Chapter 3:
Cherry blossoms were falling, leaves were turning orange and the cold wind was blowing, the autumn season announcing its arrival. It had been his usual day at Raijin High School, nothing special. Since he was such a lone-wolf, no one never really bothered to come and talk to him. Not that he minded this, because all he wanted was to watch and observe the specie known as "human" with nothing in return. He had been all alone until middle school, but then he met Shinra, who somehow seemed to get along with him well. After Shinra and before Shinra, there were none. Sure Izaya has dated many girls in his high school life but all of that was just a part of his one of many experiments, to see how the girls react to different things. It had been his hobby for quite a long time, and he didn't really mind being alone either, because being alone gave him more time and more concentration for his human observation.
It had been like this for he doesn't know how long, until that day. He had been all alone ever since he opened his eyes, but that day for the very first time he started to notice the holes in his life that had been there all the time.
The day when he started to feel the pangs of being alone so much that it tore him to pieces; the day when he first realized his crush for Shizuo Heiwajima, the guy with the most non-human strength in the whole school.
It was that karaoke party in the autumn of his last year at school, the karaoke session that almost all the Raijin High School remembers and can no forget even if they want to. Because it was that very karaoke party when Shizuo and Izaya sang together, for the very first time, and marked their duet over the memories of the entire class.
The Magnet, a vocaloid song sung by Hatsune Miku and Luke Megurine.
Shizuo had sung, not because he wanted to, but because he had been challenge. Not by the flea, but by Shinra.
Shinra was the one who came with this plan, Izaya doesn't remember what exactly Shinra did to manipulate Shizuo and made him angry enough to come and sing in front of all the people those highly embarrassing lyrics, but he remembers his own reason for attending that party. He had agreed to attend this Karaoke party because of his sudden urge to see people singing their hearts out, over a song that is not their own; to see how the people would react. What sort of expressions they would make, would they be able to bring out all the emotions and feelings behind the original version of the songs? How would they portray the original emotions of the singer that he might have had when he wrote the song?
Yes this had been his reasoning. He loved to observe human after all, and he wanted to know each and every aspect of their lives.
And it was a pretty successful experiment too, except for one thing that ruined his whole life; and has been ruining his life ever since.
The song echoed through the corridors of his minds, knocking his heart gently once again, stirring the memories of the day he sang the song together with the monster of Ikebukuro.
"A feeble fire is lit at the edge of my heart;
Without warning, it spreads into burning passion;
My butterfly flapped about aimlessly;
Leaving behind some powder on your hand"
And then came Shizuo's turn.
"Pulling apart our intertwined fingers;
Moving from our lips to our tongues;
What we're going to do might be unforgivable;
And that's precisely why we're so fired up"
Yes, these lyrics. The way Shizuo sang them, and the way his voice echoed throughout the room, and the way everyone had fell silent, and the way everyone had become so astonished; he himself couldn't help but stare at the blonde, feeling a tingly sensation pricking his heart sweetly at the steady voice of blonde. He could literally feel butterflies flying here and there in his stomach; Shizuo sounded just too perfect singing them. His voice was so calm, even though his face was painted with his usual scowl and that annoyed look, yet his voice showed nothing of it. In face it was in complete synchronization with the lyrics.
It was hard for him to continue the song any further, his legs were feeling weak all of a sudden and Shizuo's husky voice was stroking his ears again and again, making his heart soar more and more.
Baka Shizu chan! The hell he can sing so perfectly!
He felt a little bothered, by the excellence of Shizuo's singing ability. Shizuo was the only most unpredictable human of the lot. In fact, to Izaya, Shizuo wasn't a human at all. He was a monster. But how can a monster's signing stir such feelings in him?
"In silver chains please lock me, cage me and possess me;
Show me that you care, burn in your own wrath and jealousy;
I know it sounds weird, but that's how I like it;
We can go much farther than most can tolerate"
Shizu chan sang these lyrics so easily, as if he didn't even know what words he was saying.
I think Shizuo chan didn't really understood at all, his thickhead would have never got the real meaning behind these words, and he is such a protozoan after all.
Izaya reasoned, trying to shrug off the feelings forming in his chest at every single word of the song sung by Shizuo. His voice sounded not just perfect, but sincere and honest too. And that has been the thing that blew his mind off, and made his heart fall for him.
"What has been repeating is not our dream;
But the unmistakably realistic "we";
I know as soon as we touch, we can't turn back;
But that's fine, for you are my one and only love"
And with these lyrics still playing, an image of some girl formed up in front Izaya out of the thin air, a girl messing with his Shizuo while he stood, saying nothing and accepting everything that the girl did to him. The girl, who, without any fear, touched his hair, stroked his face and stared at him with such an innocent expression on her face. And Shizuo did the same, in fact the expression on Shizuo's face was way more than innocent, it was honest. He looked calm, and peaceful, and the girl ran her fingers through his hair, and he smiled at her. The backside of her head, which was facing Izaya, contorted, and the girl's face appeared there too. But her expressions were malicious, her eyes shimmering with evilness, and her lips curved in such a devious smirk that for a moment Izaya froze. She leaned against Shizuo, her arms forming out of nowhere and wrapping themselves around Shizuo's waist. Izaya could hear her evil laughter echoing throughout the entire place, but Shizuo seemed to be unaware of it. Either he was unaware, or he was accepting her evil laughter too just as he accepted her strokes and touches. Izaya gulped
"S-Shizu chan"
Shizuo didn't even blink.
He inched forward, carefully, glaring at the woman who was glaring him back.
"Shizu chan!" Izaya reached into his pocket, took a knife out and launched it at Shizuo's direction. But before it could reach Shizuo, the girl with the brown locks caught it, and shattered it, adding some more evilness to her smile.
"Shizuo is mine" saying this, she leaned forward, her lips curved.
"No…" Izaya muttered, fearing what might be coming next.
Their faces came closer. Izaya swallowed hard.
"No…."
And they me-
"FUCK OFF!" Izaya yelled and sat up on his couch, panting, his whole body drenched in sweat and his heart beating fast.
"Whats up, Izaya?" Namie, his secretary asked, lowering the volume of the television.
"Let's become one, its okay not to be able to turn back;
That's fine, for you are my one and only love"
And like this, the song faded and the room fell completely silent. The only audible feature in the silent room was Izaya's beating heart and his ragged breath.
"….Usotuski Shizu chan" he muttered, recalling the last sentence of the song once again.
"You are sweating, had a bad dream?" Namie asked, looking somewhat bothered at his boss's vulnerable state.
His eyes shot up and glared at her.
"I SAID FUCK OFF! Why in the fuck you played such a song when I was asleep?!" Izaya yelled, trying to control the intense jealous feeling in his heart and the anger that was eating him up from the inside. Fuck that girl! Izaya thought bitterly.
"A-ahh I am sorry. It was just on tv and.. I made sure t-….." Namie's voice trailed off, seeing that horrible look on her boss's face; those red eyes boring into her, making her tremble. Sweat popped up over her head.
"A-ahh since you are awake, I am gonna get you a coffee cup! H-hahaha!" she got up and hurriedly scurried to the kitchen, not wanting to experience a really pissed off Izaya.
Izaya bit his thumb as his secretary went to kitchen.
"Stupid Shizu chan. Messing up with my dreams!" He said to himself, hating his current vulnerable state. He has never felt this vulnerable before, at first Shizu chan ignored me and now he has come haunting me in my dreams too. Argh!
He got up from his couch, only to fall down again.
He blinked in surprise, astonished at his body's current position. His legs were feeling like jelly, too weak to walk properly.
"God! This is what I get for chasing Shizu chan twice a day!" He yelled, and flunked the first thing that he found, his cell phone, away.
It broke into parts, and he bent down, feeling much more broken then the phone.
"Usotuski..." he muttered again, grabbing his pounding head with his both hands.
Namie's head popped out of the kitchen.
"Coffee's ready!"
He looked up at her, glaring. He had sworn not to show his weak vulnerable side in front of the people, even in his current downtrodden state, he can't risk that. He is an information broker after all. So he forced his body to get, plastering an emotionless expression on his face and walking towards his secretary.
"Thanks" saying so, he turned and walked upstairs to his own room, leaving a taken aback Namie all alone with the word "thanks" echoing through her head.
P.S: The song is Magnet, you can even find a Drrr! version of it OwO I just sooo love that song .. and i love to imagine Shizuo and Izaya singing it. oh btw lyrics translations i got from a couple of different site so.. yeh I don't own any XD
You better check its Drrr version. its super epic XD it was by Nico Nico singers and actually featured Shinra, Shizuo, Izaya and Kadota. But.. I just love to imagine these two singing it alone so.. yep I just came up with this thing T~T I hope no one would mind ._.