Day 26.
Roxas said that he had been here
25 days yesterday.
He says I got here on his
Day 21. That means I'm...
5 days old. It feels longer than that.
I got up, met Roxas in the hall.
We walked to the Job Room
and overheard
Xaldin and Demyx talking.
Roxas and I walked up to Xigbar
and I asked What is wrong?
Xigbar says, "Someone at
Castle Oblivion
was terminated." Terminated?
Xigbar and Roxas leave for their mission.
Funny how I can go on my missions alone but
Roxas can't. Maybe because he can't remember anything?
Maybe because he's the Key of Destiny?
I walk up to Saix. Who was terminated? I ask.
"It's none of your business." He replies, and sends me
on my way. I do the mission, which was defeating a
Darkside
in Wonderland. At the end of the day I go up to the Clock Tower.
Only Xion is there. Where is Roxas? I ask, she shrugs.
We eat the sickly-sweet mouth-puckering ice cream, and
call it a day. I lay in bed, wondering,
Was it Axel that was terminated?
I didn't know. I didn't want to know, yet I did, I truly did.
I guess I care for Axel's well being. After that thought I scold myself:
We can't care. I can't care. No hearts, no caring.
Yet something inside me is telling me I care. I guess I
not-care. I not-worry about Axel, I am not-friends with
Roxas and Xion, since to be friends is to have a heart.
I don't care whether we're not-friends or friends, though.
Not-friends is good enough for me.
Roxas handed me this journal yesterday.
He said, "Write your thoughts and feelings down."
But how can I write my feelings down
if I don't have any? I rest my case.