYasha only lasted an hour before he abandoned the event.
He remembered how angry is father was. His father insisted then that they would have to move to Tokyo; InuYasha knew why. InuTaisho was afraid InuYasha would one day stray back to Kagome.
And he was right.
InuYasha knew that he wouldn't be able to stay with Kikyou while being so close to Kagome. He agreed to move away, to start a new life somewhere else.
All for her, for Kagome.
Still, it didn't lessen the constant pain and regret that filled him. Sometimes the pain grew so much that the only way he could forget was with a good bottle of Hennessey or whatever other hard liquor he could get his hands on.
Despite Kikyou's protests, they got married in a small, private, civil ceremony. It was the only thing he was willing to have and she finally relented in the end. They lived in a two bedroom apartment, one room for them and one for the unborn baby. Although, he found himself sleeping in the couch practically every night. And if she argued and screamed at him to go to bed then he would simply stay at the edge of the bed. As far away as he could from her. He knew it frustrated her, but he could care less. He was married to her, but hell would freeze over before he ever had sex with her again.
He would never betray Kagome again, even if they were no longer together.
InuYasha would occasionally call his good friend Miroku to ask how things were going over there in Kyoto. How his girlfriend Sango was, how their friends were, but secretly they both knew the real reason for his calls…
How Kagome was.
Miroku never understood why InuYasha dumped Kagome; much less why he would ask about her. Miroku knew that they both loved, and continued to love, each other. He would voice the same thing during every call, and InuYasha would remain silent. It probably would have been easier to explain the whole situation…but InuYasha never did.
He never told anyone.
Because if he knew Kagome, and he did, she would fight for him. She was always too damn selfless for her own good. She probably would have argued with him for hours; she would have insisted that they stay together and pull through it as a couple.
And he knew that if she did that he wouldn't be able to walk away.
So he had to play the cheating bastard. It was better that way. And he contented himself with the little bits Miroku would tell him. He was sure that Miroku held some resentment towards him for what he did. Maybe that was why Miroku would never say much more besides whether or not she was sick, that she was doing fine, that she was still working; although InuYasha had no clue where, and that she still living in the house her mother left her.
When he found out that Mrs. Higurashi passed away, it had hurt him deeply. Kagome and her mother were extremely close, and her mother always supported their relationship. He felt a tinge of sadness when he realized that she must have died hating him for what he did to Kagome.
But still, he did it all for her.
He pulled through the ten agonizing months with Kikyou. Made it through all the bitchy hormones and episodes during the pregnancy, all for Kagome. When that child was born though, something within him had doubts. Maybe it was the fact that he really did not want to live the rest of his life with Kikyou. He didn't remember the night they had sex, and the child didn't share much resemblance to him. He was tanned, with raven hair and violet eyes. Kikyou was pale, with raven hair and dark brown eyes.
The child was pale, with raven hair, and crimson eyes.
His doubts only kept growing until he finally sent for a DNA test, a week after the child's birth.
And he was glad he did.
Because now he was free. There was no more need for the farce marriage. Nothing could hold him back. InuYasha continued to speed down the highway, taking the exit at the right and merging into the lane. He smiled then, the first real smile in ten months. He just had to rush to his parents' home and pick up some things and then he would leave.
He would find Kagome, and everything would be right again.
InuYasha barely made it past the main entrance when a loud, commanding voice rang out.
"You will not go back to her."
InuYasha froze, knowing full well who the owner of the voice was. He turned, facing the older man and woman that stood at the doorway which led to the home office. He turned his gaze over to the male first, "Father…" then shifted his gaze towards the woman beside him "mother..."
The elder male didn't acknowledge his greeting, "You will return to your home with Kikyou."
InuYasha shook his head, "I see Kikyou didn't waste time in whining to you…and I won't return to her."
InuTaisho's eyes narrowed, "Did you forget our prior arrangement?"
InuYasha smirked, his eyes gleaming with barely suppressed confidence, "I didn't. I would take care of Kikyou and my kid and in exchange you wouldn't get near Kagome."
"Then? Has you intelligence diminished since then?"
He shook his head, "No, but it just so happens that the brat isn't mine. Therefore, the marriage, and the whole deal, is null and void."
"And? You've stayed by her for ten months, that child is practically yours."
InuYasha crossed his arms over his chest in defiance, "It's not, according to the agreement the kid had to be mine." He looked away briefly, "I already put in the request for divorce." Slowly, his gaze returned back to his parents, "I'm leaving for Kyoto in 1 hour, I only came to get some things before leaving for good."
"Your ties will be cut." The elder man stated.
He chuckled, the sound dark, "And? Old man, if you hadn't realized by now, I have built a whole empire on my own. I don't have need for yours."
"I'll make sure your business fails."
The woman spoke up then, her violet eyes brimming with unshed tears, "Please InuYasha, return home to your wife. Do not anger your father more than this." She pleaded.
InuYasha eyes narrowed in suspicion, his whole body now tense, "Why are you both so adamant about me and Kikyou. I just told you both that the brat isn't even mine. Unless…"
His mother's eyes were pleading, as if begging for him to understand. InuYasha took a step back, pure disbelief and anger coursing through his whole body. "You knew," he simply stated.
His mother looked away while his father met his gaze dead on, "It was for your own good." He replied, as if that one statement justified everything.
As if it would make the past ten months any less painful for him. For once in his life, InuYasha felt the need to hit his father. To take his rage out on something. Without thinking, his swung his fist out and hit the wall, a loud crack heard from the impact. He pulled his fist away from the newly created hole, ignoring the trickle of blood that came as a result.
His mother stared at him, her eyes wide in fear while his father remained unfazed. InuYasha growled, the sound completely feral, "I'm leaving. I came for some documents, then I'll leave." He turned his gaze over to his mother, "And I never want to see either of you again."
His mother sobbed then, she walked up to him and hugged him, "Please, InuYasha! We only did this for you! You deserve someone like Kikyou!" she pleaded between sobs.
InuYasha didn't even flinch at her touch. He firmly grabbed her arms and pulled them away from him, stepping away from her. "No, if you wanted the best for me than you would have left me Kagome. I loved her, and I still do." He turned his gaze back to his father, "And I was a fool to have taken this long to realize it."
His mother openly sobbed, making her way back to InuTaisho who still seemed unfazed, "I will sink your business. Do you understand, InuYasha? You will never prosper, you will live in absolute poverty. I will make sure of it."
InuYasha smirked then, "Can't wait to see you try," his expression became serious, "and even if I were in poverty…I will gladly be poor with Kagome next to me than rich with Kikyou." He gave his parents a half assed salute, "Goodbye."
He walked past them into the office. He quickly made his way over to a small safe that sat in one of the shelves, punched in the code and opened it, retrieving several folders as well as a stack of money. After gathering the things he needed, InuYasha closed the safe, and carried the items out of the office. He walked off with the full intention to leave quickly when the echo of his father's voice reached him.
"InuYasha!"
The simple sound of it surprised him. He never sounded angry before and as InuYasha turned around he could see his father seething; barely keeping his anger under control.
"You will return to Kikyou. You will do so now." His father bit out, a final warning.
A final chance.
InuYasha didn't hesitate when he answered, "No. Goodbye father," he turned his gaze to his mother, "mother," before turning around and leaving a final time.
InuYasha sighed in exhaustion.
After leaving his parent's house he made his way to a store and bought himself a briefcase for his papers. He didn't bother returning home to gather his clothes, he didn't want to run into Kikyou again. As soon as he made it to the train station he called Miroku, practically begging for him to make sure Kagome would be home so that when he returned he could surprise her.
There were so many things he had to explain.
Reluctantly, Miroku finally agreed. And InuYasha spent the whole train ride wondering how this meeting would go.
"Attention customers, we will be arriving in Kyoto in approximately 10 minutes. We thank you for riding with Nozomi rail, please enjoy the remainder of your trip."
Hearing the announcement, InuYasha let out a breath he didn't know he was holding. In his excitement he failed to analyze all the possible outcomes and now, although he hated to admit it, he was apprehensive. Would she hate him? As far as he knew, Kagome hadn't gotten into a relationship with anyone else ever since he left; so at least he wouldn't have any problems about that. Though he was sure that Kagome wouldn't want to see him. Why should she? He had left her, after all. InuYasha shook his head then, trying to dispel any unpleasant thoughts. He had to at least explain why. Even if she still refused him afterwards, the least he could do was give her a why. Afterwards he would stay, however long it would take, until he could make things right again.
The familiar sound of his ringing phone brought him out of his inner thoughts. InuYashsa quickly brought out his phone and tapped the icon to accept the call.
"Hey Miroku, listen I'll be arriving at the station in about ten minutes so be sure to –"
"InuYasha…"
The tone in his friends voice instantly had him on high alert, his body suddenly straight in his seat. "What's going on, Miroku?"
"InuYasha…its Kagome…sh – she…"
Instant panic rose up in his body, a lump forming in his throat, at the tone of Miroku's voice. "What. Is. It?" he bit out, trying to force words past the tightening pain taking hold within his chest.
"You need to come to Shikon Hospital immediately."
InuYasha could hardly believe everything that was happening. It felt like time stood still, everything centered on those words that he heard as soon as he rushed into the hospital.
"Miss. Higurashi is in a coma. It may be possible that she won't wake up. You all must prepare for the worst." The doctor explained to the shocked trio.
InuYasha's step faltered at hearing those words, stumbling to a stop just a few feet away, "What?" he asked, desperately trying to deny what he heard.
The group turned around at the sound of his voice, and he instantly knew he was not welcomed in the least.
"What the hell is he doing here?!" Souta yelled, outraged and hatred dripping with every word.
Sango quickly narrowed her gaze towards her boyfriend, "Miroku, tell me you didn't…"
Miroku quickly threw up his hands in defense, "My dearest Sango, I swear that I had only the best intentions…"
He ended mid-sentence by the sound of a fist connecting to a face and the two quickly turned their attention back to InuYasha, who fell onto the ground; Souta's body towering over him.
"How. Dare. You. What the fuck gives you the right to be here?!" Souta yelled, completely disregarding the shocked stares of the doctors and nurses.
InuYasha stared up, absently rubbing his cheek where Souta had landed his punch. "Souta, I…"
"No!" the younger male was seething, "Do you know the hell you put Kagome through after you left? Do you have any idea how hard it was for her to even get up every day?!"
Both Sango and Miroku moved towards Souta, each placing a hand on his shoulders in order to restrain him.
"Souta, please understand…" Miroku attempted to reason.
"No! This asshole needs to know what Kagome went through!" Souta shouted back.
"But, Souta,"
"No."
All three turned their gaze back to InuYasha, who by that point was able to stand back up and straighten out his shirt. "Continue," he gestured towards Souta, "I need to know."
"You want to know so badly?" Souta shrugged off the grip Miroku and Sango had on him. "Her life was hell because of you. She couldn't find a job, she was forced to work two jobs to help pay for my college bills, pay the house bills, and pay the hospital bills for my mom. She sometimes woke up and looked like she just wanted to give up, like she was dead inside. She fell into depression because of you." He shoved InuYasha, who made no attempt to stop it, his eyes completely wide in disbelief. "And now, when she was finally, finally, ready to begin to heal, she saw the fucking newspaper announcing your return here with Kikyou!" Souta ended in a shout.
InuYasha was frozen, completely disbelieving of what he had just heard. "I – I didn't know…"
"Of course you didn't! You were too busy running off with that whore to care about what happened to Kagome!" Souta yelled in reply.
"Father…Father had assured me…. We made a deal." InuYasha looked back up at Souta; meeting his gaze. "Souta… believe me; I would have never left Kagome of my own will. I – I love her." He stated firmly, willing for Souta to just believe him.
The whole group remained silent, the tension thick. InuYasha watched as Souta continued to struggle with his anger. Miroku was the first to break the uncomfortable silence, placing a comforting hand on Souta's shoulder. "Souta, I am a personal witness to InuYasha's words. He would constantly call and ask for Kagome. I never understood why he had left her…" he spared a brief glance to InuYasha, "But, if there was something to gather from this, it would appear that his father may have had a hand in this." Miroku shook his head, "It is a shame that so much heartbreak was caused by one person."
"Please, Souta" everyone froze. InuYasha never used that word for anything. "I need to see her. I – I have to make things right…somehow." He lowered his head, his eyes covered under his bangs.
Souta continued to stare at him for the longest time before he finally gave a nod. "If you hurt her…" the threat was left hanging between them.
InuYasha met his stare with a determined gaze. "I won't." he simply answered before turning to the still shocked doctor, "What room."
His voice seemed to have snapped the doctor out of silence. He fumbled with the chart in his hand and adjusted his glasses, "W – well before I allow any visits there are things you must know about her condition –"
The doctor wasn't even able to finish his sentence before finding himself shoved into the closest wall, InuYasha's hands keeping a tight grip on his white coat. "What. Room." He growled out.
"R – Room 3 – 302." The doctor stuttered.
And before anyone knew it, InuYasha sprinted off down the hallway in a blur.
InuYasha ran down the hallway, ignoring the protests and indignant stares of the people he pushed aside in his frantic run. He skidded to a stop and stumbled into the room, room 302, only to freeze at the sight before him.
There was Kagome, or what was left of her.
Her body was mostly covered by a blanket, but whatever wasn't covered was wrapped in bandages. Her arms were in casts and her head completely wrapped up, her neck wrapped in a neck brace.
Her face was what startled him the most.
Her usually full and rounded face was startlingly thin, as if she hadn't eaten in days, or even weeks. Her usually tanned complexion was deathly pale, her usually full, pink lips were tinged blue and chapped. She seemed so weak, so fragile...
She seemed dead.
He quickly took a seat beside her bed, his hand shaking violently as he caressed her cheek, getting a closer look at her weakened state. Wires hung everywhere around her, and she had a breathing mask on. He could faintly hear the beep of the heart monitor and the sound of the breathing machine working beside her bed.
"Kagome…" he whispered, the sound full of pain and anguish. "Dammit Kagome, what did you do?" he asked, even though he knew she couldn't hear him.
"What did I do?"
He felt tears silently falling down his face, and didn't even attempt to wipe them away. Soon, his whole body shook with silent sobs as he watched her lay there, motionless. He placed his hand on top of hers, and squeezed slightly.
"Kagome," he sobbed. It was ironic, two hours ago he would have scoffed at the notion of crying, of showing tears, but now he couldn't care less. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." He laid his forehead against the bed railing, the tears still freely falling down. He didn't care who walked in, because he was too deep in his self-hatred.
It was all his fault for leaving her.
"Kagome," he whispered her name repeatedly like a mantra for several minutes, trying to control his frayed emotions. He leaned over and kissed her hand, "Kagome, I swear never again…I'll never leave you again." He promised, more to himself since he was sure she couldn't hear him. "I'll be here when you wake up. Please Kagome, please wake up. I need you." He felt a tear slide down and land on her hand, before finally pulling away to look at her face, his own hand resting again on top of hers. "Kagome, I love you." He whispered.
His eyes widened when he felt a small squeeze on his fingers, he stared down at their hands before looking back up at Kagome. "Never again, Kagome." He declared.
He knew then, that no matter what, he would never leave her side.
He would be there when she woke up. He would stay with her for the rest of his life.
He would never hurt her again…
Never.
A/N: I think I'm going to stay away from heavy angst for a while…maybe I should try a good InuKag one shot smut fic to make it up to you guys? Let me know.
Also, again, I realize I'm not a talented writer. Writing this fics serves as an outlet for my overactive imagination. I'm nowhere near as good as some of the other writers on here. But, I do sincerely hope that I managed to convey emotions well on this fic. I welcome any constructive criticism. Please bear in mind that I don't have a beta to review this fics; so the grammar may be really, really, crappy.
Again, sorry.
Reviews are luffled.