Chapter 4
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Just a short update:)
I woke up in a very familiar bed, in a very familiar bedroom, with an extremely familiar pair of arms wrapped around me. I sighed happily for a moment, wishing that this could last forever. Just lying here, in Spencers arms, away from the rest of the world. Unfortunately however that wasn't the case, and as much as I just wanted the whole world to go away, it wasn't going to.
I carefully and quietly stood up, and unwrapped myself from the beautiful brunettes arms. I looked out Spencers window to see that it was now dark. We must have been sleeping for a long time.
I decided I should probably leave now. My parents probably are to busy fighting to even notice that I'm not home yet, but I'm sure eventually they will notice and the last thing I need is another reason for them to be arguing. I could already see it now. My mom would say something like "she lives with you! You should know where she is!" And my dad would retort back with something along the lines of "Well she's your daughter too! You have just as much responsibility!"
On that awful note, I began making my way to Spencers door, without making any noise. Upon reaching her desk forever I couldn't help but to let my eyes wander and what I saw broke my heart just a little. There sitting on her desk was the pill bottle. The Adderall pills. She hasn't thrown them out. Which means she hasn't stopped taking them.
I couldn't help but to let anger take over me. I know I shouldn't be mad, I have no right to be mad. Just like she had no right to judge me and Noel, I have no right to judge why she is still taking those pills. Even though I know this, I'm still angry. I blame those stupid pills for our breakup. Yes, it wasn't just those pills that broke us up. In fact those pills probably aren't even 10 precent of the reason were over, but I still blame them. Its easier blaming the thing that I had nothing to do with. Its easier blaming the thing that I didn't screw up.
So, now as I stand in Spencers bedroom, I found myself trying to make a choice. Part of me wanted to take those pills. Take them with me, and then get rid of them. Flush them, bury them, just throw them out the window, it didn't really matter how, all that matter is that they would be gone. But another part of me told me that it was a bad idea. That I should just leave, don't look back, and go back to the way things were. Pretending I never saw them.
But I didn't want things to go back to normal, I didn't want to pretend. I have seen them, and now I had to do something about it. Because I wasn't about to let Spencer go down that horrible dark path again. The path she was on two weeks ago. The path she was on when she broke up with me. I didn't like that path.
I grabbed the pill bottle, and with that I proceeded to make my way out of the Hasting house. I would have to walk home but I didn't mind it would be a good time to think.
Spencers pov
I slowly began to feel myself wake up. When did I fall asleep? I confusedly asked myself. After a moment however, the memories came back to me. Aria! She's here, I fell asleep with her. A huge grin came to my face. The grin quickly disappeared though when I realized Aria wasn't with me anymore.
She had left. I shouldn't be surprised. I shouldn't have expected her to stay here, with me, all night. I wish she did, I wish she had stayed cuddled up in my arms all night long, but I understand why she didn't. I at least wish she said goodbye first. I thought I at least earned a goodbye.
I sighed and stood up from my bed. Checking my phone I saw that it was 11:00. Wow. I slept for 10 hours straight. Thats the best sleep I've gotten in weeks. Those stupid pills obviously screwed up my sleeping patterns an intense amount. But ever since I broke up with Aria I have stopped taking them, and I promised myself I wouldn't ever take them again. My sleeping has been getting a bit better since, but nothing compared to the 10 hours I just got.
The thought of the pills came floating back to my mind. Although I haven't taken them in so long, I still couldn't find it in me to throw them out. I don't know why I keep holding on to them, its just going to temp me. Maybe its about time I finally flush them.
I promised Aria I would fix us. And step one on fixing myself would be getting rid of the pills. So I made my choice. I walked to my desk to retrieve the small bottle.
I furrowed my eyebrows. Where are they? I could have sworn they were on top of my desk. I opened the desk drawers and searched them with no luck.
I then checked my dresser, my bedside table, under my bed, in the bathroom and in my closet, and couldn't find them anywhere. Where the hell could they have gone? Did someone take them? Did I leave them somewhere? Did they-
My thoughts were then abruptly stopped as a new thought popped into my mind. Aria. It had to be her. She was the last one in my room since I've seen the pills. And this is so something Aria would do.
She must have seen the pills, and decided to take them and get rid of them. A small smile appeared on my lips. Aria cares about me. She doesn't want me taking them, she stole them so I couldn't take them, she actually does still care about me. I couldn't be mad at her for that.
Of course, now I should probably tell her that I haven't taken them, I don't want her being mad at me, thinking I've been taking them this whole time. She might not believe me but I still had to tell her. Also the pill bottle should be full, and theres a date on it, which means I'll have proof I haven't taken any.
I'll tell her tomorrow at school. Considering its too late to talk to her right now.
Arias pov
A new morning finally approached. Last night, after I got back from Spencers things had been,to say the least, stressful. Turns out my parents actually did notice I was gone, and did fight about it for an hour at least. I also wasn't able to fall asleep much considering I slept for so long at Spencers. It was a pretty crap night. And Spencers pill bottle still sat in my room.
I don't know why I didn't get rid of it. Honestly I should have flushed them the moment I walked into my door. But I didn't. Now they sit on my bedside table. I swung my legs over the edge of my bed and stood up, picking up the bottle as I did so. I then kneeled to the floor and reached under my bed for the box I was looking for.
Yes, I keep a secret box under my bed. Its mostly filled with meaningful things from me and Ezras relationship. Theres also a necklace Spencer had given me, a few old -A messages that I couldn't just throw out, some shitty poems I attempted to write, never finished, but didn't want to throw out, and some other unimportant things. It was just a box of things I didn't want other people finding. It started out small, just putting in, things from dates with Ezra. But then it turned into a place where I put almost anything I wanted hidden. And now Spencers pill bottle will be added to that collection.
I placed it in, and then pushed the box back under my bed. I'll throw them out eventually. I told myself. Just not yet.
I made my way into school, and a few more 'slut' and 'whore' remarks were thrown my way, but luckily it had died down a lot today. I guess the school is already starting to move on to whatever new piece of gossip is out there.
After opening my locker and grabbing my books, I was met by Spencer. "Hey Ar" She spoke. "Hi" I said. Spencer sighed. "I know you took them" She said. I locked my eyes on Spencers. "If your asking for them back-" I began but Spencer cut me off. "No no! I don't want them, I'm glad you took them actually. I swear I haven't taken them since the last night you saw me take them. I guess I just didn't have it in me to throw them out, but I'm glad you did" Spencer explained to me.
Spencer hadn't taken them. This was a relief for me. "You haven't taken them?" I beamed, just wanting to confirm. Spencer smiled in return. "Nope, and I don't want to. Ever again" She added. "Good" I nodded, beginning to walk to class, only to have Spencer start walking beside me. "Did you get rid of them?" She asked casually. "Uh yeah, flushed them last night" I lied.
Why am I lying? Uh maybe because I don't want her to know I kept them. Why did I keep them? Ugh I don't know.
"Ok I'm glad. Thanks Aria, I like knowing you still care about me" Spencer said. I stopped walking and met her eyes once again. "Of course I care about you still. Just like how you cared about me, yesterday I mean. Thank you for that Spencer" I told her, knowing I owed her for yesterday. "Don't worry about it Ar" She said. Just then the warning bell sounded, and everyone began heading to class. "Well I better go, but uh, we'll talk later right?" Spencer asked, sounding un sure, as if she thinks that I might not want to talk to her later. "Yeah definitely, Spence" I agreed, reassuring her. Spencer smiled, and with that, she left. I don't know what is starting to happen between us. But so far it looks like were on the right track to at least becoming friends again.
A/N Hm..whats Aria going to do with the pills? And will Spencer and Aria start things up again or are they officially friend zoned?