Blargh, I return from the dead once again to annoy the shirt off of anyone who doesn't like me.
I'm sorry it took me so long to update, even though I said I would put this up two days ago.
It's all Kakashi's fault.
Lazy good-for-nothing bum is hard to write for.
I mean seriously, you try analyzing someone you've never seen half the face of. What a freakin pain!
Of course, 99 of this chapter was actually written on my PDA, but my modem was so screwed up that I never could upload it until now.
k, enough of my whining, hopefully, you guys like this chapter of Vengeful Thoughts as well.
If not, then I might just have to sick my neighborhood Suethor on you.
Then go cry in a corner
……… you didn't hear that.
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Acknowledgements
Starting with
wstphl: All righty then, I'll work hard to make sure this fic
korrd: Thanks! Nope, Hinata is not going to leave the village, despite how much she wants too. I'm going to have her stay around and bug the hell out of Konoha, in the traditional Naruto fashion.
Kai's Snowfall: Because you were the first reviewer for this fic, I feel the guiltiest about the update delays while writing your acknowledgment
I've actually had your saying list in a window on my pc for 3 days straight. Thankfully, it's all on one page so my modem getting messed up didn't stop me from reading it.
Anyway, I guess I misspoke when I was talking about Jiraiya's chapter in chapter 2, because I actually meant that he was going to be as in-character as possible.
I really liked what you said about Sasuke-teme. I mean, every time I think about it, I have to ask myself why he thinks he HAS to be stronger then anyone else to kill Itachi. I mean, what's wrong with Naruto being able to slice the elder Uchiha into a hundred pieces? As long as Sasuke-teme would be capable of it too, I don't see what the bastard's fucking problem was.
Hmm, Kiba might be possible, but I think he might be a little resentful of Naruto at the same time, because Naruto would always be the object of Hinata's affections. I know if I was thinking about the guy who my crush liked, it probably wouldn't be full of much else besides negative stuff.
I don't know though, so if I write enough characters to be able to see otherwise, I'll write him one.
And lastly, it's funny, but I actually WAS thinking of writing a mini-chapter about Naruto, who would be remembering one of the more gruesome dreams that Kyuubi put him through.
KiraraKat: Thanks! Yeah, I was taking a chance when I wrote Jiraiya's character like that, so I'm really glad you liked it.
greekapino: Yeah, I know what you mean. I was mainly trying to increase the length of the chapters because I myself like it when the chapters are long. But of course, the longer a fan-fic is, the more likely it is that I'll read it, so I'm sort of biased. But thank you for the good review!
a random reader: Yatta! Of course, me being a guy, it's hard not to wince when I read things like that, but I have to wonder as well.
Naruto-Sama2008: Um, actually I'm not sure. At first, I was thinking of writing chapters that were inner monologue, but were set after events that hadn't happened yet in the previous chapter. So you would actually find time progressing with each chapter. It's a good idea though, so I appreciate the suggestion and the review.
Peter Kim: Heh, while Konoha, unfortunately isn't going to be destroyed in "reality", I'm planning to have a chapter or two that describes his dreams of slaughtering people that he really hates. Hopefully that will satisfy your bloodlust as well as mine.
Nitro: I absolutely love reviews like this, cause for one, it feeds my ego (yes I know, but my depression makes it somewhat necessary). You have an interesting thought, about the 3 sannin forming a team again and whacking (in the Italian sense) the assholes of Konoha. While that would be pretty awesome to see/read, I think both sannin would have to be too OOC to get themselves to not hate the snake bastard.
Everyone: Thanks again for the reviews, and I hope you like this chapter as well!
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Disclaimer: I own as much of Naruto as the author of the fanfic above me, everything original is mine.
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Great job Kakashi.
Great job fucking up the life of yet another person.
Great job getting the son of your sensei exiled.
You arrogant son of a bitch.
You just couldn't see a reason to train the boy.
You just were too fucking lazy to teach someone who took time to learn.
and yet,
and yet,
Hell, I don't fucking know.
Why was I such a stubborn jackass?
Even though I knew it was more likely then not for that cocky little bastard to betray Konoha, I decided to take the easy way out.
And look where it got me…
I, without meaning to, taught a cold-hearted angsty dipshit how to kill the person he called his best friend.
"Best friend", what a fucking joke.
Like anyone could ever get that close to such a stubborn ass.
Hell, who the fuck do I think I'm kidding?
Damn it all!
Obito, what would you do if you were here right now?
Scratch that, I'm pretty sure I know what you'd do.
You'd beat the shit out of me, again
and again,
until you were sure I wouldn't make the same fucking mistake a third time.
But nooo, I believed I knew my team better then anyone.
Didn't think anyone else had the right to judge my teaching methods.
Didn't believe the scarecrow needed any help in dealing with problems.
Where the fuck did I learn that attitude?
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Naruto, though it's not like I can do anything to make up for all the shit that I put you through, I feel like giving it a shot.
For what it's worth Naruto, I hate my own guts now because of what I've done.
To start off with, I hate myself for erasing the legacy of the man that was like a father to me.
I hate myself for being such a lazy bastard.
I hate myself for treating you like a useless waste of my time.
And finally, I hate myself for teaching your "best friend" how to put a hole in your chest.
Naruto, I know you'll never forgive me for what I've done, but maybe you can help me forgive myself.
Actually, I don't deserve shit after what I've done.
If only I could see you one more time and apologize.
If only...
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They'll never let me have a team again, not after how much I fucked up with you three.
I don't know if any of you knew this, but the reason I had actually failed every single team before you was because I was too damn lazy to teach anyone but the very best.
While everyone believed that it was because my expectations were too high, it was more like I didn't really care about teaching to begin with.
Unlike many other Jounin or Chuunin, I felt no need to impart my knowledge to the next generation.
Makes me wonder if my stolen eye affects me in the same way it seems to affect an Uchiha.
Whatever, not like it matters.
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You and I were a lot more alike then I told you, Naruto.
I was an orphan as well, after my father went insane and killed my entire family, then himself.
But I received a second chance, something I now realize you never did.
The Yondaime, my sensei, treated me almost like he would his….own……son.
Damn it….
What might have been different if I had been your second chance?
What would have happened if I saw behind the mask you always wore?
What would have happened if I accepted you as Naruto, instead of as an unlucky, untalented dead last?
What would have happened if I hadn't been such a dumb motherfucking asshole?
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I remember long ago, when you still lived alone in your apartment, before you entered the academy.
When the Jounin who would watch over you was chosen, I would always "conveniently" be late.
Well, it wasn't personal, but even so, I regret thinking that protecting you from those bastards would have been a waste of time.
I chose to not care about anyone else; because I thought that they would only get taken away again.
Naruto, I'm sorry for not seeing it sooner.
It wasn't about caring about you, because that would make it about me.
I should have put my objections aside and protected you from the cruelty of Konoha.
But I was a coward.
A mask-wearing, mother-fucking coward of a scarecrow.
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Damn, I can't believe how long it took me to write this!
I had no clue writing Kakashi's thoughts would be so fricking hard.
I guess the fact that the manga reveals relatively little about his past should have tipped me off.
Go figure.
Anyway, here are my notes
1. For those who don't read the manga, (or don't know what the hell I'm talking about to begin with), the 4th Hokage was Kakashi's sensei.
2. The "easy way" Kakashi mentioned refers to training Sasuke instead of Naruto. It refers to how Sasuke merely needs to watch Kakashi while using his Sharingan to learn quickly. I use this assumption because many other fanfics I've read use the idea as well.
3. Obito Uchiha was Kakashi's team mate when he was a genin. In fact, when an accident took Obito's life, he gave Kakashi one of his sharingan eyes.
4. Kakashi's family name, "Hatake", translates to "scarecrow". Thus, he sometimes refers to himself as one.
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I'll end by confirmig that Hinata is going to be chapter 5. After that, I was thinking about doing either Iruka, Konohamaru (who at this point, would be old enough to swear like a sailor.),
Neji (who is actually pretty cool after getting his ass kicked in the Chuunin Exams.), or another Naruto chapter.
Please tell me who you think would have the most relevant perspective.
And just for any flamers, I've got a Suethor in a cage, and I'm not afraid to use it.
You have been warned...