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I froze, it took a couple of seconds for me to register what was happening I stopped and gave him a good hard push back. "What the hell do you think your doing?" usually if this happened to me at Ernest Pyle high school I would be clenching my fists and crushing some serious nasal cartilage, but there was two things stopping me;
a) the fact that I was practically frozen. I mean I had no idea how I even managed to push Malcolm away from my mouth. This was worse then the time when me and rob were making out in his mums pick up truck and all of a sudden great aunt rose popped up from no where banging on the window demanding to know what we were doing. Um hello it was pretty obvious what we were doing, frenching of course, but according to aunt rose you don't even hold fucking hands until your married, What's the fun in that I tell you? But then again Great Aunt Rose thinks it is inappropriate to wear a bra until the age of 18, obviously she hasn't heard of the term "white pointer"

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b) At that very moment I heard the familiar purr of Rob's motorcycle coming down the street, which I had told him specifically not to drive down, due to the whole not-wanting-rob-and-my-mum-to-meet-again. Anyway, Rob pulled the motorcycle to a halt and took off his helmet. His hair was wet from what I could see, and I bet he would smell of the man/soap smell he always did, which is kind of of depressing I mean, here I was, with Malcolm's tongue in my mouth. When all I really wanted was that same bolt of lightening that hit me less then a year ago to magically appear and hit me again.

Malcolm was staring at me funny again, like he was before Ruth rang. I could see Rob walking up to the patio from his bike, doing the whole casual-cool thing that he always does, but doesn't realise he is doing it. Every time I try to do that I always fuck it up by tripping over a rock or something.

Rob came closer, obviously he didn't see the look of naked panic on my face by the words that came next was a simple "hey guys". "HEY GUYS" dude, Malcolm basically sexually assaulted me on my front patio and all you say is "hey guys", of course I couldn't blame Rob I mean he obviously didn't see what had happened and I don't think Malcolm was exactly 'eager' to tell him either because he quickly muttered a bye and walked to his car and drove away, which was a huge relief. I sighed and looked up at Rob who looked sunkissed from working outside for a long period of time and I felt like crying, and I never cry.

All I could manage to Rob was a small "hi" before grabbing my leather jacket and walking quickly to his Indian, dragging Rob by the arm. "Whoa Mastriani, look if you were eager to see me I could have picked you up earlier you know." Rob said in an amused way. I laughed aquwardly even though I had just done something horrible to Rob, who had done nothing, but to try and help me he past year and wave of guilt washed over me. In the heat of the guilt I reached up to Rob's face and started kissing him passionately. Rob was kind of shocked but soon got over it kissing me even more harder his hand moving up under my t-shirt and resting in the small of my back, I had placed my hands around his neck while his tongue slid around my mouth. Being with Rob felt so safe, like I knew he could protect me from anything, also being a mechanic Rob had big muscly arms, which felt really nice, wrapped around you. "Jess are you alright?" that's another thing about Rob he seems to sense it when something's not right, like he is a physic even though I'm supposed to be the one with the 'powers'. I tensed could he have known what happened with me and Malcolm. 'Yea Rob, I'm fine look lets just go" me trying to frantically trying to change the subject. "Ok, then where to?" Rob asked me. Anywhere, anywhere away from my house away from Dr.Krantz and his stupid group, away from Ruth and especially away from Malcolm. "Uh, I dunno you choose..Yeah?" Rob smiled and handed me a helmet and gestured for me to hop on the bike. So where did Rob end up taking us? Back to the Bar where me and him ate our first burgers together. As soon as I got off the bike Rob was looking at me. I smiled at him, and he smiled at me and grabbed my hand and we walked in me trailing after Rob. Rob ordered for the both of us and I went outside to give Ruth a call on my mobile, I was hoping Ruth had calmed down by now and I could apologise for not coming on her date with Scott and her and I'd promise I'd make it up to her, but when I rang their house skip promptly informed me that Ruth wasn't home even though I know she was because her date with Scott didn't start until another hour or so and she was probably blow drying her hair or something. "Look, skip this is really important, I know Ruth is there please put her on the phone." I was getting annoyed I mean sure I didn't want to tag along on Ruth's date especially with Rob how aquward would that have been, it's bad enough having to introduce Rob and Ruth to each other, but to spend a whole night with each other, I just don't see it happening. "Look, Jess, Ruth's pretty mad with you right now, you should give it some time, ok?" and with that he hung up on me. I stood there staring down at my phone I quickly turned around, and completely not looking where I was going I smacked right into just-call-me-Gary who was coming out of the gas station situated right next door to the bar, armed with a bag of supplies for gods know what. "Hey there little lady" Just-call-me-Gary said, "whatcha doing" Gary looked kind of flustered to say the least. "Um not much uh...sir I'm just here with Rob we are just grabbing a bite to eat." "Gary please, just-call-me-Gary" I smiled at him and said "sure, well I'd better be back inside our burgers are probably up, so I'll talk to you later sir...Gary." "See ya 'round kiddo" was Gary reply before looking sheepish and hopping into his beat up car and driving off.

I entered the bar again and was welcomed by the air conditioning that someone had thoughtfully turned on. It was the begging of autumn and the whether hadn't quite cooled down enough, I could feel tiny prickles of sweat at the back of my neck. As soon as I had walked in Robs eye caught mine and he smiled at me, I smiled back and hurried back over to the table where Rob was causing sitting, Rob could make sitting in a booth look sexy. "Hey, where'd you go" was Rob's reply even more casual as the way he was sitting, a pang of guilt rushed into my stomach as I remembered Malcolm kissing me before I thought to myself as I was staring at Rob- was it really my fault, did I ever lead him on? I mean I didn't kiss him back but I just have a feeling that this is all my fault- as I was thinking this Rob moved his hand onto mine and gave it a gentle squeeze. He was staring at me in the way that he does, as if he is trying to figure out what is going on inside my brain. "Mastriani, what are you thinking about?" I gave him a smile which felt really weak and told him nothing, in that moment the waiter came up to us and presented us with a burger and steaming side of French fries, my stomach grumbled. I took a huge bite of my burger, which was probably too big as Rob looked at me in disbelief. I blushed with embarrassment trying to swallow down the big bite of burger I just took. "I'm sorry, I'm so hungry." Rob just chuckled and took an equally big bite of his.

After we had finished eating and had paid- rob had insisted on paying for my meal even though I strenuously insisted that I should at least pay for something as every time we go out he always ends up paying- we went back to his house. Rob told me he wanted to show me the rest of the work he had done on his motorbike-even though every time we venture into the barn me end up making out- this time was no different Rob grabbed me by the waist and pulled me into him and kissed me even more passionately before, outside of my house. As per usual his hand ventured up the back of my top resting in the small of my back as mine went underneath his t-shirt feeling the ripples in his abdomen. As he was doing this I felt guilty, the only persons mouth I ever wanted on mine was Rob's. Rob was my soulmate. "Rob." I said tearing my lips away from his, his eyes seemed disorientated and the back of his hair was sticking up from where I had run my hand through it. "Not now Mastriani" and went back to kissing me. I could have kissed Rob forever, but I had to tell him the truth, for both our sakes. "Rob, this is really important" I, said, taking a step back to make sure he wouldn't distract me by kissing me again. He seemed kind of peeved that I had stopped kissing, even though it was the exact same thing I was thinking. His pale, pale blue eyes stared at me with a look of curiosity and concern and I felt like a bitch for having to tell him this. "Rob I really, need to talk to you for a second" as I was saying this I led him over to the stack of hay that Rob- for some god for saken reason- had in his barn. "Rob, I'll tell you this is you promise not to get mad?" "Jess, what have you done." I was getting kind of annoyed at Rob, sure he was my soulmate but he was also a pain up the butt, questioning me all the time about things. "Look Rob" the impatience in my voice starting to show "Promise me you wont get mad, ok, promise." I was giving him a pleading look, something of which he must have noticed since he calmly said. "Sure, Mastriani, I promise I wont get mad, look can you tell me what's wrong, your starting to freak me out."

This was it the make or break of the relationship, in a matter of seconds the whole relationship that I had spent the last entire year trying to create would crumble. I took a deep breath; it was now or never.

"Rob, Malcolm and I...well he, he kissed me.