I Promise

I don't own Bleach

I was starting to become more like myself over the next few days but I still kept thinking about the maybe. Captain Hitsugaya and I ate dinner together and he made sure that I didn't need anything when he left me in his room. It when two days after I had cleaned my Zanpakutō, Captain Hitsugaya hugged me and I was stuck thinking about the possibility of the maybe. I was in my sleep ware when it hit me I wanted I needed to talk to him and maybe I could turn that in something other then a maybe.

Sill in the night clothing I took off down the hall to the office that I know that Captain Hitsugaya was sleeping. I looked at the door to the 10th office and knocked.

"Yeah" Captain Hitsugaya said

"5th division lieutenant Momo Hinamori" I stated feeling like those words chock on the way out "asking permission to enter sir"

This was the first time that I did anything like this yet alone to Captain Hitsugaya.

"I thought you left the 5th" He asked looking at me thoughtfully

It all made scene now he's smell made me fell so safe, why I felt so guilty, why the thought of him dying because of me hurt me so much, and why I fought him so hard the other night. I looked at the door of the office taking a deep breath as pushed it open.

"Until I'm told other wise that is still my title sir" I said "last night you said we would be having a talk today."

I waited for him to say something anything he was taking his sweet damn time and when he walked further into the office I started to feeling like like this was a mistake. He gave a little nod of his head that I took to mean that I should follow him into the room. I closed the door behind me and walked to his desk feeling like this was about to be a big mistake.

"I'm sorry about the fight the other night Captain Hitsugaya" I began while I fiddled with my hands "I know better then to attack a captain and I'm sorry to say that I've done it to you...twice."

"It's fine Momo" Tōshirō said "I don't care about it I understand you're under a lot of stress and I have a feeling that I wasn't helping much that night."

I smile a little, same old Tōshirō cold as ice on the outside and yet he wasn't that harsh.

"I would also like to thank you for coming to my rescue when Aizen tried to kill me. Although you really had no reason to jump in and do that" I stated wondering if it was always going to be this hard to talk to him now "I'm also sorry that you where hurt in process."

"No reason?" He asked me looking coldly

The room got cold again, I was really starting to get sick of that. It seemed that every time I said something that he didn't seem to like he would lose control. I sighed because this wasn't how I wanted this to go I was going to pour my heart out to him tell him everything about how I felt. But he was just taking it the wrong way.

"Why would you think I have to reason to protect you Momo" He snapped at me closing the distance between us.

"What reason do you have to want to protect me then" I said taking steps back away from him "If it's just because grew up together and were childhood friends..."

His hands clenched into fists and he looked away from me. I know then that there was more to it then just him being protective for the sack of our childhood friendship, he felt something more for me.

"Is that what you think?" He asked me his eyes softening "That you're just my childhood friend Momo?"

"I don't know what to think" I said feeling trapped by him

He reached out for me but as he moved to touch me he was slow. It was like he was trying not to scare me as he touched me.

"I think maybe there's more too this then childhood friendship" I said looking at him "I think that because when I was a asleep it felt like I was trapped in a world of darkness. I remember hearing someone talking to me, at first I couldn't make out who was taking. But as the sounds took shape into words the were words about some of my old childhood memories. that voice talked about watermelons, bed wetting, and me leaving for school and I know that it was you."

The next thing I know Tōshirō pulled me into a hug I didn't think he was capable of him to give and I didn't try to fight it this time.

"I want you to know Momo" He said in a soft whisper "You don't have to do this alone I'm right here for you. You have my room as long as you want I don't want you going any place that might upset you."

"I know that I'm not alone" I said into his shoulder "I just feel so guilty for everything that I had a hand in. I mean I attacked Izuru, believed that letter, and attacking you. And then to make it worse I attacked you my oldest friend twice."

I had a flash of me fighting Tōshirō and how he only defended himself from me.

"I think we can forget about you trying to kill me" Tōshirō said with a slight laugh

"You where my best friend growing up and even when we where children I had a hard time reading you." I said thinking about how I still didn't have a clue what was going on in his head "You are a lot like your Zanpakutō cold as ice. But that has never stopped me has it from wanting to be part of your life has it."

We both started to laugh a little and I felt the stress just fall away.

"Not that I let you stop me" I laughed at the scowl on his face "I would still just show up and bug the hell out of you and you always had a small smile when I would leave so I know that you didn't really care."

"I liked that you would come around" He said shyly

" Looks like Aizen did something good when he tried to kill me."

He scowled at me again and I couldn't help the small laugh, It felt so good to laugh again.

"Don't give me that look" I stated with a smile "the funny thing about betrayal..."

"Momo" He cut me off again

I sighed I reached out and touched his arm and he looked up at me.

"The funny thing about betrayal" I tried again feeling at a loss "is that you can finally see what's right in front of you. I've had it rough for a wile now but the one that that has always been there, has been you Tōshirō. You made sure that I wasn't alone while you where in the world of the living, that I wouldn't have to be alone in at the 5th, then after that fight you didn't force me to talk to you when I wasn't ready, then you let Matsumoto knock some since into me without it seeming like she was. You are a good man Tōshirō Hitsugaya and a great leader!"

"I don't feel like a good man" He said to me with a dark tone that made me shiver "But I can promise you this! That I'll make this right so that your soul isn't fighting this fight anymore and so that I can see you smiling face again. I miss seeing that Momo."

I don't know what came over me but I kissed him right there on his lips. When I pulled away I quickly blushing and looked away from him.

"I'm sorry" I said quickly and looking down at my feet unable to look at him "I shouldn't have done that"

The next thing I know his finger where under my chin and tilting my head up to look up into his blue green eyes. He looked at me thoughtfully and then he leaned into me and this time he kissed me. When I pulled away I couldn't help but smile my big old smile.

"The reason why I fight so hard to protect you is because you have always been more then just my childhood friend" Tōshirō told me and kissed me again then he switched into what I was starting to call Captain mode "Now about you're living arrangement like I said earlier, until you are told to return to the 5th you're staying her with me."

"I do believe we already covered that" I said with a sake of my head "Is that an order sir"

He looked at me slipping out of Captain mode and back into man that I care about so much.

"How about we call it a request" He said with a small smile as he took my hand

"I can do a request" I said smiling

I let go of his hand and walked toward the door wanting to get some sleep.

"I'll see you tomorrow then" I said opening the door and walking out heading to his bedroom.

"Oh and Momo" He called to me as he appeared at the door to the office

I turned and looked at him.

"Don't wet the bed" He said with a small laugh "Sooner or later I'll be getting it back"

"I promise" was all I was able to get out

Once I was able to get back into Tōshirō's room I felt my face to heat up again from a blush. Tōshirō and I had just kissed it seemed that things really had changed.