Cancer can take away all of my physical abilities. It cannot touch my mind, it cannot touch my heart, and it cannot touch my soul. - Jim Valvano

Chapter 2

Bella's POV

For the first time in month, I was succeful in convincing my family that only one person had to go with me and not the entire Swan Family. Usually both of my parents, Meredith, Jamie and Xander would accompany me. Sometimes even Kathleen, when she was forced to go. I tried to talk to them several times, that they don't have to come with me, since I know what I have to do in the hospital. Now they finally agreed, after I put up a quite convincing show. Only my father would accompany me today and the others would stay at home.

''Bella are you sure, you don't want anyone else to come with you?'' My mother Renee replied with a concerned look. I nodded, taking my bag from the cupboard next to the door.

''Yes I'm 99% sure Mom. I know you're not feeling well today and Dad comes with me, so I'll be fine.'' I reassured her with a soft smile.

She still didn't look all too convinced, but we've had the same conversation yesterday and she did agree to it. I hope she sticks to it.

''We've had this Renee. You know it's all too much for Bella if everyone accompanies her.'' Dad said softly, as he pulled her into a hug.

''I know...but if anything happens..''

''..You'll be the first I'll call.'' Dad finished her sentence and gave her a quick kiss on her forehead. Mom sighed and took a few steps closer to me.

''I want to know every little detail the doctors tell you today. Even if it's unnecessary. Otherwise I'll call Dr. Lewis myself.'' Mom told me with a stern look. She had her hands on my arms and was looking directly into my eyes.

''Yes Mom I promise. Plus Dad's also there and I bet you'll call him every 5 minutes to be updated.'' I said rolling my eyes at my all too worried mother.

I went through a lot of those moments with either my mother or Meredith. One time she was even worse than today. A day before my next appoinment my mother got sick, so she had to stay at home and believe me when I say it wasn't nice at all for the ones going and staying. She called every two minutes and my Dad nearly lost his mind. Kathleen stayed at home as always and she told us how unbearable Mom got once we hung up the telefone.

''Okay.. be safe.'' Mom said before she pulled me in a tight hug. I smiled and wrapped my arms around her body.

''Love you mom.''

''I love you too Bella. Always and Forever.'' Mom told me. I had no idea what it was, but for some reason it felt as if she said goodbye to me. There was love, sadness and longing in her voice and it killed me.

''Always and Forever'' I echoed her.

My mother was the one suffering the most, because of my cancer. She was a strong independend woman before my diagnose, but after the doctors informed her how sick I am, she became very insecure and weak. Nowadays she checks on me every half an hour, which can be really annoying, but I know she only does it because she loves me. And exactly that insecurity that she has, is the reason why I'd rather take only my Dad to today's appointment.

''Let's go Bells.'' Dad said, opening the front door. I slowly pulled away from my mother. I wish I could make her happy, but I know the only thing that would truly make her happy is when all her family is healthy and happy. Which I'm not and unfortunately there's nothing I can do about it.

We walked out of the house. I looked back and saw my mother standing at the door frame as she looked after us. Little Xander showed up next to her and she picked him up. I don't know what is was, but he said something that made her laugh, which on the other hand made me smile.

Dad opened the passenger seat for me and I climbed into the car, throwing my bag at the seats behind me. I buckled my seatbelt and turned onn my phone, to be a little distracted. Even though Dad wasn't one of the persons that talk a lot, the chance that he'll want to talk about my sickness or anything in that direction still consist. Luckily he didn't ask me anything the whole drive and the silence felt surprisingly nice. We arrived at the hospita withing a hour and I quickly jumped out of the car once we arrived. I just wanted it to be done.

''I think you forgot something Bells.'' Dad called after me as he closed the door of his car. He walked the other side and pointed to the back seats. He took my bag out and held it up.

''Oh I almost forgot. Thanks Dad.'' I told him with a smile, as I took my bag from his hands.

''You did forget Bells.'' Dad reminded me with a smirk. I rolled my eyes.

We entered the hospital and there it was again. The smell of sickness and death and tears. Oh yeah, many many tears. But the air was also filled with many laughters or happy cries, from the ones who just got the good message that their loved one will get better. Even hope like the increase of the percentage of the survival chance could make them smile. Yes only a few little numbers could magically make once devastated people happy again.

''Ahh..Charlie! Bella!. Pleasure to meet you again.'' I heard Dr. Lewis' voice from behind me. Dad and I turned around at the same time to see my doctor walking towards us with a smile.

Why was he smiling like that?

''Henry, good to see you too.'' Dad said with a grin, as he went to greet Dr. Lewis. I still don't get why they had to call each other by first name. Calling someone by first name means you're close. And I don't want to be close to the person that someday will tell my parents I died. The one person, that will shatter their world.

''I don't want to be rude.. but why are you smiling so widely?''I asked Dr. Lewis and his smile got wider. Oh boy.

''Maybe it would be more appropriate to talk somewhere were we're not under so many people?'' Dr. Lewis suggested and gestured towards the hallway.

''Of course.'' Dad replied with a nod. Dr. Lewis led us down the hallway until we reached the room, where I was treated most of the time.

''So..where do I start? Good or bad news first?'' He asked us and my dad glanced over to me. I shrugged.

''Bad news first.'' I answered. Dr. Lewis nodded softly and sat in his seat, pulling out a few papers.

''So the bad news is that there is no way, we can stop your cancer from growing..'' Dr. Lewis started, but my Dad interrupted him.

Tell me something I don't know.

Of course my dad gasped because he had no idea that my death is already signed. I had asked Dr. Lewis to not tell my parents, that my cancer's growth is unstopable. It would only make them more depressiv.

''Which means the treatments didn't work again?'' Dad asked with a shaky voice. I grabbed his hand and held it tight to comfort him.

''Yes and No. We're not sure yet. We saw a change in her cancer's growth in the month of April. It drastically went down again, but the strange part is that in April Bella didn't have as much treatments as usual. We still have to figure out what made your cancer shrink and therefore we need your help Bella.'' Dr. Lewis said with a stern look.

''Why? You said you couldn't stop the cancer so why does it matter?'' I said slightly angry. I didn't want him to give my parents hope when there is none.

''Bella..'' Dad started to say, but Dr. Lewis cut him off.

''It's okay Charlie, she's right. Yes we can't stop you cancer, but if we figure out why it shrunk in April more than it did in the other months you could have more..'' Dr. Lewis told me, but stopped.

''I could have more time. That's what you wanted to say right?'' I finished his sentence. Dr. Lewis nodded with a sad expression.

''Additionally we could help other patients whose cancer is at an earlier stage.'' Dr. Lewis added.

''I'd love to help others, I really do. But April is month ago. I can't remember anything..'' I said, slightly desperate. Now it was my father's turn to squeeze my hand.

I was being completely honest. April was 4 month ago and I had no idea what I did different in that specific month.

''Did you travel? Or did anything that you only did in April?'' Dr. Lewis said, trying to help me remember.

I shook my head. ''Like I said I can't remember.''

''What about your diary? You could look at the pages from April, if you still write it.'' Dad suggested and looked between me and Dr. Lewis.

''Yeah I did. I could look it up and inform you when I find anything odd.'' I replied. A grateful smile spread across Dr. Lewis face.

''Thank you Bella. We try our hardest to give you more time.'' Dr. Lewis said with a serious look.

Even though my Dad was hiding it pretty well, I could see him fighting the tears. He was looking to the ground and slightly shaking his head, as if he couldn't process the words Dr. Lewis just said. Today is the first time one of my parents are being comfronted with the facts. The fact that I only have a matter of time to life. The fact that there is no chance to cure my cancer. The fact that they would loose one of their daughters soon.

''Dad, maybe it's best if you wait outside?'' I told him, rubbing his finger knuckles with my thumb.

''Know it's.. it's okay. I'm fine.'' Dad said mostly to himself. He looked up again and tried to keep his emotions inside of him. I knew that one more sentence would break his barrier and he'd start crying.

''Please Dad, I'd like to talk alone to Dr. Lewis... just for a few minutes and you can 'update' Mom in the meantime.'' I said to him as I slowly and carefully dropped his hand.

He hesitated for a minute before saying, ''Only a few minutes.'' And with that he left the room and I could see him picking out his phone.

''I know you didn't want your parents to find out Bella, but...-'' Dr. Lewis said and I cut him off.

''No it's alright, really. It was just a matter of time until they got to find it out. It's just that I can't see them suffering anymore so I don't..'' I said, but my voice broke.

''Don't forget to breathe Bella.'' Dr. Lewis reminded me. I catched my breath again and looked him serious in the eye.

''I don't want the few more weeks you could possibly give me. I've lived with the fact that I'm gonna die soon for month now and I can't handle it anymore. The wait is killing me.'' I told him. I felt the warm tears running down my cheeck.

''As you wish Bella, but please also consider your family. Maybe they would want to have more time with you.'' Dr. Lewis told me and I could see the pity in his eyes.

''More time will not make them happy Dr. Lewis. I see them crying and my family is on it's way to break apart because of me. I just want it to be over. I want them to live again.'' I said and I couldn't stop crying. Dr. Lewis stood up, grabbed a few tissues and handed them to me.

''Bella you're not breaking your family apart.'' Dr. Lewis told me sternly.

''I remember reading a quote by Ingrid Bergman..'' I started as I wiped my tears away. I stood up and qouted:

''Cancer vicitims who don't accept their fate, who don't learn to live with it, will only destroy what little time they have left.''

Dr. Lewis gave me a half smile. ''So you're sure?'' he asked me.

I nodded.'' 100% sure and believe I've never been so sure. I want to enjoy the time I have left and make the best out of it.'' I told him.

''You know... you could inspire many many other cancer patients with your words.'' Dr. Lewis said, now with a full smile. I smiled back.

''Thank you for everything... Henry.'' I said, using his first name. Dr. Lewis came grinning towards me and pulled me into a hug.

''Be safe Bella.'' He whispered.

''I'll try my best..''

(Kathleen's POV)

My sister's note was between my fingers and I was looking at it since the past hour. It was the first time Bella made the effort to directly contact me. She used to look at me or gesture to the backyard or our rooms, though I always ignored it. Since we moved away, I tried to ignore Bella and I was succesful. At least she would think that. Me and her used to be inseperable before me moved back to Florida. We were the true definition of twins.

There were many days where only Bella and I hung around for hours, heck even for days. We used to share one room, so we could always sneak to each others bed and talk and laugh until we'd fall asleep. Even though we are twins I used to look up at her. Not some freaking teenager celebrities were my idol. No she was.

Whenever something was wrong, Bella was the first to know. My parents believed it was because of the twin telepathy we shared, though I think it was mainly because Bella knew me better than anybody else. Even I didn't know as much about me. I used to tell her everything and she told me everything. Best buddies.

Our entire relationship changed when Bella made the decision to leave Forks, Washington. Our home, my home. I loved it there, heck no I adored Forks. A little town where it rains more a day than it does in other cities over the whole year. We had a house over there and everything was perfect. I was a straight A student in school, had amazing friends that supported me in everything I did and I had the biggest crush on a boy called Jacob.

Just because she decided to leave, because she broke up with her boyfriend meant we all had to leave. It was at the time when Bella was diagnosed with Leukemia and my parents fufilled her every single wish. And when Bella says she wants to leave Forks, because she couldn't handle to stay near him then that is final.

No one cared what I wanted in life. That I wanted to stay in Forks. Not only Bella had loved ones there, no so did I and I had to leave every single one of them, because of her. And no one asked about my opinion. I could have stayed with one of my friends or even Dad's friend Billy who I was close to, but no they insisted that I have to come with them, since I'm under 18.

Though I didn't hate Bella. Yes she took everything away from me, but she was still my sister. My twin. She was dying and she needed my help. I stayed like this for a moment and decided whether to go or not. What if she was in desperate need for help? But what could it be? I don't have the power to stop her cancer, though I wish I had it.

I felt my phone vibrate and quickly picked it up. A new text message. From Bella.

I'm sure you got my note, so if you decide to come, we just left the hospital, dunno when we're gonna be there. I'd say in half an hour, but I'm not sure. I'll send you another message when we're close. Hope to see you.- Bella

After staring at the text for a few minutes, I stood up, grabbed my bag and ran out of my room and out the door.

''Nah, where are you going?'' Mom asked me with a stern look. She grabbed my arm that tight that it hurted.

''Ouh Mom you're hurting me!'' I whined and she immediately let go. I could see regret flashing her eyes.

''I-I'm sorry.'' Mom stuttered.

''It's okay. And to answer your question, I'm gonna meet up with Bella.'' I told her and tried to grab my keys, who were lying behind her on the cupboard.

''You're meeting up Bella? As in your sister Bella?'' Mom asked stunned, her mouth was wide open.

''Yes the one and only Bella. Can I go now?'' I said a little impatient.

''Of course. Have fun.'' Mom told me with a wide grin on her face.

I closed the door behind me and walked over to my bicycle. Yes I'm gonna take my lovely bicycle. To be honest, I don't get why everyone is so obsessed with cars or why they have faith in them. I've seen it many times when the petrol of my friends cars go empty and we got stuck on the road. It even happened with my father's car and he once was the chief of police in Forks, Washington. Proud daughter of a police officer.

I cycled down the road and occasionally turned a few times left and right. The resturant 'La Vita' wasn't really far away and I'll probably arrive before Bella. My Dad sure is one of the slowest drivers in the world. Soon after I arrived and wasn't surprised when I didn't see Bella or my Dad's car. After I climbed off my bicycled, I walked into the resturant and booked a table for us. This resturatant used to be our favorite when we were little. Bella and I pestered my parents to take us here for luch every day and the food never got boring. This is actualy the first time I'm here again.

''Kathleen is that you?'' a female voice said. I turned around to see my best friend Kim Connweller and her boyfriend Jared.

''Kimmie?!'' I exclaimed in surprise. What was she doing in Phoenix? She rarely got out of the reservation.

''Hey good to see you.'' Kim said with a huge smile. She pulled me into a hug.

''What on earth are you doing here?'' I asked confused and happy at the same time.

''We received an email from Bella a few days ago. She invited us and I thought why not? I needed to shop for my prom dress anyways and you were always the best in choosing the right one.'' Kim said grinning. Jared stood next to her and he wrapped an arm around her waist.

''B-Bella i-invited y-you?'' I stuttered, unable to perfom a proper sentence.

''Yes.. why does it surprise you that much?'' Kim asked slightly taken aback.

''I was suppose to meet up with her and now I see you two. I guess I'm just too surprised. Plus I never thought she'd actually invite you...'' I mumbled, still half in shock.

''I don't get it Kathy. You two always used to suprise each other.'' Kim said.

I sighed. ''I'll explain it later. I first have to find Bella. How long do you stay?''

''2 days, prom is in three. It's fine, I'll call you tonight and we'll meet up.'' Kim answered me. I nodded with a smile.

''Hey Katherine.'' Jared said grinning like a fool. Oh not that again. Since the day I met Jared, he likes to call me Katherine instead of Kathleen, since he thinks Kathleen is a strange name.

''Oh shut up Jerry.'' I said and rolled my eyes.

''I think I've spotted Bella.'' Kim said looking over my shoulders. ''Anways see ya tomorrow.!''

And with that Kim and Jared made their way out. I turned around to see Bella entering the resturant and she clearly couldn't hide her smile.

''You know.. you could have given me a little warning.'' I told her with a smile and walked over to her.

''It wouldn't have been a surprise that way Kat.'' Bella rolled her eyes at me.

''I know.. but thank you.'' I told her honestly and she gave me a smile in return.

''So that was only one part why I wanted you to come here. I really need to talk to you Kat.'' Bella said more serious this time.

''Alright then let's sit down. But we'll eat after the talk right? I'm starving.'' I moaned and my hand moved to my belly.

Bella chuckled. ''You ate two hours ago.''

''Two hours is a veeeery long time you know.'' I told her serious. My stomach agreed by grumbling.

It was a bit weird to talk to Bella this way again. To talk to her with a nice tone and all. For month I've been cruel to her and I always searched for something to insult her, just because I couldn't get over the fact that we moved from Forks. All this time I thought Bella was the one being selfish, and maybe she was but so was I. She is sick, deadly sick and I never supported her. We walked to the table and sat down. There was a silence for awhile.

''Kathleen.. I know you hate me. And it's taken me this long to figure out why. When I broke up with Edward and told Mom and Dad I wanted to move back, I didn't ask you for your opinion. How selfish of me. I was only thinking about me and how I didn't want to meet him again, when you had friends and people who love you in Forks too.'' Bella apologised. She wanted to continue but I cut her off.

''Very true, but I wasn't near better. You are sick and all I thought about were my friends. I've been so cruel to you..'' I started to say, but my voice broke.

''Shh, I'm not mad at you.'' She said and moved closer to me to pull me into a hug.

''How can you not be? I treated you like shit and you have cancer!'' I exclaimed and felt tears running down my cheeck. For all this month I convinced myself that Bella deserved it, but the truth was I was acting like a 5 year old.

''I don't know, I'm simply not. You're my sister Kat, we fight and we make up again. I thought I had more time, but the truth is I didn't want to die with you hating me. Which sounds selfish again..'' Bella mumbled.

''Don't be silly, it's not selfish at all. And what do you mean with you thought you had more time?'' I asked confused. I looked her in the eye.

''Kathleen.. I only have a few more weeks. Maximun, before I'll die.'' She told me.

No. No. No. No.

''No you're lying! You're not dying! What about the treatments?!'' I cried out and couldn't stop all the tears. Bella was sobbing next to me.

She can't die. Just the words are killing me, they're ripping one piece of my heart out and it hurts. Very much. We shared a womb, were inseperable all our life and now she was going to leave me. She can't. I need her.

''They didn't work, but it's okay Kat. I'm ready for it.'' Bella assured me.

''But I'm not!'' I said, still crying. I couldn't discribe the hundreds of feelings that hit me like a thunderstorm. I felt sad, angry, broken and lost at the same time. She was my other half..

''I didn't say I'm ready to leave you. I'm only ready to fall asleep Kat.'' Bella said, sobbing.

''I love you Bella.'' I told her and hugged her tighter.

''As do I love you. Always and Forever.'' Bella whispered. I felt her tears on my shoulder.

''Always and Forever.'' I answered.

Yaay she made up with her twinnie! Though will Edward forgive her? Not too sure..

I know it seems like an ending but it's not lol. I've planned everything out all there will be four chapters plus an epilogue. Hope you liked it, if you did review!