The Time is Now

After we head in to the B & B I head upstairs, I put my bag down and sit at the edge of the bed. I'm trying to decide if I should call or text her first. I need to find out if she's busy, Lord knows if I hear Adelaide or Nate in the background I will lose my nerve.

Ok so a text it is, I take out my phone and unlock it, scroll to the last number I have of hers.

Please let this be the same number, if I don't do this now I may lose my nerve and I don't want to regret not trying. I feel sick, my heart is in my throat, and I feel like I can't breathe.

I take a deep breath to try to relax.

I start to type:

"Hey Helena it's Myka. Are you busy? Can we talk?"

I hit send she doesn't answer right away which of course sends me in to a tail spin. Maybe she has a new number, maybe she's busy with Nate and Adelaide, maybe she doesn't want to talk to me or maybe she really is trying to stay away from me. All these thoughts are making me sick I feel like my heart is about to shatter all over again, if she doesn't answer what do I do, how do I ...suddenly a buzz.

"Hello darling. No I'm not busy it's good to hear from you."

"Can we talk? Can I call you?"

Another long pause.

"Sure."

"Ok. Give me a minute."

"Alright."

I take another deep breath here we go. I find her number again and hit send.

Ring...ring...ring...oh my God this is torcher...ring

"Hello."

"Helena."

My heart stops, it is so good to hear her voice, I never realized how much I missed it.

"Hello darling. It's so good to hear your voice, how are you?"

"I'm good. How are you?"

"I'm fine...I've missed you Myka."

There is a pause for a few minutes. How can she say that to me, still being in Boone living with HIM?

"Myka...Are you there?"

"Oh yeah Helena...sorry."

"Listen Helena the reason I called is because I need to talk to you. Can...can we meet?"

"Of course. Is everything ok Myka, I have to admit you have worried."

"No, no everything is fine I just really need to see you. Are you free?"

There is a long pause, which is starting to make me even more nervous.

"Of course, give me a couple of days to tie up a few things at work. Where would you like to meet?"

"Umm... Where are you now? I mean are you still in Boone?"

Oh my God I can't believe I just asked that, of course she's still in Boone why wouldn't she be.

"No...No I'm not in Boone anymore."

"Ok...wait what? Where are you?"

She's not in Boone anymore does that mean she's not with Nate, does this mean she's free? Easy Bering don't jump to conclusions. She may not feel the same way you feel. One thing at a time.

"I'm actually in Featherhead now."

"Oh...ok. So where would like to meet?"

"How about at the B & B on Saturday if that's alright with you."

"Uh sure...that sounds good. What time? How long will it take you to get here from Featherhead?"

"I'm only about 45 minutes away from Univille."

She is so close, how come I didn't know this, why didn't she try to call me. I can't worry about that now, I will ask those questions later right now I need to focus on one thing at a time.

"Myka?"

I was so caught up in my thoughts I forgot I was still on the phone.

"Helena I'm sorry. Ok so Saturday how about around 11 will that be ok with you."

"Of course darling that will be perfect."

"Ok, I will see you then. Oh Helena..."

"Yes."

I pause and take a deep breath.

"I missed you too."

I can hear the smile in her voice and I can't help but smile myself.

"I will see you Saturday darling."

"Saturday, yes. Be careful Helena."

"Always."