Hey guys! Sorry it took me so long! I've got finals coming up so the teachers have been piling on the work! Thanks for your patience! (Also, I think I've only got a couple more chapters left in this story!)
Dean tried not to enjoy the kiss, but it was too good. It felt too right to be kissing Cas again for him to not enjoy it. He slightly opened his mouth and Castiel took that as the hint to slip his tongue inside and explore Dean's mouth. Dean groaned slightly into Cas' mouth and everything seemed like it could finally be back to normal. Dean was already imaging where the rest of the day was going to go when suddenly…
"See my baby, tell her, tell her hurry home. Had no lovin'…" Cas and Dean broke apart and Dean's heart went into overdrive. That was a special ring. That was…
"Hey Lisa." Dean answered the phone, not looking away from Cas. Castiel stared into Dean's eyes, and he could see the Dean was conflicted.
"Hey Dean, are you okay? Will you be back soon?" She sounded nervous.
"Yeah, I um…should be back soon."
"Is Sam okay? Why did you have to go help him?"
"Yeah, Sam's fine. He just ran out of silver bullets."
"Oh, so will you be back in town tonight?"
"Yeah, I will."
"Okay, Ben was worried too, but I'll tell him you're okay."
"Was he? Aw yeah, tell him I'm fine. Hey Lis, can I call you back later? I've gotta get to work soon."
"Oh. Yeah sure, honey. I'll see you later?"
"Yeah…yeah…okay…bye."
"Okay, I love you, Dean."
"Yeah, I um…" Dean turned away from Cas and whispered. "Love you, too. Bye." He hurried up and hung up his phone then turned back towards Cas. The two locked eyes and Castiel tried not to show that he was aggravated.
"Dean, do you still love her?" Dean wasn't sure how to answer that question. He tried to avoid the question.
"I need to call work." Dean stood up and walked into the bathroom. He had decided to call into work and spend the day trying to figure out his feelings.
"Thank you for calling Miller's Auto, this is Sid. How may I help you?"
"Hey Sid, it's Dean. Will you tell Jeff that I won't be in today?"
"Yeah, sure. He was just bitching about you doing overtime anyway." Dean had been working hard and hadn't called in or given up a shift in the three months he had worked there. He even picked up as many shifts as he could.
"Thanks, Sid." Dean hung up, took a deep breath and then walked out of the bathroom. Dean saw Cas lying on his back on the bed, his arms behind his head and, Dean noticed, his shirt was unbuttoned. He was also staring up, watching the ceiling fan.
"Well, I've got the whole day off of work."
"You avoided my question." Castiel said in his deadpan tone, not taking his eyes off the fan. He just needed to know how Dean felt.
Dean sighed and sat on the bed next to Cas.
"Yeah Cas, I do love her. We made a life together."
"But is it really what you wanted for your life?" Cas sat up and looked at Dean. "You were hunting with Sam, and you had me there." Cas put his hand on Dean's knee, and Dean put his hand on top of it. He had to admit that that was the life. The life he had dreamed about while he was running Ben between baseball and school.
"Cas," Dean looked at him. Castiel looked back and they stared at each other for a long while, until Dean leaned in and gave him a kiss. Cas deepened the kiss and Dean wrapped his fingers in Cas' hair, pulling him closer. Cas slid his hand inside Dean's shirt and traced his hard chest and abs. Castiel couldn't help but notice he seemed even more toned than the last time. Dean slipped Cas' shirt off, then gently pushed the angel back, straddled his hips and kissed down his neck. Castiel closed his eyes, enjoying the feeling of the hunter's lips back on his body. Castiel quickly pulled Dean's shirt off. The man and the angel aligned their hips, feeling the other's erection growing. Dean kissed back up and his lips found Cas'. The two fumbled with the other's pants until they were both down to their boxers. Castiel knew what was coming and couldn't wait anymore. He slipped Dean's boxers off and Dean followed suit with Cas'.
"Shit, Cas. I uh…don't have anything." Dean groaned. Having Cas so close and having him be pulled away. Castiel rolled on top of Dean and then kissed his way up to Dean's ear.
"Then I guess we will figure something else out." Castiel nibbled Dean's ear lobe and then kissed his way down Dean's neck, leaving purple hickeys and then moving his lips down. Cas' tongue traced the head of Dean's penis and Dean groaned louder. He gripped the sheets as Cas moved his mouth down Dean's shaft and continued to move his tongue around. Dean couldn't hold it in anymore; he came in Cas' mouth. Castiel looked up and Dean and wiped his mouth on his hand. Dean rolled over on top of Cas to return the favor.
Afterwards, Castiel had his head on Dean's chest, both of them breathing heavily. Dean wrapped his arms around Cas and gently kissed his head. Dean knew he had a choice to make, and secretly he already knew who his heart belonged to; the problem was telling the other how he felt.