Not my Captain

Chapter 4

I don't own Bleach

"Oh Captain Hitsugaya" I said giving a small smile "You're back"

That was when I got my first look at him and his clothing. He was still dressed like a boy from the world of the living. I couldn't believe the thought that crossed my mind 'I wandered if he was planing to keep it so I could see him in it again' craziness. But that wasn't what made me really look at him. It was the look on his face, he looked at me like I had lost my mind. I sat up in his bed and looked at him again he then shoved my Zanpakutō in my face like I had done something wrong.

"What's wrong" I asked at a complete loss for words until I said the only thing I could think of "I thought that you'd be glad that I had it."

"Yes it great" He snapped at me "Why my I ask is it still covered in your blood?"

Ah that was why he was mad. I was starting to regret not cleaning it when I got it. But I pushed that aside I had a plan and I was going to do this at my pace no one eases.

"Because I just got it from the 5th tonight" I said getting on my knees reaching for it "I was planning on cleaning it in the morning."

Once again he looked at me like I had lost my mind and maybe I had I wasn't really sure. I sighed and reached out to take my Zanpakutō from him but he pulled it out of my reach. I felt like he was playing a game of keep away with me.

"You went to the 5th tonight?" He said in a raised voice almost yelling "Please tell me that you didn't go in there alone"

"So what if I did" I scoffed at him

"What where you thinking Momo?" He yelled this time

He had never yelled at me before so I was shocked.

"That I should get it over and done with" I said getting to my feet "I am technically I am still the lieutenant of the 5th. I'm capable of walking around soul society without the need of a baby sitter."

I yanked my Zanpakutō out of his hands and put it back where it was.

"Oh but I think you do" He stated crossing his arms across his chest "after all I did have to save your life"

I was shocked that he had just said that to me. In that moment I forgot that we had grown up together, forget who he was, and that he was a captain. All that mattered at this point was just how mad I was.

"I didn't ask you to" I snapped at him

I had never been mad at him as I was at this moment. I slue of insults started to run through my mind as we eyed each other.

"You're over reacting" I said looking at him

"Just go back to sleep" he ordered me "you and I WILL talk about this in the morning."

He had just ordered me like I was a member of the 10th. He could order me about but and he could pull rank one me. He was a Captain and that meant that he had a higher rank them I did although if he was going to order me about his orders had to be cleared through my Captain. Or in other words Captain Hitsugaya would have to go through Aizen. However the old man's orders trumped them all. It really was confusing and I wasn't even really sure that I understood it, but I could obey any order by any captain...normally. Tōshirō had just pissed me off.

"I beg your pardon" I snapped at him

"Do I need to repeat myself?" he said in a condescending tone as he walked into his closet "go back to sleep you look like hell"

That was it for me, I was beyond mad and I wanted to hit him across his white spiky haired head face. And it seemed that he was reaching a boiling point as well because the room was growing cold. As I looked at him I thought about all the strides I had made and I personally thought that I had come a long way from how I looked and felt the first few days after I woke up. And he didn't seem to notice any of that. I was done, I wasn't about to stay in his division any longer if he was going to be like that. I picked up my things and I marched to the door.

"I do not look like hell" I yelled at him "I've come a long way since you last saw me. It's not my fault that you've been playing around in the world of the living all of this time and haven't see what I have done Tōshirō"

"Hey" He yelled back at me not missing a beat "Mind your manners, It's CAPTAIN HITSUGAYA!"

I stopped in mid step shocked that he just corrected me about me addressing him by his title.

"Oh you can take you're title and shove it" I snapped back "So what if you're a captain, you're still the same short boy that I grew up what."

It got so cold in that room that I could see my breath and ice was forming on the walls. But I didn't care I wanted to get as far away from him and that room as I could. I walked to the door cloths and Zanpakutō in hand. I reached over to the door and was about to pull it open when it was frozen shout with a thick layer of ice covering it.

"You're right I'm a captain." He yelled at me "And as such you need to respect me for that."

"Respect isn't given" I stated "It's earned"

"Really" He scoffed at me "what about the respect you give you old captain blindly. A man who I might reminder your tried to kill you. And damn near came close to it too. If I had not been there you would have died. Why are you being so ungrateful"

"Ungrateful?! Do you want me thank you? Thank You Captain Hitsugaya" I stated as I bowed to him "for saving my life but I've never been helpless and you shouldn't treat me as so."

Captain Hitsugaya doesn't seem to know what to do. It looked like he was trying to stop the winter that was forming in the room.

"Just go back to sleep Momo" He sighed at me "Stop fighting with me and just do what I say"

I wasn't going to do what he wanted and I didn't know why I was being so willful but I didn't want to do what he told me to do.

"I'll fight you all I want" I snapped at him

I marched to the door and was about to slide it open when it froze over and I wheeled on him.

"unfreeze the damn door" I yelled at him "I'm going back to the 5th"

The ice that formed on the door seemed to increase in thickness when I said that. His hands clenched into fists with white knuckles.

"Like hell you are" he told me

He walked at me, he was two maybe one step from being in my face and I started to panic and did the first thing that came to me mind.

"THRUST" I yelled the Kidō spell at him and he was pushed back to the other wall giving me enough time to turn to the door "Bakudō 33 RED FLAME CANNON!"

The door exploded and I very calmly started walking out the door. I walked out the door and walked as quickly as I could in the direction of the 5th.

"STRIKE!" Captain Hitsugaya yelled at me from behind me

I was engulfed in a red light and I couldn't move. He had never used a Kidō on me before just like how I had never used it on him. He had hit me that one time but that was because I was trying to kill him at the time and I was not really proud that. I watched over my shoulder as he walked up to me with a look that I didn't understand and or like. I had never seen him look like that before and I wasn't sure if I liked what I saw.

"You want to use Kidō on me then fine" He stated in a low tone that he never used on me before "But you really should wait until you're back to your full strength Momo. When was the last time you performed any? I'd have to say it was right you went into that comma. Have you even bothered to practice Kidō scene you woke up?"

That felt like a taunt and I narrowed my eyes a him. He walked around me so that we now faced each other. The look in his eyes made me feel like I was being being stocked, almost like I was his pray. In the back of my mind I was wondering why he was looking at me like that. As I stood there I started to calm down and I realized how much I had really messed up. I had just gotten into a fight with a Captain, yelling at said Captain, and then using Kidō on the same Captain. If he wanted to he could put back into and this time jail for a long time. I closed my eyes and tried to get out of his Kidō spell but he was right, I wasn't even close to my full strength.

"Let me go Captain Hitsugaya" I demanded

I felt so frustrated and I felt tear well in my eyes but before the tears fell from my eyes the red walls fell and I could move again. I looked at him and nodded my head in thanks unable to say anything to him. I started to walk away in the direction of the 5th just wanting this night to end. Everything was just starting to become too much for me today. At this point all I wanted was to get as far from Captain Hitsugaya as I could. But it seemed that Captain Hitsugaya had other plans because he flash stepped in front of me with a sigh.

"Get back to the 10th Momo" He ordered me

"Please stop ordering me around Captain Hitsugaya" I said softly still on the verge of tears "I don't want to be at the 10th if you're going to be there. I shouldn't even be allowed to be there. Please just let me go"

That was the first time that I let him know that I really felt guilty about everything. His angry look in his eyes softened and he was looking at me with a much softer look. I looked down at my feet not able to look him in the eyes. That was when he took a step to me and pulled me into a hug. I wasn't sure of what to do so I tried to push him off of me but he only held me closer to him. For a brief moment I let myself enjoy his arms around me and his smell but I really couldn't enjoy it.

"Please let me go" I said

"Why?" He asked with a laugh in his voice "It looks like you need a hug"

I tried to push him again when I felt scars on his chest that I didn't know of. I stopped pushing I looked up at him.

"Is that from when...Aizen?" I asked

"Yeah" was all he said

I pulled away from him and this time he didn't try to stop me. I still have no idea how I was able to go from pissed to sad in the blink of an eye. It could have just been a girl thing then again it very well be guilt. And I had a lot of that now a days

"That is why I don't want to be around you" I said to him "I almost cost you you're life. I can not live with myself if I really had, had a hand in your death."

"Stop that Momo" he said sternly to me "You and I grew up together I've known you longer then anyone else here. I'm always going to want to take care of you, protect you, look out for you, and I will kill that bastard for you. Nothing you say is ever going to chance that. So just come back to the 10th and go back to sleep. I don't want you alone at the 5th. Please I don't want you to be alone."

I gave a small smile.

"But I was alone the whole time you where gone" I said still not sure what to do

"No you where not" He told me with a shrug "Izuru was staying in Rangiku's room. He was keeping any eye on you for me, I guess he didn't keep that good of an eye on you if you thought that you where alone. Honestly, Momo I know you're every move. And before you say anything I know you think you don't need a babysitter but I watched you almost die once I don't think that I could do it again."

I gave up the fight, I just didn't have any more in me. So I just let him pull me back to the 10th and back to his room. While he fixed the door I stood there feeling bad. When the door was fixed enough that there was a wall again (sort of) he stood there waiting for me to get back into the bed. As soon as my body hit the bed my body relaxed. I rolled over onto my side so my back was to him as he moved about the room. My life really was a mess and I just needed to have myself a good cry.